torry4
well what should i say... i saw this ad in the local newspaper decided to call! 
so i did.. went to a meeting regarding wls i have surendered to it! the weight.. i think i have been a good person all my life but that's me "the good little girl" i have been protected most of my life.. maybe this is why i am so confused & helpless now! i always heard thur life i was so pretty should of been a model.. well didnt happen.. didnt want it that much i guess only wanted to be me and loved for me only.. well been married it seems all my adult life.. if you can say 18 is a adult!! by 21 married twice and again at 32 been a roller coaster and if you were with me it was hold on tight... or let me go! cookie my husband died of a liver transplant 3/5/01 worse day in my life besides losing our son at birth. my life ended that day! well i did the unthinkable i quit my job and sold the house and left the state i grew up in.. moved from fairfield, connecticut to oregon.. the pacfic northwest where the christmas trees grow and grow.. i met some special guy on line.. sounds strange but we had a great life out here until 05 and i got sick. i had a atv accident and i went flying on the dunes on the coast. brused some ribs and had a hard time walking. went to the hospital at 3am they did the general routeen stuff and bingo!the blood report showed i had hep c and my liver was effected.. never did drugs never smoked never really drank like all my freinds.. so why me??? well it was the baby and my blood transfusion i had 19 yrs ago before they tested the blood for aids or hep c.. just my luck or a curse.. well lost a lot in life my parents my husband didnt want to lose me,so here i go trying to make sense of it all.. the first step in this a new life with wls everything else will fall into place.. and if it doesnt so be it i gave it a fighting try.. no more hiding.. 
