Amanda W.

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The liquid diet is hard, wow, maybe harder than I expected.   I'm just on day two, so I hope it gets easier as time goes on.    Not to mention, I have been in a lot of pain with my shoulder/arm/back for a few days.  Went to the dr this morning to find I had 3 ribs misplaced and inflamed rotater cuff.   Hope the pain goes away soon, I don't want any other problems going on when I get surgery next week.

Hard to believe how close I am now.   I start the 10 day clear liquid diet tomorrow.   Dr. Wagner said I should probably do 10 days due to my insulin resistance.  I guess that makes the liver harder to shrink, or bigger to start?  I'm not really sure.   I think I am more nervous about this diet than I am about the surgery day.   I plan to stay focused and stay busy.  That shouldn't be too hard to do, with my little boys!   Anyway, we are all going to eat Mexican tonight.   I'm sure that will be enjoyable.  

Got my pre-op testing done yesterday.   It wasn't bad at all.    Now that it's complete, I feel ready to go!   I thought all the people at St. Alexius were extremely nice.   The lady who did the EKG had gastric bypass more than a year ago and was really happy with her choice.    It's always encouraging to talk with someone with success.  Going to start the clear liquid diet next Wednesday.   My only problem now is trying not to gain weight between now and then, enjoying all my favorite foods too much.   I keep saying it, and haven't done it yet, but I've got to get back on the treadmill asap, getting myself used to daily walking again.    My kids have been fighting sickness this week, and I am just exhausted.   Kept my kindergartener home from school today again.   His blood sugar was so high this morning, and I didn't feel comfortable sending him until I get it in better range.  Ugh.  I'll be glad when these viruses stop spreading.   Getting sick really messes him up. 

Pre-ops are scheduled for this coming Wednesday, and I am feeling anxious!   Lots of different emotions going through my mind - mostly, what kinds of foods I will most likely never eat again after surgery!   But my attitude is now changing from, "Ohhh, I will miss you." to: "Farewell, I want to lose weight!"   I also keep thinking of what I need to get done ahead of time, all the household/family stuff.   I am so bad for stressing when something big is coming up.  Afraid I'll forget something!   Ugh.  I plan to start getting on the treadmill and getting used to doing a little walking again next week;  I  want to make sure my heart is in the best shape possible for surgery next month.    After I severely sprained my ankle back in October, I haven't even tried to exercise.  My ankle doesn't hurt anymore, but is still weak.   I fell several more times after the big fall that hurt my ankle, and I just feel clumsy and kinda scared to re-injure it.  Anyway, it's time to get back on track and at least try a little at a time.   Although I admit, it is not easy to exercise at all being this heavy.   Just one more reason I need WLS... gotta shed this weight, and I need a tool!

My 5 year old's birthday is just two weeks after surgery, so I am planning his party now.  I'm sure I will feel good by then, and able to handle it!   Just might need some help with those little guys running around playing!  He's excited to be turning 6, but Mommy is a bit sad!  He's growing up too fast!

I'm glad to have my new friend Renee who I met here at OH to go through this process with.   Her surgery is coming up this week, and I am thrilled for her!  We are using the same surgeon and hospital, so it will be great to keep in touch and be supportive of each other!

Trying some protein supplements - Our local GNC doesn't have much to choose from, so I may need to go to a bigger location for more variety.

Well, I finally decided on a financing option, and got the date for surgery scheduled.  February 8th.   Wow, that seems so close!   I'm starting a list of things I need to do before the big day.  I am excited, and feeling anxious, too. 

Well, we are moving forward with the self-pay option for my gastric-bypass surgery.   My husband's employer doesn't intend to budge and approve this thing, and since there is an exclusion in the policy, there is little we can do.   It's too bad that people don't understand that obesity is a disease, not a choice.   Oh well - I am not going to let that get me down.  Today I applied for and got full loan approval through a Capital One Medical Financing, so if their rates look best compared to the other two I'm investigating, then we should be able to get this show on the road.  I am so ready.  I don't look forward to having to find a job to pay for this, because I wanted so much to stay at home with my little 2 year old until he reached kindergarten.  But God will make a way, I truly believe that.  What's important is that I'm healthy and alive for many more years to come, and can continue raising both my little boys.  They mean the entire world to me.   

I talked with someone at Dr. Wagner's office today, and updated them on the insurance answer.  She said we'd be in touch to schedule as soon as the financing is official.  I am so excited.  No words can describe how tired I am of living this heavy.