I cannot believe it's been over a year!!!

Feb 01, 2010

Hi All!!!! 

I am in shock that is has been so long since I have updated my profile. ALOT has been happening this past year. So per my last update I was looking to have a revision from my Lapband and get the gastric bypass I mean I really wanted to get it soooo bad because I am just sick and tired of being morbidly obese. I mean it is just annoying hearing your in the same category 4 years post op  So I went on the diet and was losing weight like I was supposed to but during this whole time I was praying to Jehovah, I always want to make sure I have his opinion on things so I prayed and prayed and then I call the insurance and my new job does not cover ANY kind of bariatric surgery. I tried every which way to get this thing approved but nope it was not happening. I finally resolved in my heart that this is not Jehovah's will for me and I am very happy I heeded his counsel because I don't know what could have happened down the line. SO I figured why not just use what I have.... I got a fill!!! Oh my gravy... one of the biggest mistakes ever. I mean yes I losing weight... In one week I lost 8 lbs... but I was definitely miserable. I have a very active social life so I never felt comfortable being around other people and eating. I always felt I would hve to excuse myself and throw up. Gross I know but that was my reality. I stayed filled for about 4 months and then I went in for a unfill. I have lost since but not that much... not much at all because when I got unfilled I was wearing a size 26 but now I can wear a size 22. Im happy because I am able to live my life and now I am comfortable.

I am still looking to lose weight but through regular diet and exercise. Being skinny and uncomfortable is not my way of living... MIND U THIS IS JUST MY OPINION AND EXPERIENCE. I take 100% of the blame for being in the condition I am in... I know I was not ready for the surgery now but the good thing with the band is I can just get a fill if I want to really start losing, I dont see me doing that anytime soon but I know the option is available.

Oh yea so I got all my blood work done a few months back and I am healthy as a horse!!! Even I was surprised. LOL!!!! But I am definitely a happy camper. I guess my goal right now is just to stay moving and watch what I eat. Something I should have done from the start. So if anyone actually reads this and has any questions, feel free to write me. I will try to be on more regularly

Love, Peace and Hair Grease

~Jess

**** Measurements coming soon.....

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