Krista F.

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Oct 28th- Today is my 38th birthday, here are my stats sw-288lbs lost 125lbs. cw 163lbs. I'm actually excited to say I am not having a birthday cake lol. I thought I would be so bummed about not eating sweets on my birthday but after thinking about it I decided not to have one this year. It was going to be a raspberry topped cheesecake and a angel food cake with pink frosting, but I decided to go spend the afternoon getting pampered, going to get my hair highlighted and relax at the spa. Then out to dinner and shopping for clothes. The fun doesn't stop there either. This weekend Linda is taking me to NY City for my first time. We are staying in Times Square, dining on my favorite food (Korean) super high protein and then on Saturday night we are seeing The Lion King on Broadway, wow what a birthday. The best thing is I can walk in to the mall and find something to wear, since all I brought on this trip were jeans and I need to dress up for the show. Once again I am so happy and grateful I had this life giving surgery, every day it makes me smile to see that I have reached a healthy weight and am living my dream. Have a wonderful weekend everyone. Please always remember, Enjoy the journey! 

Oct 6th- Wow two years, how time flies!! Ok I know I'm actually updating this a few days early, but that's ok, because I have learned that I don't have to be PERFECT, yep I said it, I can just be me and me is ok. LOL last year I would have cringed over such poor English, "what would people think" now I just am. So as for this year. let's see well my eating has gotten shall we say to a semi normal portion so I had to learn to control portion size and balance foods, yes I still dump but not as easily, I can eat sugar now pretty much like a normal person would. So this has been hard for me to learn and accept. I am striving to not have to worry about it, but for today I need to make a decision whether to eat a bad choice and suffer later or pick out something better or decide am I hungry at all or just bored. You might have guessed it people, this has been the year of discovery, working on food issues along with head issues, questions like why I eat, why I want to overeat, why am I bored, am I scared, angry or feeling left out.

I have started to journal my food again and try and figure out what is it that makes me want to over eat. I am using the ten minute rule, when I go to the fridge, I turn around and wait ten minutes to see if I really want that food. I also have found things to occupy my time, yes I work but I have been away on vacation in West Virginia the last couple of months, wow what a change that has made, I have not had a scale sitting in front of the refrigerator or anywhere in the house, man I miss that. I am cooking for more than one other person, I am running errands for people and stopping at fast food restaurants, ok so I try and eat chicken salads while I am out but it’s hard to do when everyone around you is pigging out on ice cream thank God I am lactose intolerant lol. Well I am sure that this New Year I will focus more on healthy eating and less on what do you think this would do if I eat it.

This year I got my motorcycle license. I also bought my very own bike, it’s a Honda Shadow and it’s beautiful. I have been riding it here in West Virginia, what a way to keep your mind off eating. I should return home in November and then it's back to work and back to basics for me. Thanks to everyone who reads my profile and hope it helps.

July 20th- Hi everyone, Well here is what has been happening in July, ok the obsession to look good and to be the best has really been bad, my pride has got in the way of me having a good time, I was so obsessed to find the "perfect outfit" that I almost cancelled on a wonderful outing, are you ready for this, I went to the beach in a two piece swim suit "bikini" I know I couldn't believe it either, but yep, never wore one before in my life! Man there is a lot to watch out for when waves come and knock you down lol. It was the best time ever. I felt normal among all the other beach goers, not one mean look or nasty comment came my way. My fear disappeared as I was walking down to the water, it did take some coaxing from some wonderful WLS friends to take off my big baggy shorts I was hiding in lol. Thanks’ guys, what would I do without you : )

I guess one lesson this month I have learned is to be comfortable in my skin, and to accept me for me. This month has once again turned out to be a learning experience and a big stepping stone to learning to love myself. Thanks’ for stopping by, and enjoy the journey!!

Hi everyone,

I'm really sad today, I had to say goodbye to two wonderful

Companions of mine today, one was old miss cookie dough, and the

other was that skinny cow ice-cream called silhouette.

They both have been so wonderful this past month while Aunt Flo is

visiting, always there when I needed them, and they called me often

just to check in and tell me they were around, (how thoughtful huh)

well last night we had it out.

It was a drag out, knock down fight and they won, miss cookie dough

started in on me as soon as I walked in the door, she said "hi how

was your day, Oh I'm sorry is there anything I can do to make it

better?" then last night silhouette said "is your sweet tooth acting

up, can I help, or are you just a little tired, and bored, I know

what is good for you" Yes folks these two friends were right there

all night helping me out. Then wouldn't you know they turned on me

like two wild cats! I was so sick all night throwing up, and I am

over a year and 1/2 post op and no better than this.

It just goes to show you how strong food addiction can be, don't

feel bad for these guys there are plenty of people who still let

them hang out in their homes, just not me ; )

June 11th- Hi everyone, well my journey continues, let's see on May 6th I got the job at Cycle Gear, that's the place I used to go into and try on the motorcycle gear, dreaming of one day being able to fit in. Well I work there now and fit in the small sizes lol. Who would have guessed that would ever happen. I am the merchandiser there and love it, I work with a great group of guys, yep guys, eat your heart out ladies. Actually I had a problem with all the attention I was getting, but now I am ok with it, at first it was scary to be noticed, I wanted to hide or run away, in fear that someone would hurt me, then I remembered I take Martial Arts, I can handle myself. lol

I have done a lot in the last two months, I have bought a new Honda dirt bike, can you believe I fit on a little CRF 80 and now that I lost my excess weight, I wanted to see what street riding is all about, I have been on the back of my friends motorcycle when I was heavy and it was not really a lot of fun, I was just too big to be comfortable, so now that I am smaller I decided to give it a try on my own. I went to the Motorcycle safety course out in San Diego CA (MT Palomar) I finished it on Sunday and took my motorcycle

skills test and passed!! I got my motorcycle license Woo Hoo (humming ~~Keep your motor running~~) anyways, it was so much fun, I rode the Honda Rebel 250 and actually had room to move, the people in the class asked why I took the class, I explained to them that I wanted to ride before, but I was too fat to fit on a small enough bike, they were shocked they looked at me like I was crazy when I told them I had the Lap RNY surgery, they said I looked so normal, they didn't believe me, I lifted my shirt and showed them my stomach they still didn't believe me, turns out my extra skin doesn't show enough, and my scars are so tiny I had to point them out and say, see look! lol that’s a first!! It felt so awesome to fit in life!! One girl wants information on getting the surgery herself, I told her I feel she looks fine and just to try a low carb high protein food plan for a bit before getting to serious about the surgery, I will keep in touch with her and see how things work out. People this is what is all about, no longer being an outsider looking in, no longer standing on the sidelines of life and saying "I wish I could do that, if I was only skinny" It's time to get out there and get busy, find something you always wanted to do and make your plans to do it, believe me it's worth any fear or anxiety you might have right now. Now my girlfriend wants me to ride her Honda 750 shadow and she wants to get a new sport bike Honda 600 F4I hmm, wonder if we could trade take care everyone, thanks for letting me share

April 4th, 2004 1 Year, 6 month- Well I missed my monthly update in March, actually I missed a lot of things in March, mostly Taekwondo, I went roller skating most of the month, doing really good with that and started selling my Jewelry, that has been neat, I love having previous customers return to tell me who complimented them on the design, it makes me feel good. Now on for my April update, So far my weight has been pretty stable, I lose a couple and gain a couple I fluctuate between 171 and 175 but that's ok, on Saturday I returned to Taekwondo, made it through the whole class, running and all lol After that I wanted to go shopping so I went to buy a pair of jeans and guess what the 34 waist are loose, I’m heading into the 32 range, me a 32 that’s a miracle. So it looks as though I have still been losing inches even though the stupid scale is playing tricks on me, that’s a relief.

Well I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, and after my visit with Quintel in the hospital the other day, btw, Quintel is doing great, made it through her LAP RNY on March 31st and is recovering wonderfully and is coming home this weekend sometime. It was so nice to meet her, she is very funny with a great attitude, I know she will do well with her journey.

I was telling her how important exercise was especially activities like Taekwondo, Kickboxing and Yoga, and I was realizing I wasn't practicing what I was preaching, man what an eye-opener that was, so I got up Saturday and went to the dojang and sat there an hour before class was ready to start, I didn't want to change my mind or get there too late, after class started I was saying to myself, why have I not been coming, its fun, I enjoy it, it's great for my body, I couldn't think of one negative effect it has on me, and the only reason I could come up with was I was lazy, yep that's it, it’s easier to sit home and watch TV or talk on line. Well that’s over now, I'm happy to say I am back to training full time, I will be in class on Monday, I have to re-learn what I missed, not to mention we have a new Master at the school and he has changed all of the routines, man I feel like a beginner, I have to learn 1-16 kicking combinations, Blue belt hand and foot combinations and my poomse all before I can test, well I have a ton of work to do, talk with you all later, thanks for stopping by.

December 6th- I know I have been quiet the last couple of days, but I have been floating on cloud nine. Yesterday I did manage to go hang out with Caroline, which was great. So this is why I am on cloud nine. For my birthday this year, I decided I am ready to find my birth Mother and family no matter what, and since I had surgery I feel emotionally I am strong enough to handle the outcome, I have gained so much self esteem since surgery, I feel good about my new body and I am learning to deal with it in my head. Anyway, I located the high school my birth mom went to, checked the High school yearbook picture on Wednesday and in my heart knew it was my mom. Well on Thursday Caroline and I were talking and she helped me send an e-mail to my hopefully birth mom, 30 seconds after we sent the email, She called it was her ::faint:: Oh my God I found my mom in two days! Since then I have been on the phone for hours talking with her and catching up on the years, this is going to be the best Christmas ever. Thanks to my extended family here in the group, I couldn't wait to share my news with you. It's never too late to be happy in life, enjoy the journey.

January 3rd, 2004 - I made my one year post op mark. I lost 115 lbs. I went from size 24 to size 12/14 I started Martial Arts Training. I competed in South Korea in the second Annual Women’s International Taekwondo tournament (Martial Arts) and placed 5th in the world for my age group. I won Gold Medals for Taekwondo here in California tournaments. I met some wonderful people and gained some good friends. I discovered I can have abs. lol, and I have great upper body strength now. I turned 37 years young. I got a new outlook on life, a new self image, and by the way, you can see yourself thin, it just takes a little while. I feel normal for the first time in my life. I can accept a compliment now. I don't have to hide under fat because I am no longer scared. I have an awesome best friend that I can talk to anytime, she has always been there for me, Thanks to her, I'm able to try many things I never dreamed of doing. Linda has been the most supportive and patient person in my life, She is truly a God send and my best friend. Thanks to Linda and her wonderful gift she gave me on my birthday. I reunited with my birth family after being adopted 37 years ago. This year I found my birth mother. I met my birth family, and my grandmother, I spent Christmas with my birth family in Northern California, and then drove to Oregon with them and had Christmas with my grandmother and relatives in Oregon. I went from being the youngest child to now being the oldest. I have 3 wonderful younger sisters and one very handsome younger brother. My mom and I look very much alike and my new dad is named Fred just like my adopted dad is. I have a wonderful relationship with my birth family and my adopted father, we are just one big happy family. I feel like I was never away, we all got along so well. I have been so blessed this last year, I wish everyone a happy and very healthy New Year.

Ok now get off your butts and start exercising the holidays are over. LOL just kidding, but I needed to hear that for me, I got to get back into training, the next South Korea tournament is in August. God bless everyone, and remember enjoy the journey!

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BODY COMPOSITION TEST from before to now

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PRE OP  09-30-02                     POST OP 10-13-03

Percent Body Fat: 47.4%             Percent Body Fat:  28.0%

Fat Body Weight: 136.4lbs.          Fat body Weight:   50.9lbs.

Lean Body Weight:151.6lbs.          Lean Body Weight: 131.1lbs.

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MEASUREMENTS BEFORE AND AFTER

PRE OP  09-30-02                      POST OP 10-13-03

WRIST   7 1/4                        WRIST   6 3/4

HIPS   60 1/4                        HIPS   45 1/2

WAIST  48 1/2                        WAIST  34 1/4

POST OP 01-17-04                     POST OP 04-24-04

WRIST     5 3/4                      WRIST   6

HIPS     41 1/2                      HIPS   40

WAIST    33 1/2                      WAIST  32

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Saturday Oct 11th, 2003 exactly One year from my surgery. I remember that day well, I woke up a little nervous and very tired. I was always tired before I had the surgery. I got up starving as usual and was mad because I couldn't eat, lol now I can care less if I miss a meal, but I try not to and if I do, I just grab one of my protein bars woo hoo! Anyway back to the day of surgery, we got dressed and went to the hospital, we checked in and I was brought back to pre-op room, I remember going to the restroom and wondering if I should make a break for it. Well glad to say I stayed and the surgery was a breeze, next thing I remember is getting out of bed and standing straight up, that was a change I always walked hunched over from my weight, well I stood straight up and walked around the hospital floor just amazed I could do it. My friends were there visiting me and before you knew it I was back in my hospital bed resting and sucking on that lemon swab.

Now for the good stuff, today I got up, got dressed, fed my dogs, played on the floor with them. Had a protein drink for breakfast and an egg soft scrambled (just the way I like it) then I was off to help put up our new swimming pool. I needed to wear something I could get dirty in, so I ran (yes folks I ran) inside and slipped into a guys pair of size 34 Levis reg fit, threw on a t-shirt and headed back out to crawl around on the dirt ground and sit on my knees for the next half hour. Now remember last year at this time I couldn’t even cross my legs or reach my shoes to tie them without running out of breath. Well let’s see, oh yeah I went inside and did two loads of laundry, got cleaned up and then we went to town for an hour training of Taekwondo. I have a tournament on the 18th of this month at the Anaheim Convention Center, so I am training daily. We finished up there, went to a health food restaurant for lunch, and then did some shopping. You know the usual places, GNC, Vitamin Shoppe. lol had to load up on my protein bars and ISOPURE, by the way if you have never tried it, get a bottle of the Blue raspberry Isopure it’s yummy! Ok I think that's it.

It's funny because before surgery I would want cake to celebrate a 1 year anything and now I just smile and enjoy life. I finally fit in life. It only gets better. Enjoy the journey everyone, thanks for stopping by. 

Oct 6th, 2003 hi everyone, well yesterday was my big day at the Red Rider Ranch, that's the Honda motocross training center in Colton CA. I took part in the Girls Learn to Ride day, I had a great day. Everything was provided, here is what was neat, they took all of us back into this dressing area where we had to call out our sizes and get dressed as a group. I was not shy to call out my size 36 pants and large shirt, I could have worn the size 34 pant and med shirt but I wanted to be comfortable and the size 34 pant wasn't as comfortable. Ok so now I'm all dressed up and my boots are all latched up. Off to the bikes, well the woman instructor actually told me that she thought I should ride the Honda 150, me on a little 150, I never would have got on one of those before surgery. After a little while I talked her into letting me ride a bigger bike, Honda CRF230F she thought I was too small for it lol me too small, I love it! What an ego boost to hear from someone you are actually not big enough instead of hearing, you’re too big, it was cool. Well I'm looking forward to my 1 year check up next week and then after that I have a Taekwondo tournament on Oct 18th at the Anaheim Convention Center. I'm a busy girl these days and having the time of my life all because of this wonderful surgery and my new way of living life. Thanks to everyone who has cheered me on and keep living life to the fullest.