Amanda W.

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It was great to get up this morning and see 70 pounds down on the scale.   Today is exactly 4 months since I started the 10 day pre-op diet.   It's a good feeling to know that I have gotten rid of 70 pounds that was hurting my body the way they were.  I can't imagine what that strain must have been doing to my heart and lungs.  I have to say, I knew I was tired and in a bad way four months ago, but I don't think I really knew the extent of it - until now - because I feel SOOOOO much better.  I wonder how I kept functioning at that weight.   Truth is, I don't think I could have functioned for much longer.  It was going to kill me.   Now, I have lost 70, which is almost half of what I want to lose for my goal, and it feels like I have a whole new life waiting ahead for me.   A lot still to go, but certainly attainable.  Wow.  Thank you Lord for making this surgery a possibility for me.  It has changed my life forever.

3 months already - how can time move so quickly in one way, and so slowly in another?     Well, I'm thankful for 60 pounds gone, and am looking forward to losing as much more as I possibly can.   It's indescribable how much better I feel now.    I don't think I could have survived a lot longer had I not had this surgery. I really needed the energy and better sleep I've been getting.  Life is extremely stressful for me right now, with our children and with our finances, and I'm thankful to have the physical and mental strength I need to cope until things get better.   And they will, because I'm putting everything in the hands of God.   In the meantime, I'm thankful for all the blessings I wake up to every day.    

Well, this morning the scale was nice enough to move down for me, and tell me I finally made it to the big 50!   This was a nice way to start off the day.  :)
I am thankful to God for helping me through this journey, and praise Him for every good thing in my life.  I have a lot more weight to lose, but I am happy and feeling like a million bucks already.  I can't describe the differences I feel both physically and mentally with this weight loss.   I've lost 50 pounds several different times before in the last few years, but this time is different.  This time, this is  just the first 50. I plan to lose 50 more, and hopefully another 50 or so after that.  And this time, it will be for life.  No more up and down.    This is finally it!    RNY has been an awesome thing for me.

Two months - wow, it seems longer really.  I haven't regretted a day of it.  I have felt better than I have in so long.  Even at the same weight where I am now, I felt so miserable in the past.  And now, for whatever reason, I feel like a different person.   It's almost like WHERE the weight has come off maybe, on the inside of my body... there's such a big relief and heaviness lifted from my breathing, heart and lungs.  May sound weird, but it's the best way to explain it.  And this is just a portion of the weight I need to lose.  Wow, what will I feel like at goal?

I have finally passed 46 pounds, and sometimes it seems to be going too slowly.  But I try not to complain and worry about how fast the pounds are coming off.   Just knowing I have good blood pressure, good blood sugar, no more acid reflex, and just all around feel better, is enough to thank God for.

I'm thinking about going back into teaching next school year.   I didn't think I was ready, still not sure.   But financially, it would help so much.  The gastric bypass surgery wasn't cheap, definitely worth it, don't get me wrong, but it is another debt to pay every month.   I know my kids are going to benefit from having a healthier mom, even if it means I will be working again before they get bigger, as I had planned. 

Well, I can't believe I've made it to 42 pounds.    That is counting my highest weight, which was the day I started the 10 day clear liquid diet.  So that's a total of almost 8 weeks now.  I feel soooo much better, it's just amazing.  And people are really noticing now as well, which makes me feel good.  It's nice to get on stage at church to sing and not feel quite as self-conscious as before.  And to actually have breath!   The part that really gets me is, this is only the beginning.   How much better is it going to be in 6 months?!  Wow, I thank God that I made this decision and that He's been there with me throughout.   

I have felt great the past 3 weeks, not much to complain about at all.  I just wish the scales would move a little faster.    I am happy to have lost almost 30 pounds since the pre-op diet, but honestly thought I'd lose a little more since surgery date.  I guess it will come in good time.   I do feel changes in my size, and that's a good thing.   I thank God that I've had such a speedy and easy recovery.

Hard to believe it's been almost a week since surgery.  I am ready to move on to full liquids tomorrow, and the protein shakes.  At least, I think I am.  My mind wants to, so I'm hoping my stomach will agree.   It is so weird eating 1/4 cup of broth.   That's such a tiny amount, it won't even stay warm by the time I try to sip it slowly.  LOL.  I'm feeling good.   I have to admit, it is not easy drinking enough water.   My skin and lips are dry, so I worry that maybe I'm not getting quite enough.  Trying much harder today.   I want to do this right, and follow all doctors orders.  This was such a big step, and I have such high expectations.   Even looked through my closet last night, trying to decide what clothes I had to push to the back (way too tight) that I can start getting out in the next few weeks and months.  I shouldn't have to buy anything new for a while, I saved a lot of what I outgrew.

Wow, it almost seems unreal.   I am back at home from my RNY and feeling really well.   The pain is minimal, I'm not even taking the pain medicine.  I only took some children's tylenol last night, and that was enough.   I'm sore, and a little stiff, but nothing I can't handle.  I think the weirdest thing is the gas that comes up my throat every time I drink a little.  Otherwise, things are great.   I thank God, because I know He was with me through the entire surgery and hospital stay - a lot of friends and family were praying for me.  Now I can't wait to see the scale start to move.

I am really counting down the days now.   Less than a week makes it seem like there is a light at the end of this pre-op liquid diet tunnel.  : )  I got on the scale this morning and found a 10 pound weight loss since Tuesday.  That's just 4 days, and maybe mostly water weight, but I am still glad to know that I will never see that 297 again.   It should be all downhill from here! 

Today is a much better day.   Had to pick up my little guy from school earlier today - it started snowing here at 10am.   He is already wanting to go outside and build a snowman, but there isn't quite enough snow on the ground yet.   My mom has helped me out so much the last couple of days with the kids - and she's the one who will be my biggest help after surgery next week.   I don't know what I would do without her.    She's the best in the world!   My entire family are the best in the world - my dad and sister are constantly there for me as well.   I thank God every day for them.

By the way, thank you Renee, for your comments.   You are sooo much my support system!!!