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Well I made it!!!! On Friday the 13th day of April, I hit my personal goal of 155, actually I skipped 155 and went right for 154. It seems the high my calorie intake the more weight I lose, who would have thought all these weeks I should have ate more. So I now have lost 156 and weight 154.

Also the play I have been directing since the start of the year was a huge success, and my aha moment for the night was finally getting up on a ladder without being afraid it would break, and being able to help with everything and not want to drop dead at the end of the night from being wiped right out. Life sure is good!

Just wanted to update and tell the world I DID IT! I was so excited and proud that I cried so hard it was funny! What an awesome feeling! I wish more people could feel it! I feel vane saying that but it feels so good inside knowing for once I did something right!!!!!!

Did something right, something great but weight isn't everything yes I got what I wanted to be thinner but the rest of the issues are still there.  """""Issues"""" not really sure what they are but there has to be something cause I sure don't feel right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am now one pound away from my goal weight!  I am at 156.1!
So after this one pound I will weigh in at 155 and have lost 155! 
HOW EXCITING IS THAT!

Yes I am a little self centered these days, actually worrying about what my hair looks like, what I am wearing.  Before I was happy in a cute 3-4X outfit, now I want form fitting, sexy, hot momma outfits.  

Life is good!  For anyone reading this thinking I took the easy way out isn't in my head when someone sets cakes and cookies in front of me and I still have to tell myself NO!  It really isn't worth it, I can eat anything I like sugar included so it is still work.  Doc and God gave me this tool to use and I am using it to the best that I can.  Hopfully this will work for life for me.  God willing this is for life!!!!!

This is an awesome post that I honestly need to remember and think it is so true!

~LOVING YOURSELF~
Original Post by Pretty Kitty at 8:21 AM CST on 11/10/2006
Detroit, MI – RNY (02/12/2004)

We were all put here for a particuler purpose. What is your purose? What are your goals?

1.Find Your Desire: What do we want? What gives us passion and zest for life? What will make us happier? "If you want nothing, you will get nothing". Sometimes the reaon that we are not productive is because we don't have a "WORHTY" goal. Goals will motivate you. We should all have something that will enhance our life (however always pray that "thing" will be a blessing in your life).

2. See It: Once you have your goal, visualize yourself achieving that goal. See youself successful. How will you feel crossing that finish line at your goal weight or eating a healthy meal while turning down that piece of cake? "Where there is no vision, the people perish; but he that keepeth the law, happy is he" (Proverbs 29:18).

3.Feed It: How do we "feed" our desires and goals? We obtain knowledge and talk to others. Knowledge is a tremendous motivator. When we desire to start a business, fitness plan, etc. we acquire books and we talk to people to obtain information. We should always seek guidance from those who are knowledgable on a subject wheather it be a book or person. As the old saying goes, " God helps those who help themselves."

4. Work: Once we have our goals in mind, have visualized it, and obtained information on the subject, we must now put our knowledge into practice. Lip service gets us nowhere. "Belief counts for nothing unless carried into practice." What is practice? Practice is work and effort. How much time a week are you going to dedicate to your goals? Well, do it? How many times are you going to exercise this week? Well, do it! How long are you going to exercise? Well, do it! Are you going to improve your diet? Do it! Work (exercise & eating right) is therapeutic; it can purify and make us stronger.

Everyone have a great weekend

Today, I am trying to drink water instead of putting anything in my mouth!  I bought some of that Laughing Cow cheese stuff thinking I have seen folks eat it on here, there isn't much protein in it (2.5 per wedge). 

I am trying so hard, and that is all we can do, is not give into the cravings, and if we do give in well it is like riding a bike we get up and start again. This isn't like a "diet" where we have to do this and do that, it is a lifestyle change, we have changed. Now we have to keep it up, and everyday isn't going to be as easy as our first 6 months. It is work now, protein, water, vitamins, more protein, more gas.....LOL

Each day is a new day and we have to use our tools to the best of our knowledge we know what is right and wrong to eat, we just have to as Nike says "Just Do It"!

We have all done so well, and we will all struggle with things forever, we now know what we are fighting for, God and our surgeon's helped us to get the weight off, its now up to us to keep it off. I don't have will power, but I like this body and want to keep it healthy and I need to watch what I eat and exercise to get it!

Sorry this is so long but I needed to type it so I can also get it in my head......Good luck!

Me and Reba are gonna start singing "IS THERE LIFE OUT THERE".....Cause I am feeling like there might be and the food just is covering it up!  Food can't cure what is missing in life!

I have got to get a grip on ME! I eat there for I am! NOT I have lost 149 pounds that means like only 3 pounds in a MONTH! Not good! I eat way to many carbs I have to catch a grip and do a reality check! I didn't come this far to hear everyone say- oh that poor girl, yada, yada, yada- I ran into my ex sister in law the other night and she said "OK you look awesome what did you do" I said I lost weight- "how" she replied, Surgery "well don't let it back fire on you it always does you know" Well that in itself should be enough to keep the carbs outta my mouth but NOT! I know I am saying I a lot but this is about MEMEMEMEMEMEME and I have to catch a grip with ME! In my head I know 149 pounds is alot and I am down 149 pounds but I want that 150 mark....I will weigh almost what I lost how incrediable is that! Well life goes on, it doesn't slow down just because I want it to, it doesn't stop when we think it should, times changes, people change, everything changes. And for most that is a good thing but when changes scare you I guess that isn't so good- and for me when I don't have food to stuff those feelings with well my next best addiction is the computer! FOOD=Fat bottom and bad eyes from siting ass in front of computer screen well you decide what is better!!! For now the crazy woman signs off for another month... For those of you reading this that are pre-op well I still say it is the best thing I ever did for myself. Remember it is not the easy way out they operate on bellies not heads! And most of our issues are in our heads! TTFN!

I MADE IT TODAY!
February 19, 2007

164!

YEAH!!!!


Why do I still feel like something is missing?
Why can't I be happy with what I have in front of me?  164 is an awesome weight......Why do I want more......
And just what do I want more of????????

NEVER DO THIS AGAIN!!!
EVER NEVER EVER!!!!

I have been so bad today and I am paying for it now, I have the worst stomach ache ever! My nameless belly (either Bessie or Nelly, maybe?) is yelling at my, I had my kids feel her and she won't stop!

B- 1/2 weight control oatmeal
S-100 cal pack of cookies (when gone they are gone never gona buy em agan)
L- (noon out to eat with my coworkers) HERE IS MY BAD never ever do again meal
I ate fried foods- 3 shrimp, 1 moz. stick, 1 chicken tender, 1 breaded mushroom, and like 2-3 onion rings! I wasn't full in the least I was thirsty but didn't drink for a good 30 minutes.....
Well by 4 I am weak and shakey, my cowork says well you didn't eat any protein that is why! So what do I grab - another pack of cookies!!! I ate those so fast and was still light headed so I grabbed a beef jerky (homemade)- why didn't I do that first????
I get home, Hubby wants me to cook, I feel like I could die so I cook junk food for them and I don't eat real food.....I eat a ice cream bar to try and settle my angry belly, well it felt OK after like 6 so what do I do thinking I need to get some protein in, I drink a protein drink---arghhh she is back at it and I feel aweful!!!!
Next time I promise I will remember today and NO FRIED FOODS they are EVIL!!!!
I honestly don't know how I keep losing weight eating carbs

I so failed the WLS tests today, thank God tomorrow is a new day!

Hope everyone has done better than me today!

I am off to bed hoping to feel better in the morning!!!! Sweet dreams!

Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.  Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.  When you say, "I love you," mean it.  When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.  Be engaged at least six months before you get married.  Believe in love at first sight.  Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.  Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.  In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.  Don't judge people by their relatives.  Talk slowly but think quickly.  When you lose, don't lose the lesson. 
Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; Responsibility for all your actions.  When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.  Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.  Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.  Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.   Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll get to enjoy it a second time.   A loving atmosphere in your home is so important. Do all you can to create a tranquil harmonious home.  In disagreements with loved ones, deal with the current situation.  Don't bring up the past.  Read between the lines.  Pray. There's immeasurable power in it.  Never interrupt when you are being flattered.  Mind your own business.  Don't trust a man/woman who doesn't close his/her eyes when you kiss.  Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.  If you make a lot of money, put it to use helping others while you are living. That is wealth's greatest satisfaction.  Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a stroke of luck.  Learn the rules then break some.   Remember that the best relationship is one where your love for each other is greater than your need for each other.  Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.  Remember that your character is your destiny.  Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

Had to put this on here if not just to remember how embrassed I got..back in the day when I hated getting rid of clothes.....

The new year is here and with that I am trying to go workout at least 3 times a week before work. I go into the gym in pj bottoms and tshirt out in my work clothes. Well today I was in a hurry had to be at work by 8 sharp....So grabbed the first pair of pants in the drawer checked to see if they are the right size...packed em up and went... Drive 30 miles to gym.....

Get done working out on put on pants almost faint I grabbed the 28’s!

How can I go to work in these, I had to use my key chain to hold them up to get out of the gym, I was not going to go to work in heart pj bottoms an I had 5 minutes to get there!!!!

Lesson learned always double check stuff when running out door and get rid of the big stuff!

New pants- 14.00 Sale (Size 12)

New top- 14.00 Sale (Large)

Having to use key chain to hold up pants and tell co workers- PRICELESS!

But it did show me and everyone in my office how much I lost! And now I have a new outfit I wasn’t planning on buying!

 
Ready or not someday, it comes to an end.
There are no more sunrises, no more minutes, hours or days.
All the things collected, treasured or forgotten, pass to someone else.
Wealth, fame and temporal power shrivel to irrelevance.
It matters not what was owned or owed.
Grudges, resentments, frustrations and jealousies finally disappear.
Hopes, ambitions, plans and to-do lists expire.
Wins and losses that once seemed so important, fade away.
It no longer matters where you came from or on what side of the tracks you lived on.
No matter whether you were beautiful, slim or brilliant.
Gender and skin color are irrelevant.

So what matters?
How is the value of our days measured?

What matters is not what we bought, but what we built; not what we got but what we gave.
What matters is not our success but our significance.
What matters is not what we learned but what we taught.
What matters is every act of integrity, compassion, courage or sacrifice that enriched, empowered or encouraged others to emulate our example.
What matters is not our competence but our character.
What matters is not how many people we knew but how many people will feel a lasting loss when we are gone.
What matters is not our memories but the memories that live on in those who loved us.
What matters is how long we will be remembered, by whom and for what.
Living a life that matters doesn't happen by accident.
It's not a matter of circumstances but a matter of choice.

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