scoobydea
I have been heavy my whole life. My first memory of going to school is getting made fun of in Kindergarten for being fat.
Most of my childhood I was what you would call chubby. Kids can be very mean, I always thought I was horribly fat. As an adult, I look back at my childhood pictures and know that I was not as big as I felt.
In my Junior year of High School, I started gaining significant weight. I had a lot of stress and no outlet. Not a good combination.
As an adult I have found the happiness that illuded me in my childhood and adolescence. I am married to a wonderful man who loves me how I am, and embraces what I can be.
Surgery for me is like repentance. Repentance is a verb, for me it is a turning away from self hate, and learning to love myself complete with my flaws.
