wondermom316
My story...where do I begin? I can't help but tear up right now right now while writing this
. I was always considered "plus size" from middle school and up! Of course looking back at those pictures I WISH I could be that size again. I was always bigger and taller than the girls in my class...I never fit in. So to make up for that I became the stereo typical tell it like it is type of person. I cracked a lot of jokes...I made people laugh...I became sarcastic and whitty and folks learned to love me oddly enough. I guess with this my confidence soared and I actually began to attract men...I began to feel better and dress nicer and that changed a lot of things too. Then at 17 I got pregnant
. That's when things really began to change. By the end of my pregnancy I was 280 lbs. I had a 9 lb baby and the gut to show for it. My breast were now a double D and I was miserable. Post partum took over me and I thought I was going to die....I moved to Philly when I was goin on 19...and that seemed to do me a world of good. I lost a lot of weight and I was down to maybe 230...and I was happy there. Over time I gained and lost and gained and lost but was never scared until 3 years ago. I found out I was pregnant with my son
. I weighed 298. 
I didn't know WHAT I was going to do! By the time I had him I was 340lbs. Several months later I got married...and at that time I was down to 309. Yay! but that was short lived....last October I weighed 380 lbs. I began to change my eating...going to the gym...walking all the things I could do...but my weight kept going up and down. I'd lose 5 then gain 6...and this would repeat. I became even more depressed and hopless. I FELT fat....my feet are sore...me knees hurt...I wear a 48 H cup...my back hurts...I'm exhibiting all the signs of diabetes....so I went to the doctor's June 22....my PCP agreed that it was time for WLS...I attended my orientation that night...I have sleep study this weekend....then on June 30th I have an appointment with the Surgeon, dietician,nutrionist, the anesthegologist and the Psychologist. After this they will be scheduling my surgery!
I am terrified...scared....excited....anxious...optimistic...pessimistic all at the same time! The dietician from the orentation last night told me to join this website...so...here I am! This is a journey that there is no turning back from....I hope I am ready
