Hey sista,
I got your e-mail and I just wanted to let you know that you are in my prayers EVERY DAY! You will be okay. God is lookin' out for ya!
Now... As your angel, it is my job to remind you why you made this decision and here's my reminder...
<P>"I just want to be free...like a eagle...peaceful....I miss feeling sexy...I love to dance and sing around the house...I love every thing dealing with being in love and family....I am hard working...I feel I could be a better mom if I could keep up better with my family...I am only 32, with 2 teenagers, and I have been married 17 years to a great and supportive man...I am young and I want my body to match my youth..I feel I could conquer the world if I was not so heavy...change my veiw of life...and of myself.....any comments would be greatly respected. and prayers....."
<P>Does that sound familiar? Those are YOUR words from the beginning of YOUR profile. Those are all the reasons you decided that this surgery was right for you.
<P>I'm sure that EVERYTHING you are feeling right now is TOTALLY NORMAL. (I would probably be concerned if you were'n't feeling a bit nervous.) However. Please don't question yourself regarding WHY you've made this decision. Just re-read your journal to remind yourself.
You have thought about this decision for a long time, you have waited a long time, you've gotten so close way to many times to start questioning yourself now. This surgery is going to change your life for the better. Everything you talk about in your journal is going to happen sooner than you think. You are going to be healthier, feel sexier, be able to keep up with those kids of yours and you are going to say to yourself... "self... what was I trippin' about. This was the best decision I've ever made!"
<P>NOW... If it's the actual surgery itself that has you questioning your decision... this is what I have to say... WHY? This is not a decision you made lightly right? You've researched the pros and cons of this surgery right? You know there are risks to having this or any kind of surgery right? And I KNOW that you KNOW there is a GREATER risk of death if you don't have the surgery! People like us, who decide to have this surgery are, in MY opinion, people who understand that their problems with weight have gotten to the point where something DRASTIC needs to take place in order to save their lives. People like us are called "Morbidlly Obese" for a reason. We are carrying around a ton of DEAD WEIGHT! Did you hear me? DEAD WEIGHT! Over time, this DEAD WEIGHT will slowly but surely kill us. Weather it's that we gain so much weight we can't get out of our beds, or it could be that because of our weight we get all these other co-morbidities that contribute to a 'earlier than scheduled' death. Whatever was your breaking point that helped push you over the edge to make this decision, that is what you need to keep focusing on. You KNOW that God is going to take care of you, he has this far hasn't he? God will be in the operating with you on April 9th. He will walk you in there, he'll sit there right by your side while the doctors do thier thing, then, he'll walk you back to your room and sit by your side smiling waiting for you to wake up and say... "I'm finally on the other side." What better peace is there than knowing that?
<p>Well sista, my lecturing for the day is done. I hope I've helped a little bit at least. Thanks again for letting me be your angel.