Tina325
12/17/06
When I was 17 my dad died. I was so torn apart. I was daddy's little girl. My family was a mess. My mom was dealing with her grief and so was my sister. My brother was out of town. I lived with my bf and his family( another long story) Anyway, I had little support through this time. I had a friend who loved to eat. I wasn't much of a eater but I had my first steak and cheese with fries and gravy and a BIG fountain soda and we watched a movie. WOW, did I feel good after eating that. I felt sedated and calm...like a anxiety med. I found away to feel good when I needed comfort....FOOD...YUM. That was the beginning of my addiction to food. Food became the friend I always longed for...so I thought. Later, much later, I found out food was not really my friend, but I love my friend. Now I realize I have to change my relationship with food. I have tried over and over again to diet and exercise. It worked for a short time but I couldn't keep up.
I would exercise 4 days a week, 2 hours at a time. The most I lost was 30#'s. Not enough. No more would come off. I just couldn't eat the tiny bit I was supposed to in oder to lose more. Believe me I tried. Depression set in bad about my weight. My self-esteem is low because of it. I used to be thin and sexy...but didn't think I was. I exercised all the time, three times a day before my dad died. I thought I was fat at 126#'s. I have always had an issue with my weight whether thin or fat. I believe now I will cherish that 126#'s. I know I will. So, I heard about lapband, I don't remember how, but I have been researching it for about a year now. I have decided to do it. I went to a seminar and went to my initial visit with the surgeon on 12/14/06. I am now waiting for approval with my insurance and I have to see their nutritionist. Then a surgery date can be set. I am hoping for the 2nd or 3rd week in January. I am excited but nervous about the whole process. I am strong and have been through alot in my life. I know I can do this. I am glad I found the Obesity Help board. I look forward to my journey and getting to know others who are doing this lifestyle change.
