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I got approved to eat regular food now!  No more puree, soft or liquid unless I want it....NOT!  I am still having a hard time with the scale because the Dr's scale is pure evil and always seems to pop my bubble.   It always is a 3 lb difference !  Even though they both say i have lost lbs,  going to the doctor and getting weighed there makes farther from my goal! I am a numbers gal, what can I say?  I felt like I had a bad week and I think I know what did it!  When I stand in front of a mirror I am stretched out and I can see where I am slimming down, but I caught a glimpse of myself while I was sitting down playing with my son it was scrunched up and all I saw was the fat girl.  It scare the shit out of me!  I got a rush of all those feelings of doubt and uncertainty.  My new found confidence and swagger was deflated and whizzing around the room like a party balloon. 

One month and a day ago I made the biggest decision in my life!  I had the Lap-Band procedure!  I had some ups and downs but it wasn't anything I couldn't handle.  I am really living in the moment of every step of this journey.  I just wanted let folks who come by see my baby steps.  I am very proud of myself and the accomplishments!

Happy Thanxgiving to all of my "loser" OH friends!  Be safe, Be thankful and most importantly eat slowly!

Well today I went to see Dr. Korus and the nutritionist.  I am proud to report that I am on target. They are pleased with my progress!  I have lost 6 lbs sine my last visit .  My inscisions look great!  I have been rubbing shea butter around the scar and over it one they had healed up.   I also found out that I am on soft foods....meaning that I can have thanxgiving dinner!

Ok so I am trying to get used to looking in the mirror at myself.  That is a huge step for me!  Anyhoo, I happend to notice that my back fat is beginning to disappear!  I am so happy I can see where my pounds have left me! I am starting to worry about how my belly will look.. I have had  one 9lb child on top of being fat!  WTH!  I don't want the mud flaps cuz truth be told I can't afford no lift or tuck!  I sometimes wish there was a plastc surgeon who would perfom PRO BONO  lifts and tucks on me like Kate Gosslein.LOL 

I woke up this morning feeling like I was drugged!  I was disoriented and dizzy and a bit nauseous!  It took me a while to get it together.  What's bad is that I have no help since my hubbs is at work and I have to get Miles up and ready for afternoon school!   Craaaaaaaaaaaaaap!  I have so much to do around the house!  I was cleaning the kitchen and dining room and maybe it was the fumes but I feel icky!  I will listen to my body and take it easy today!

At the beginning of this journey, my official recorded weight  was 289.  I got on the scale this morning and it read 265.  You do the math!  :)

What do You think? Be honest!  I think my face is a lil slimmer .
Pic to he left  was taken on October 29, 2009 Day os Surgery.  Pic on the right was taken November 13, 2009.

Is anyone else forgetting to take their vitamins? This is why I am not on the pill! lol