Mary Ellen S.

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Went to the Doctors on Monday for what I thought would be my last fill.  It was not what I had expected at all.  First the receptionist came in with the camera and said "I want to take your after picture."  I said, but I am not at goal.  She just looked at me like whatever woman but said...well, you tell me when you are at goal and I will take another picture then!  Ha Ha.  So I told her to make me a copy of both so I will upload them to my photos for you to see the difference. It is pretty amazing even to me.  So anyway the Nurse who does my fills came in and we talked.  First thing she said was you are ready for plastic surgery now.  Then we talked about my goal and she said so that is about 10-12 more pounds (I would like to see 165)which seems reasonable but since I can't have surgery until next summer she didn't see why I couldn't lose that by watching my calories and increasing my exercise.  She thinks I might actually not be eating enough.  She mentioned a cup and a half and I looked at her like...no way.  I do not think I can eat that much so she said I might not be eating enough calories and to start watching it and making my daily count between 1200 and 1400 calories.  So I am going to give that a try...I have to admit I was very nervous about this fill so much so that I even had a drink the night before and I hardly ever drink!  I just was dreading not being able to eat and having possible PB'ing episodes and even having the heartburn come back. It has subsided quite a bit now.  But she did say she is not saying I can never have a fill.  If in another month or so if I am still not losing and I want a fill just to make the appt and she will give me  a slight one. 

Until next time.....

M.E.

Well, just a quick update...my hubby totally did not remember it was our anniversary.  I baked him an apple pie and made a delicious supper.  Bought him a nice pen and journal and made him a handstamped card. Put it on the supper table and he was like..."what's this for?"  Then he realized.   Never did say Happy Anniversary (which is all I really wanted to hear) he just said something stupid like....huh I forgot!...men.  (topic for another day)

Until after my fill appt on Monday I suppose....I'm eating like it's my last meal this week....weight is back up in the 180's.  I gotta stop this.
M.E.

I went ahead and scheduled what I hope might  be my last fill.  October 27th.  I think I am within 13 or so pounds of being at goal (165) but then I have a lot of sagging bagging skin that needs to be removed.  I am not sure where I really need to be before having plastics done.  Since I made the appt I noticed I am watching what I eat really carefully because for some reason I feel like I need to be in the 70's before I go.  I am 178 today but that is buck naked first thing in the morning and that is not how I will be going to the doctor next week

What I do know is I am now officially smaller than I was 24 years ago on my wedding day October 20th, 1984.  (tomorrow is my anniversary wonder if my hubby will remember, honestly if I hadn't just talked about it I doubt I would remember.....I'm worse than he is sometimes!)

Until next time....
M.E.

I see it's been over a month since I checked in so I thought I would.  I try to keep an accurate picture of my journey.  I am down today to 180.5  I still need to get in for a fill but have been putting it off.  Putting it off.  I know it's silly but I'm so busy I do not look forward to having to be on liquids and then not being able to eat again.  I am so close to being at goal though that I know I need to do it.  Another 15lbs and I will be at goal.  I will be there by the my 3 year bandiversary that is what I want and I believe that is what I will get. 

Until next time (When I am in the 170's)

M.E.
 

Well, no I do not think I am at goal.  Last time I was in Clinton at the office I saw the dietician and I said ok time to set a goal.  She said you are 5'7" tall so your ideal body weight is 135.  Ok so I totally laughed at her. out loud then left very depressed.  I wear a size 11 shoe and am from German Heritage there is nothing small about my frame.  She said well we give you 20lbs for excess skin so 155.  Well, no I am not sure I can be that small either but it's only because I do not think I can.  Really my body could be that small and be just fine but my mind won't allow me to think that way.  And I do like curves.  I really do I dont' want to be skin and bones.  I am a very large busted woman.  38H cup  so I have curves.  I think I would be happy, very happy if after plasic surgery I weighed 165.  That sounds 'perfect' to me.  I need to go in for another fill.  That is why I am posting today.  I wanted to say that I have not lost weight this month.  I am bouncing up and down.  I was down to 184.5 but today I am back up to 187.  I also know I am eating more than I was and I have more head hunger and am eating more often because of it so it's time.  I will call to make the appt. next time Jeanine is in Champaign.  Well, just wanted to post where I was at for my own info.  If it helps you then that's great!  Let me know by posting a comment! 

My dreams did come true.  I was 185 this morning!  2 more pounds gone.  Wow I hope i can keep it going.  I am loving this!  I never ever thought I would be here again and it's wonderful and it feels wonderful.  I really want to keep it going now. 

Until next time....

M.E.

Just got back from a convention and lost weight.  Getting ready to go to another convention and hoping to lose more weight.  Guess it's the miles and miles of walking you do.  Ok plus no snacking I guess....although I have to admit I did eat only ice cream for two of the meals.  tehehe.  Once the kids went to the food court and I thought a milkshake sounded good and of course then that was all I wanted.  Then one time we missed a meal and about 3:30 I decided to go to the local ice cream place that I heard was really good.  So another ice Cream meal but came home at 187.5 so ...all is good!  Post more when I get back from Salt Lake City next week.  I guarantee there will be no ice cream meals here and much more walking as our hotel is several blocks away.  I have been several times and have never had an ice cream meal in SLC.  My goal is 185!!  Well, I can dream!! 

Until then....
M.E.

Here I am in the 80's.  

Went shopping with my eldest daughter yesterday picked up a pair of pants that I thought were 16's.  Tried them on they fit and looked great!  Took them off and they were 14's!  I almost died!  I was so excited.  I know I always wear my clothes too big anyway but I could not believe I was wearing 14's!  Real 14's not Womens but Misses.  Hey people this is a big deal!  I have not worn a real misses size in what....25 or 28 years?  Yes, seriously!  I think I was 18 when I weighed 150.  So that is 28 years ago.  Then I gained big time but got back down to 180 before I got married 24 years ago.  So yep about 24 years!  Wow that is crazy!!

Until next time....
M.E.

I can't help it I feel like the 90's are just flying by and I do not know why but I am happy.  I lost another pound today 190!  What's up?  Who cares!  This is great!  That's it for me....

Until next time....
M.E.

Well, do not know what I am doing differently but I feel like I am zipping through the 90's.  191 today and moving downward.  I have never zipped through any scale numbers on this whole journey.  It's seems to always be slow and steady.  But these 190's seem a blur and I like it! ;-)  Just had to get on and post so I can remember this when the 80's drag on forever!  ha ha....

Until next time....

M.E.

ps.....see I have a BMI in the 20's!  Wowee  how cool is that!