Jeniferlee
Life goes on....
Well things here have been crazy my father in law past away on the 15 of December. That was/is very hard everyone seems to be doing really well with it, it is hard I want the world to slow down but it doesn't.......
Weight wise I am down to 171!!!! That is 139 pounds, I don't know how or why cause I have been eating more than I should. I need to keep myself on track more. I ate birthday cake yesterday no frosting but last time I tried cake I got sicker than sick this time I didn't thats not GOOD!
But the boys had a great Christmas. I am going to try and post some pictures of me 8 months ago and now.....
Life is good but is there more than what is right here....
How do you find it?
I wish it could come wrapped up in a box....
Know life is a gift from God I just wish he would show me how to use the gift I have been given!
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Oct 15, 2006
October 10, 2006
I got this postcard today and it is something I need to remember now and forever!
What do I love about my body?
I love my legs, because they've been strong enough to hold me up all these years, even when I was at my highest weight.
I love my feet. I am thankful for the way they have allowed me to walk, walk, and walk. They rarely complain, which I am very grateful for.
I love my hands. My fingers have become more slender and feminine since I lost 70 pounds. I love how my hands can express words, accomplish tasks, and provide a comforting touch to those in need.
I love my eyes, because they've seen so much over the years.
I love, love, love my tiny new tummy. It has allowed the rest of my body to begin the healing process.
And I love my heart, because it has beat steadily even when it felt like it was breaking.
by Andie Jamari
Today I am down to 197 pounds...It is so weird looking at the scale and not seeing 200something or even 310! I pray to dear God every day thta I do not ever see 200 again but it is hard because I crave the stuff I shouldn't eat- whoever says this is the easy way out has no clue! I hate knowing food will always have some effect over me and my body. With the good man aboves help I should be able to control that.....
Lord knows, I can't do it on my own! He gave me this tool and I will use it!
October 1, 2006
This will be a hard week for me, it has been one year since my earth angel left my life-she was the one person who loved me for who I am not what I look like, not how I act, the real me flaws and all. She stood by me no matter what, I did something wrong she didn't lecture me she only loved me. Maybe she is what I have been missing. That emptiness inside my life, that will for something more. Not sure what that is but something is missing, no amount of weight loss is going to fix that lost feeling. I want more out of life than what I have!!! Yet I have a pretty darn good life, I have an awesome job that I am good at, a family that loves me, great well behaved kids, more than a lot of people have. I don't want material things, it is the little things that matter such as a kiss on the cheek, a patt on the behind, a feeling of knowing that it is forever and always, no matter what...
In loving Memory of my Granny Jo
Sadly missed for one year
October 5, 2006
Grandma your time on earth wasn’t nearly long enough for me, I thought you’d always be here.
Countless times throughout the day I find myself remembering you. Remembering you is so easy; your memories bring a sense of peacefulness along with sadness and loneliness.
You could make anyone laugh, you could make anyone’s day!
Although your not here, I know that you are with me, the whisper behind my ear!
I see your smile in my kids smile and feel you when I hug them.
I am thankful for the times we shared and the priceless memories too; for those memories are now treasures that will be forever held deep within my heart!
The people who make a difference in our lives are not the ones with the biggest houses, the most money, or the most toys. They are the ones that care, stand by your side, never leave and support you always. Everyone has that someone and lucky for me it was my Grandma Jo.
Life is short and we need to live it to the fullest. It isn’t about how long we have on this earth but how we live the life we are given.
Remember even when life gets in the way; take those moments to spend a little extra time with someone you love because tomorrow may never come!
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone.
Take time to say "I'm sorry," "forgive me," "thank you," or "it's okay".
And if tomorrow never comes, you'll have no regrets about today.
Grandma your life was a blessing, your memory a treasure; you are loved beyond words, and missed beyond measure.
Loving you always, forgetting you never.
Hugs, Jenni
Sept 23, 2006
Just a quick update, I feel awesome! I have lost 110 pounds. That puts me at 200.5lbs. I haven't been very good at exercise, not once has my butt been to the gym this month. Life just gets in the way!
Monday, August 28, 2006
Well it is so easy to just lurk and read posts and to not update my own updates. Well it has been four months and I am down 95ish pounds. I feel good, I fit into size 16’s- down from about a 30! I still get tired, but that is most likely because I don’t sleep with my breathing machine like I should. Life is really good these days; the good Lord has his hand on my life without a doubt. My butt is lagging a bit at Curves but I was the second elite member for the month of July! I guess that is about it for now! Remember life is what you make it! So live it the best you can……
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Well it has been awhile since I updated on here, things are going well. I have lost 64 total so far. I have only been sick twice and that was because I ate when I was mad at my kids. That is one thing I have learned NEVER eat when under stress. Relax, breathe deep, count to a million if needed just don’t try and eat. I am eating soft foods right now, protein is a bugger to get in 80 grams but I am trying because I love my hair. I know I have lots a lot of inches but haven’t measured yet. My family is awesome, my co-workers are great, my entire community is supportive of me. Onlyone lady said I was killing my body and straving my organs- poo poo on her! I have never ate so healthy and took so many vitamins in my life even if I only absorb some of it, it is better than none!
Something about me, well my family is my life, I work full time and do volunteer work at school- way more than I should. I don't exercise as much as I should. I joined weight watchers for the xmillionath time, to help get me ready for this surgery. If I can lose on that diet than I can lose post op- hopefully without starving! I am always hungry now, everything under the sun looks good!
Monday, April 17, 2006
Well my day is quickly approaching; tomorrow I have my pre-op appointments. I am starting to get scared- “am I making the right choice?” My Mom keeps telling me I can’t “chicken out”- I didn’t come this far to “CHICKEN OUT”. This is something I want so much so I am mourning my food this week- knowing my limits will come Saturday. I know this is a tool and I am drilling that in my head. I have been praying that God will keep his hands on my surgeon’s hand’s and help guide us both through this process. I pray my husband and kid’s the strength to bear with me and my moodiness over the next few months! Thanks for reading my rambling’s- have an awesome day!
April 11, 2006
Well only 16 days until my surgery and I am excited, yet scared to death. I can't wait to be on the other side- but the journey there scares the “gerbers outta” me! I have been finally talking to more people about my surgery and found out that 3 of my Dad’s cousins have had this surgery. No one believes me when I tell them how much I weigh, they look at me like I am lying- hello folks, this is something I do know! I started this journey weighing about 309, depending on the day. I am 5’7-5’8ish so that makes my around 45! Too darn big for my liking, I am a get up and go kinda person and my get up and go has been long gone! I am the director of our school drama club and we had our play with weekend, in years past I could jump on and off the stage…Not this year I had to use the stairs- the good thing was I put on over 5 miles, bad thing I couldn’t sleep because my legs and body hurt so bad I could not handle it- had to take a pill to finally sleep. I thank God for my husband and all his help and my first love from high school cause he does all the lights and sound for me, what a sweetie! He will make someone a good husband some day, he just has to want to settle down. She better be nice if not I will have to take her out back and teach her a thing or two! LOL its just one of those things....ya know!
Well thank you very much for your prayers and well wishes!
March 23, 2006
I need a good kick in the behind! I have so much work to get to do to get ready for this surgery and all I want to do is postpone it! It that something normal- the surgery doesn't scare me I am excited- I can't wait to be on the other side, but it is getting everything ready!!!! It is driving me crazy!
I need someone to sit me down and just make me do it!
Arrrgghhh I need a personal organizer just to come to my house/work and help get it together! If my friends and family had any idea how unorganized they would be amazed!
Have an awesome day! Thanks again for the well wishes!
March 10, 2006
I would just like to thank everyone for such support! I know I am doing the right thing with this surgery. There are times I wonder, when I am on my way to weight watchers (lost 17.4 lbs so far) so I am down to 290.2 which is ok, 17 lbs is 17 lbs- I wish it was 170 but good things come to those who wait! I am sure waiting, I started working out, I want to change my whole life style so I am hoping curves will help with that. Anything that will get me out of bed at 5:45 AM must be something because I like my sleep! On my last trip out of town I lost a piece of my CPAP machine so I haven't used it for a few weeks- I know thats not good! BUT.....
Well thats it for now.
Thanks again everyone!
Something about me, well my family is my life, I work full time and do volunteer work at school- way more than I should. I don't exercise as much as I should. I joined weight watchers for the xmillionath time, to help get me ready for this surgery. If I can lose on that diet than I can lose post op- hopefully without starving! I am always hungry now, everything under the sun looks good!
