Dear Mischelle,
I know JUST how you feel. My surgery was 12/2/02, and my sister stayed with me until they took me in to surgery: Her 'job' was to keep me from backing out! It is a huge decision, and making a list of what you can't do now, that you will be able to do in a 'normal size' body helps a lot.
I feel better each day, have lost 25-30 lbs, my arthritic knee no longer hurts, my BP is normal.
Everyone who posts to me says we will be glad we did it, and I'll bet you will too! I went to Dr. Sifers at Shawnee Mission Medical Center.
Diane