Mary Ellen S.

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Yep this weekend I did something I could not have done 2 years ago at 317lbs!  Or even last year at 240lbs but this last weekend I went to an Appleseed shoot and became a rifleman!  Out of 25 in attendance only 8 made Rifleman and 4 of them were in my family!  Yep, my hubby, My 18 yr old daughter my 21 yr old son and ME!  To learn what that means you can visit www.appleseedinfo.org 

And the bonus I lost 2lbs sweating in that heat!  Ha Ha!  I never once thought about my weight or if I was embarrasing looking or too fat or did I feel uncomfortable (except when the hot brass fell down the front of my shirt and did a little sizzle between the girls!  Yikes that left a mark.)    

So happy to finally just do and not think about if my weight will get in the way.  This is why it is all worth it!  

Until next time...

M.E.

It's getting more fun to post now that I am in the 100's and am losing at a steady pace again.  Yes, it's slow but I am thrilled.  I have lost 1.5lbs this week (maybe two) which is fast for me.  I am at 194.5 today and I weighed in last tuesday (today is Monday) that is why I say it could be 2lbs if I am down tomorrow.   I actually for the first time can see an actual end to this journey.  I am 14.5lbs from my goal weight but will I be happy there?  I don't know.  It would be fun to be less than I was in college which if I get under 175 I will be there.  I was 180 when I got married and I guess I was a little "chubby" then.  But we will see.  I am not making any judgement calls until I get there.  I was 150lbs when I graduated from High school and then put on the Freshman "50" but when I transfered as a Junior I lost 30lbs putting me around 175 where I stayed until I got married 180 and then started having babies.  

The difference is I think my body shape is completely different than it was then.  I am holding my weight differently now.  It's interesting to me.  Well, that was a random thought.  Better stop typing now.

until next time....
M.E.

When you get to this point you think things are going so slow so that is why I post here to show myself that I am actually on track.  I have lost 4lbs this month which is exactly where I need to be.  I reset my goal today  from 190 to 180.  That is the weight I would like to be at before consulting with a plastic surgeon.  I hope that at this pace I can be there by fall and then contact the plastic surgeon  the summer of 2009 when I am done working.  Be interesting to see how this next process goes and when.  I am anxious for it let me tell you.   Here I thought I would be totally thrilled being where I am and I really hate my body.  So much fat and skin hanging that I can't stand it.  I can't buy any shirts that are not 3/4 length because I have so much fat hanging at my elbows.  I am in pants a size bigger because of the fat around my abdomen.  It will come, I know it will.  Until then....

M.E.

While it may be foreign to some who have been thin their whole life but it's a major milestone to someone like me who has been obese all of their adult life.  I finally hit onederland!  I was 199.5 today.  (117.5lbs lost) So excited I made my hubby take a picture of the scale which I have added to my photos section.  You will laugh when I say I tried to do it myself but I have one of those big SLR cameras and it tipped the scale back to about 201 so I had to have him come in and take the pic. 

Saturday May 17th- 200lbs 

My 2 year Bandiversary is today.  I have lost 117 in 2 years.  I am so much happier about the way I look.  I can finally concentrate on life and not on how fat and miserable I am!  Thank you Lap Band

Reference: 1 year bandiversary- 70lbs lost
                2 year bandiversary-117lbs lost  (additional 47lbs lost)
                    

Yes, I'm losing again.  Thrilled.  4lbs to be in the 100's!  I can't believe it!  I knew the band would be a good thing for me but I really never let myself think I could ever be below 200lbs again...ever.  Now I know I will do it.  Then I start thinking about my next step.  Plastic Surgery.  I won't let myself think seriously about it quite yet.  I get in the 190's and I will start thinking about it for real ;-)  

Until next time....
M.E.

I am down to 206 today.  I had a fill 2 weeks ago almost.  I haven't really lost since I had the fill yet as I haven't felt more restriction until last night.  Spent most of the night sitting up on the couch due to a lot of reflux from supper.  Today I am very tight coffee is even gurgling.  I hope this means I will start losing again.  I really want to see the 100's!  It's been about 20 years!  I went shopping yesterday and bought a dress that was a 16W  My sisters were with me and thought I could maybe get by with a smaller size but my head was just wrapping around the 16W so I will stay there plus I am not sure they were right.  I thought it was tight enough! ;-)

I wanted to get on and post so I can keep track of my journey.  I do this for myself so I have a record of where I have been, where i am going and how I got there.  I dont' post often but I try to post when I have a major change in my journey.  If it helps someone else than I am thrilled!  

Until my next post,
M.E.

Went to a WLS support group meeting on Tuesday of this week.  I do not usually attend because I am usually the only band patient there but they had a plastic surgeon there talking so I wanted to go because I am starting to think about it.  Jeanine the nurse that does my fills was there running the meeting so I talked to her about whether I need a fill or not.  I have trouble remembering where I was and how far I have come so I thought the best way is to write it on my blog/journal since I come back here and realize oh yeah ok that is how much I have lost.

I am at 212 now  I have basically been here for 3 or 4 weeks.  33.2 BMI  I would like to get between 180-190.  I was suprised that the doctor said you do not have to have lost all of your weight to have surgery.  He said usually people are around 200 and he just won't do it if you are over 250.  I"m like 250!  Wow I qualify.  His partner would like you to be at a BMI under 30 so I am close in that sense too.  I am seriously thinking about this.  I am seriously happy with my body shape right now.even though I am a larger gal.  I like having curves I just don't want the hanging skin that goes along with it. 

Santa Claus made a special trip to my house this year!  I stepped on that scale, rubbed my eyes in disbelief and could not believe I made the Century mark!  I have lost 100 pounds!  Yep!!  A very happy day in my journey.  I was 216.5 and started at 317!  Wow do I feel better.  It hasn't been easy by any means but worth it most certainly.  I could have never done this without WLS.  I know that and respect that.  Thank you to everyone who has supported me on my journey.  You are the best!
M.E.

I had to check in tonight since it is Turkey Day and I had signed up for the challenge.  I not only met it but surprisingly to me I surpassed it.  I was signed up for 12lbs by Thanksgiving which would have been 224.5 and I was 222.5 today so that is 14lbs in the last 12 weeks.  That is good for me.  I have to admit the only reason is because I have been working so much I have not time to eat.  That is not good because as soon as I can eat I will probably have a gain.  But I am happy today.

Happy Thanksgiving to all!

M.E.