Hi Katrina, I just wanted to let you know I went through the same thing, and my bmi started off at 39.I will be having my surgery on June 5th. When people said I was crazy for doing this, that I did not have to lose that much weight, I would tell them I was 100 pds. overweight. Then they would say but you don't look like it. I started feeling like I didn't deserve this. But people on this site encouraged me and made me realize that just because I was only a hundred pds.over weight I still had every right to have this surgery. I also felt that I didn't want to gain another 50 pds. (which was where I was headed) to then decide that I deserved it. Im thankful I didn't give up. Best wishes Geri