4-29-03 Just wanted to stop and say that as of 4-30-03 I will have only 14 days to go till surgery. I can't wait! The past few weeks my back has been so bad it is so hard to get out of bed and go to work. I want this pain to be a thing of the past. At work we take the children (I work in a child care) for a walk today I came back and couldn't breath, but didn't want anyone to notice. This is the first time this year that I was out to take the children out. I just wish I could have enjoyed it more. Now days I have been so tired between work, not sleeping, and helping my father (lung cancer) I am so drained! Can anyone tell me where to get the protein drinks from? I know I can get some off the internet somewhere. One of co-workers think that I am taking the easy way and I said this is going to be far from easy. Everyone tells me I am so lucky, but they don't understand what I have benn going through over the years. Well for now I am going to go.