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Just a mini update.... started bookcamp on 3.14.2012 or about that day and so far I am down 7.1 lbs. I am getting happy again... it is definitely bringing on the aches and pains but it feels good to get my body moving. I am hoping to be down 10 lbs soon... who knows. But I am just happy I am BELOW 300 lbs.... only 7 months until the wedding.... hopefully I can be down 40 0r 50 lbs by then. No pressure... just going to keep doing what I am doing....

Hi All....

So Im back, it's hilarious how I seem to come back here every February. I wonder why that is??? Anywho... No changes to report. I started weight watchers and got down to about 290 but that was it. I am currently back to my uncomfortable 306 lbs. I am trying to not get depressed but I have seen no major changes in over 5 years and it's all me. I HAVE TO MENTALLY CHANGE MY VIEW OF FOOD. Hopefully this time is it. I am the maid of honor in my sister's wedding in a few months. I pray that I will be able to make the changes needed to be happy and healthy when I walk down the aisle. That's it for now I will try to be back sooner than I have been in the past.

Running late for work but I had to add this before I left.... Got on the scale and it still says it cannot read my weight. Which only means I am still over 300 lbs.... ********* tear drop ************ I see it is not going to be a good day!

Hi All!!!! 

I am in shock that is has been so long since I have updated my profile. ALOT has been happening this past year. So per my last update I was looking to have a revision from my Lapband and get the gastric bypass I mean I really wanted to get it soooo bad because I am just sick and tired of being morbidly obese. I mean it is just annoying hearing your in the same category 4 years post op  So I went on the diet and was losing weight like I was supposed to but during this whole time I was praying to Jehovah, I always want to make sure I have his opinion on things so I prayed and prayed and then I call the insurance and my new job does not cover ANY kind of bariatric surgery. I tried every which way to get this thing approved but nope it was not happening. I finally resolved in my heart that this is not Jehovah's will for me and I am very happy I heeded his counsel because I don't know what could have happened down the line. SO I figured why not just use what I have.... I got a fill!!! Oh my gravy... one of the biggest mistakes ever. I mean yes I losing weight... In one week I lost 8 lbs... but I was definitely miserable. I have a very active social life so I never felt comfortable being around other people and eating. I always felt I would hve to excuse myself and throw up. Gross I know but that was my reality. I stayed filled for about 4 months and then I went in for a unfill. I have lost since but not that much... not much at all because when I got unfilled I was wearing a size 26 but now I can wear a size 22. Im happy because I am able to live my life and now I am comfortable.

I am still looking to lose weight but through regular diet and exercise. Being skinny and uncomfortable is not my way of living... MIND U THIS IS JUST MY OPINION AND EXPERIENCE. I take 100% of the blame for being in the condition I am in... I know I was not ready for the surgery now but the good thing with the band is I can just get a fill if I want to really start losing, I dont see me doing that anytime soon but I know the option is available.

Oh yea so I got all my blood work done a few months back and I am healthy as a horse!!! Even I was surprised. LOL!!!! But I am definitely a happy camper. I guess my goal right now is just to stay moving and watch what I eat. Something I should have done from the start. So if anyone actually reads this and has any questions, feel free to write me. I will try to be on more regularly

Love, Peace and Hair Grease

~Jess

**** Measurements coming soon.....

Hi all!!!

Things have been going better since my last post. I am still big.. didnt wake up skinny like I wished but things are looking up. I have been working out with my sister and my AWESOME friend who motivates me to get my butt off the couch and move my body. I love her to death and if ur reading this THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!
 
I am now starting to see some small results for my hard work. Per my doctor's scale I have lost 3 lbs since my last visit. That's absolutely cool since I was worried I was putting on weight. I finally took my measurements last night and depressing is not even the word.. Hopefully these numbers will be drastically changing as the months progress.

Starting weight: 324.1
Current weight: 321.6

Measurements in inches: Chest 57.5
                                                Left arm 14.5
                                                Right arm 15
                                                Waist 57
                                                Hips 56.5 (after a do-over)
                                                Left thigh 23
                                                Right thigh 24

Besides the weight, life is excellent. I auxiliary pioneered this much, which means I promised to spread the good news of Jehovah's Kingdom for 50 hours this month. My time is going okay, getting down to the wire but I absolutely loved the experience. I got to speak and see so many people and talk to them about Our Heavenly Father, It was truly a awesome and encouraging experience. Of course Im tired but I wouldnt change any of it. I am so hoping that losing this weight will help me to have more confidence in myself and give me more energy so that I can do more for my preaching work. I will always keep these matters in Jehovah's hands as he and only he knows what is truly best for me.

Work has been KILLER... Man I cant wait to be able to quit or something... I have to get out of my current line of work. It's just sooo stressful. It doesnt reward me or satisfy anything. At the end of the day it just pays the bills. But that's gonna have to change soon. I mean if Im spending 40 plus hours a week somewhere I should at least somewhat like it

Anyways that is all for now... be back in no time with another update. Take Care!

Hey All!!!

OK havent updated in a while. So I went to the surgeon, went through the whole process of the gastric bypass and the risk that I'm taking. I adviced that under no circumstances I shall be given blood, she adviced that there are no other alternatives if something were to go seriously wrong. I told her Im fully aware but NO BLOOD. So Im happy I got that taken care of. I meet the nutritionist we discuss my eating habits and things I definitely need to get used to before the surgery. I thought I would be able to schedule the surgery but Ins. deaded me... they will not pay for band removal without me showing band failure which I dont have. I didnt document the times I threw up nor was I in and out of the doctors office each time I had a productive burp so now Im stuck.I guess I will be applying as a new patient and starting from scratch... SO I have to now do the 6 mos diet but because Im doing it with the surgeon it's only 4 mos... My big problem is that I AM GAINING WEIGHT!!!!!! I am really really trying to watch what Im eating but its hard.... I am now able to eat any and everything since my band has become unfilled... I am so stressed... I got a walking partner so we began walking last week but I know I need to kick that in high gear. Right now Im just disappointed in myself that Im still in this vicious cycle and it seems like its not going to change.