Michelle, you most certainly DO belong here with us. No shame in having a panic attack...I believe all things happen for a reason. I'm sure when you are rescheduled and are truly ready for this major life changing surgery, it will be the right time for you and it will happen just as you plan. Please continue posting here, your story is important of other preops to hear. This is scary, scary stuff for so many and you are showing so much courage in sharing your experience. God bless and thanks.