Erynn Z.

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I think I hit a stall. My weight loss for this week was a big fat ZERO. I was actually down a pound all the way through the weekend, but today, for the official weekly weigh in, it came back. Dang it. So here I hover at 232.5. Grr.

I will admit that I wasn't using my tool to the best of its ability. For example, I knew there'd be a stall fairly early, so I figured I'd wait to start exercising regularly until I hit that stall, so that I could give my metabolism that extra boost when it needed it. This morning I woke up early, did 5 miles on my stationary bike, and followed it up with some upper-body weight lifting.

Also, I was very, very hungry this past weekend and yesterday. I think my body had hit starvation mode and activated binge mode. Yesterday was my highest post-surgery calorie intake, at nearly 1400 calories. (only 53g total carbs, though.)  This weekend I ate a lot of carbs, however. Over 2 days,  I ate more bad-carbs than I should have; basically a piece of bread, some potatoes, a couple slices of thin crust pizza, and one bite of cake.

Hopefully, with the introduction of exercise, and by steering away from bad carbs, I'll be able to bust this stall before it becomes substantial.

Well, I'm down to 232.5, making the total loss since the day of surgery 36 lbs. I'm still feeling good, and things are still going fantastic with James. I seem to be an odd size, though. My Tommy jeans (size 18) are falling off me, my size 18 Gap jeans are too tight still, and yesterday I bought a size 16 skirt that fits. Strange.

Constipation is becoming more of a problem as well. I think I need to eat some carbs today to kind of clear things out, because the fats aren't doing a good job.

Wow, there's not much to report this week, other than that I hit the 230's (236.5, to be exact,) and my ladies size XL North Face coat fits again!!! I was really happy about that, because it's such a cute winter coat, and so comfy!

The second date with James went smashingly, and there are many, many more to come. He's so great. Next Saturday he's invited me over to Windsor, and we're going to celebrate a big belated Valentines Day in Canada, since he has to work on Valentines day itself. I can't wait to see what he has planned; I love good surprises.

My energy levels still keep increasing. Last night I did an official workout for the first time since surgery. It was a small workout, but a workout nonetheless. I did 3 miles on the stationary bike and followed it up with a little bit of upper-body weight lifting. I plan to do more tonight. I need to get back in Dance Dance Revolution shape!

Well, today is 5 weeks from surgery. I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 241.5!!!! That's a 27 lb. loss since surgery, and a 4lb loss since Friday. Eating better quality food has really been helping!

My energy is coming back in leaps and bounds. Work is no longer tiring, it's just boring. I'm starting to feel like a normal person again. Oh... which brings me to a weird thought I had this morning. I was sitting there, happy about my weight loss, but then I realized that this was ACTUALLY going to happen; I was ACTUALLY going to get to a normal weight; and I got a little bit scared about that. I don't know why. I guess because random people will start noticing me again, and I'm so shy in real life. I've grown comfortable being an anonymous blob that nobody thinks twice about. It will be so strange to have random people look at me with looks other than disapproval. I rarely make eye contact with strangers already for fear of that. *sigh* As they say, DS doesn't operate on our brains!

The belly button sore is finally healing too, so I'm very happy about that. 

Also, this means that by the next time I go out with James, (oh, new man, forgot to mention him here. We went out last weekend; he's awesome,) I'll be in the 230s!!! YAY!

Wow, one month ago today my journey started... Crazy how time flies!!!

I stepped on the scale this morning and was 245.5... a 23 lb. loss since the morning of surgery; not too shabby, since the morning of surgery I was completely dehydrated and empty from bowel prep.

Some "wow"-ish moments from this week: I hurried up a flight of stairs that used to be the bane of my existence at work without even realizing it, and with not nearly as much knee pain as before! That has been my favorite wow so far. Also, two of my friends actually did notice my weight loss in my face, but they didn't say anything until I said something about it. Guess they didn't want to make me feel weird or something. :-)

The belly button sore still continues. I had Jackie (the most wonderful nurse ever) look at it yesterday, and she pulled a piece of fat out of it that was acting like a skin tag/splinter type irritation, so hopefully it will heal now. It does look better today. That experience made me nervous, though, because she was making small talk, but as she was doing so, I was watching her pull out a surgical clamp and some gauze, and I was just thinking, "oh God, this won't be good." but I just told myself when she was fishing around in there that she was removing fat from my body, and that seemed to help. (It didn't really hurt, it was just a weird feeling of discomfort.)

The only other thing to mention is that I went grocery shopping last night, and I'm SO proud of myself, because I didn't buy any "treats" for myself like I would have done pre-op! I only bought food from the dairy, meat, and produce departments, and didn't even glance at the frozen food section! (That section is always my downfall.) It was very difficult, especially with all of the valentines candy around. This is the first year in a long time that I'll be single for valentines day, and I really, really wanted to buy myself a valentines day treat, especially since the stuff was staring me in the face. However, I was strong, and I resisted. The only sugary things that I bought were clementine oranges and green grapes!

I went in today to have the sore in my belly button looked at. Jackie said that there was a fat tag (like a skin tag) in the wound, and that the wound kind of radiated from it (basically the fat tag acted like a splinter.) She grabbed some clamps and removed it, and kind of pulled things together while she was there, so hopefully it will close up now. The good thing was that it wasn't serious enough to have Dr. Hares look at it. I just have to keep doing what I'm doing, and wait for it to close up on its own.

Today, I hurried up a flight of stairs! I didn't even realize it until I was already up them. These are the same stairs that I used to take very slowly, because they made my knees ache with every step. I'm so excited, not only to have less knee pain, but to have the energy to hurry up stairs again!

Also, Bree and Amy said (independently of each other) that they could see the weight change in my face! Yayyyy!

The only thing that I'm unhappy about is the crap (leftover from pre-op) in my fridge. (I ate a lot of it yesterday, and thus concluded that it just can't be there anymore, or I'll eat it.) The pizza rolls and toaster pastries have gotta GO! I wish I could send them to the poor starving children in Africa, but I think I'm going to offer them to Amy as hubby-chow.

246.5; Yay! Down 22lbs. since the morning of surgery! (Of course, Friday is my official 1-month surgiversary, so I'm hoping to be down another pound by then.)

Overall I feel really good. My energy's coming back, and I can wear 18-20s again! Yippeee! My 2X clothes are starting to get big on me, and I'm starting to see that I did look fat in the before picture that my surgeon took. (Before, it was just "yep, that's me; I'm normal... kinda...")

I did have a disheartening moment yesterday, when a girl at work asked "So have you lost any weight since surgery?" Ouch. However, the kind folks on the DS board helped me realize that people don't really notice until a very large amount of weight is lost.

The other thing to mention is the bedsore in my belly button. It doesn't really look like it's healing. It's still not showing signs of infection, which is good, but I really want it to heal up and be gone! We'll see what Dr. Hares and Jackie say on Thursday.

OH! Almost forgot. Today is the first day where I'm allowed to eat real food again! I had eggs and crispy lean bacon for breakfast; it was SO good.

Ew! Ok, I discovered some weirdness going on near my incision in my belly button last week. Yesterday my mom looked at it; and it turns out it's an ulceration of the skin around the incision! It's basically a bedsore! EWWWW! It's small, but it's INSIDE my belly button, which sucks. I have to lay flat to air it out, because my belly button (especially the area where the sore is) is almost perpetually inside a fat roll crease.

Hopefully this will heal soon. The good news is that it's not infected.

LOL, I now weigh my local area code! How funny!

I'm so excited to be under 250! I get a dot on Fitday now!