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It has been a tough year. I was sort of holding the line...still gaining slowly though, when my mother became ill and after she passed, I have just lost my compass. I am up to 152.2 and struggle with hunger, depression and general apathy. I am working on it, but very tough....worked too hard to get here to lose everything I have worked for!

It is surprising to find it has been so long since I have posted. I think life got in the way...I passed my two year WLS mark  recently and an within five pounds of my past low of 134. However, I know I am getting sloppy in living by the rules of WLS and want to get back to the basics. I am going to do the 5 day pouch test starting tomorrow after reading the book this past week and shopping today to get ready. I still feel so grateful for the positive changes the WLS allowed me to make. I have found recently my brother and uncle have been diagnosed with diabetes and my mother is borderline diabetic. My husband was also diagnosed with diabetes a couple of weeks ago. I so do not want to experience the torture my father had in losing both legs to this horrible disease. Sobering.....In any case, I m still working to do what I need to do to be healthy and again, very grateful!

It has been a much better week. I have focused on the basics and this has made a huge difference in my attitude and weight maintenance. I walked at least once if not twice each day, concentrated on eating protein first followed by healthy veggies and drank lots of fluids. The weight is coming down again. Reading posts from other people on Obesityhelp has been really important to keeping this WLS  journey in perspective. Thank goodness for OH!!!!

I had quite the wake up call recently after a family crisis with my brother 's health and a quick trip to Texas. Old habits and stress really threw me off track. The difference was I had my "tool" to reconsider my choices and begin using my pouch to turn this around. The horror of seeing the scale go up was a nightmare of the past and thinking of slowly going back into one size bigger after another until I would be back where I started or heavier was distresssing. Been there so many times in the past and did not want to go back!!!!!  I started walking the dogs, eating protein first and bites of veggies afterwards, protein drink, no sugar, lots of water and keeping busy!!!!!!  Thank goodness for WLS. In the past, it never felt as if I had any choices.......136.8 today.....Down 2.2 pounds!!!!!

• Highest Weight - 230 Surgery - 210 Current - 136.8

I have gained 4.5 pounds. My challenge seems to be eating before and after bedtime. I have been taking Ambien for sleep problems for quite some time. Unfortunately, it seems to make my resolve not to eat less than it needs to be. When I make a concerted effort to make myself a promise not to eat, I can usually stay in bed and not get up and eat. I definitely need to address this issue ASAP. I also continue to have swollen lymph nodes in the neck and the doctor is trying different approaches to address these. I feel grateful that this is all I have to deal with. I do need to make better choices in line with the recommendations for the RNY surgery. We can circumvent the surgery. It is too easily possible. Hence the need to make sure we keep an eye to the reasons we went through this in the first place and not let the old ways of being get in the way!

I have made so much progress over the past 14 months it is at times, unbelievable. I am down to within five pounds of my original goal of 130 although it varies by a couple of pounds. My doctor thinks I am fine where I am but I think I could lose 10 - 15 more pounds. I have gained much yet a few other challenges have come up. I have severe anemia and taking iron three times a day seems to be moving it in the right direction. The tiredness has taken a toll on my work performance and personal life though. I am sure my husband is getting very tired of me being too tired to want to do anything. I have missed so much work it is scary with the current economy. Luckily, my work and employer have been very open to my working from home at times.
My biggest challenge is sugar. I should never have tried those first few bites because the demon continues to exist and having a little seems to fuel the thoughts and desire for sugar more often. I had been only sticking with sugar free items and then of course branched out to sugar items.  I have found I don't have dumping syndrome much so that natural deterrent is no longer there. I know I need to go back to the rules and everything will be fine.  It helps to read posts from others who are keeping with the rules and finding success.

So close to the original goal I set of 130. I went for my year check up and the doctor was extremely pleased with my progress.  Still anemic though since back fusion surgery so feeling very tired. We will try some more liquid iron and such to see if it will boost me back to normal.  I am struggling with eating or should I say snacking lately.  I also have not been having enough protein and water as I should. Oh and let's not mention because I am so tired I have also not been exercising.  Now we are moving into the holiday season with its temptations.  I guess the first step in any journey is understanding the path to get there.  I understand I need to make changes and now need to begin planning exactly how they will take place. Anyone else out there in a similar place?????

It is just over a year since my surgery.  It has been an amazing year. At 5'4, I am at 134.5. My all time high was 230. I look at pictures and can hardly recognize myself. I wear a 6 - 8. Never been this small since I lost weight when I was 14 years old.  Too bad it took me to age 52 to get this done. I am grateful for all the good that has come out of this. My blood pressure, triglycerides and cholesterol are all normal. The first time in recent history that has been the case. The osteoarthritis has improved significantly. I don't know how I would have gotten through the back fusion surgery in March either if I had not lost weight. I am still working on getting on a regular exercise program and develop better eating habits.  I usually do well, but could do better with getting more protein and less sugar free desserts. But all in all, I am so very grateful for the more fulfilling life I have now and I know it is the weight loss surgery that gave me this opportunity.

It is hard to believe that it is almost a year since my WLS.  I am down to 138.5. Wow!  I  still have to try on clothes to believe I am smaller.  I see my reflection and am ever amazed that I seem so small.  I am anxious to get to goal since I haven't been this small for most of my 52 years!  It is a wonderful journey.  I just continue to feel concerned about the future since I hear of so many people regaining weight and I just don't want to be one of those people....

Recovery from surgery has been slow, but steady. My weight loss has continued after a slowing down period right after surgery. I have again begun to lose at a similar pace as I had previous to surgery.  I found I continue to be anemic so am taking iron daily to try to get that taken care of.  I am thrilled to be at a weight I haven't seen for over twenty years. I love trying on smaller clothes.  I am now in a size 8 -10. Wow! Interestingly though, I still have a hard time realizing I am smaller in size.  It is when I try on clothes it becomes clearer, but soon after, I still seem to have no specific idea of exactly the amount of space I take up anymore.  I hope with time my body image will more closely match my reality.  Since I have had way more experience with being overweight, it makes sense I may have problems in this way.