Peaches24

Send Message

Block

Add Friend

While at work today, i was looking at some of the ladies and wondering if i would be as small as that person or another person. Or will just be a few pounds lighter what will i look like, the one friend i did tell,asked why i am nervous, i told her its because i just have never believed or been able to imgaine a smaller me..i seriously exercised my head off over the years free gyms, not free gyms, home equipment yet here i am muscles weight and all in full effect.. so i gues nothing is sinking in yet,i see all the success stories but i just dont know if it will work for me, i  reallllly hope it does, i'll bleeve it when i see it i guess. hmmmmmmm

My weight has yo yo'd between 220 and 215 since the birth of my 14 year old..i was always the cute fat girl.. the 16's are changing to 18's and the larges are going to xtra large..i walk alot..and i eat alot i guess...so it evens out..i get exercise i dont get weight loss which is what i strive to achieve, i prayed to the man above and i said " if its in your will for me to have this done you will make away and i will be approved... Well needless to say i was approved the very next day after my Dr submitted to my insurance company. I wish i could get my family to support me on this journey instead of saying WE are big boned women..i have a mother and father that both have diabetes and heart problems. Is it asking to much for my family to say go ahead this may be what you need so you dont get diabetes i alredy have high blood pressure..If this is what you really want im here for you..? but oh well.. i did leave the nest at 18 and if they love me fat im hoping they will still love me when im skinny...........signed .........thinking about my health.