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I feel bad about not updating my post as much as i should because everyone on here as a great support when I was going through my surgery and I wanted to be there for everyone else.It has been almost 11 mts since my surgery and my life is changing so much.I am feeling so great now.I haven't had any back pain or leg pain in so long.i no longer need high blood pressure meds and I feel great.i would have this surgery every year.I can't tell you how great i am feeling.it does have its downs but Its not in the health department for me.It is in the people department now nobody knows who i am not even my niegbors know who i am anymore and everyone keeps asking questions like are you ok are you sick.How did you loss so much so quick do you feel ok.I f i say hi to someone they look at me like who are you!!It gets a little weird.My friends that are still big make jokes and say how they can lift me with one hand now.I also get tierd of people telling me not to loss anymore weight like i have control over how much i loss.i am told that they are not use to the new me and they will get use to it.i am 4 lbs under my goal i wiegh 138 today.I went from a size 24 down to a 4.I never remember being a size 4 ever and i feel great but I think i am more self concenice now then when i was bigger because people pay more attendion to me now.

I have lost 79 lbs in 3 months and feel so much better my back and leg no longer hurt and i go for 3 month check up next week.i went from a size 22 tight to a size 16 it took awhile to go down sizes but it was probaly because everything I wore was tight.It was alittle bit upsetting because know one said anything about my weight loss until this week now that i have nothing to wear except one pair of capri i just bought and like 3 shirts that fit.I am not buying anything else until summer and then i will so to goodwill until i reach my goal 56 lbs until then.I feel so good.i know my kids see that i have so much more energy if the weather would just get to spring instead of winter.It is april and it was snowing this morning that really sucks.i want to go walk .By the time I get out of the house nobody will know who I am even my nieghbor will think my husband left the big girl and got a new girlfriend.Haha My daughter turns 2 this weekend and we where going to give her a party but not in this weather.i guess we will wait until my sons birthday he will be 4 in may so just a couple of weeks away.i went to a bachlorette party this weekend at a male strip club.It was so funny .i just laugh all night at everyone.I will never go back there but it was what my cousin wanted and she had fun.I saw so many or my family that I haven't seen since my surgery and everyone was reaaly nice and keep telling me how nice I looked and they were in shock that i lost almost 80 lbs in 3 months.Friday I almost cried when I weighted myself and I wieght under 200.It felt sooo good.I can't even remember when I weighted under 200 since high school.You will always have people that are jealous or this this was the lazy way out but it is not that easy and just remember you are doing this for yourself and those who love you so you will be around for them instead of sitting around in pain.

Hi everyone I know I should be better about posting so people will find help in reading my story like I did when I decided to get the surgery.It has been 8 weeks since surgery and Ic have lost 60 lbs and I had a little stall for about 3 weeks.I was at 233 for about 3 weeks until this week and I loost 10 more pounds.I do feel alot better but it has been hard learning to get everything in that I have to for the day because nothing tastes good to me or sounds good to me.I make myself do what I have to.

I got home on thrusday and was trying to get away for a couple of days without my kids just so they didn't hurt me.I fell great I just get really tierd and take alot of nap but other than that it was alot better than I thought it would be.My c session with my oldest was alot worse than this.I just have to watch that the dog and kids don't jump on my stiches but I really think it went great.My back hurt more than and thing because of hospitial beds I think.Just have to move around more but it is hard because can't walk outside unless I want to freeze to death it is so cold.more later.Thank you to everyone.

I am really starting to go crazy.i have been doing so much my body is really in pain today.I don't think I can take anything because I start my clear liquids tommorrow.It is only 2 days until my surgery and I can deal with this pain until then and then the pain meds.will help everything.I have been crying because I know the pain is coming but I keep telling myself it is only for awhile and it will be worth it.I hope!!I have done to much to turn away now and I am looking at it like having a baby the first time it is hard for a couple of months then you get it  and it becomes easier.Atleast for me anyway.I already had to c session so I wonder how different this is going to be.I have a pretty big cut from my kids because they were so big .Well see you on the other side.

Yesterday I went to get my blood done and a chest x-ray for pre op testing and talked to nurse.It wasn't bad.I thought I would be scared but I really wasn't at all.I have been doing everything the doctor has told me so I know everything is ok.I hope!!I quit smoking and have not eaten only protein drinks for 9 days now so I hope everything is ok because I really want ot get this over with so I can start my life again.Late lee I have been crazy with cleaning and organizing everything because I don't know how long it is going to be before I will be feeling better and my mother in law is going to be staying here and she is worse then me when it come to cleaning.She will wash the dishes by hand and dry them instead of putting them in the dishwasher.She folds the plastic shopping bag you get at the store into little box shapes one at a time.I had my attic all decorated and made up for her for christmas and when she was here she asked my husband if we could move everything to the basement instead what am I super woman thats 3 floors of stairs.It almost killed me and now I am painting my living room since i have been wanting to do it for awhile and got a gift card from home depot for christmas.It looks really nice but now that I started it I am like why I'm I doing this!!lolI have to wait unti lmy husband is home at night to finish because my kids will get into everything and then I would freak out.Been alittle moody since I can;t eat anything and I am a non smoker now.I keep talking about quitting because I am so proud of myself.It has been going on 4 months now and I feel great I still want one every now and then but it is so nice not to think about them all the time like before.Yesterday at the hospital that was all I could smell because people where smoking outside then I could smell it on them inside and I could actally say it didn't make me want one it was alittle gross and the smell got stuck with me .Now I know why people don;t like smokers but I will never be one of thoughs people who say any thing  to anyone because I think you should be able to smoke outside.

I guess not eating and being stuck inside because of rain is getting to me.My children are bored and my body hurts today so it is even worse.All the toys my kids got and they want to jump on me!I have been trying not to let them jump on me this week because I will be getting surgery in 10 days.I think everything is getting to me today Just one of those days.I will pull through.Just don't feel like doing anything today.I have to go pick up my friends husband tonight and take him to the hospital because their sonis really sick.I feel so bad for him.I really hope everything is alright.I will be prating for him.Go for pre op testing at hospital on monday.I really hope the time flies by until my surgery I am so really to get it over with and get out of this pain.I know it will take so time but hoping to get the process to good health started and I pray for quick healing.

Well it is 11 days to go today!!I am gettigng excited but still alittle scared.I went and got different protein falvors yesterday so that helps me with that .It isn't that bad not being able to eat anything.I get hungry then I have to make something for my kids or when my husband is eating his dinner but instead of being around when he eats I go take a shower or go read my book.Why make myself crazy!!It is all in my head because the drinks fill me up.I have been drinking alot of water because I read somewhere it is good to do before any surgery.My sister lives in colorado but is always there for me sometimes I feel bad for her because I think I am so needy sometimes.I talk to her almost everyday that god for unlimited long distance calling plans.My husband and I are going to check the ymca so that i can get my exercise and my kids can go with me and take some classes to.I think it is a good thing that my husband who wieghts 150 lbs  get involved with helping me.He has been so scared these last few weeks but I am trying to make him feel better telling him all the positive things that this is going to do for us.He is really my best friend and we talk about everything.We have known eachother since I was in the 9th grade ( we didn't date until I was 23 because I was going through my bad boy phase of my life)so we have been friends for 20 years now.enough for today.

It is 12 days until my surgery and now I am getting alittle hungry and sick of chocolate protein drinks.I think I will trade some in for banana cream and vinilla today.My son was up getting sick last night I just hope he gets better and that I don't get sick before surgery.Today he said he feels better so i hope it is over now it will be my daughters turn.It seems like every Jan. they end up in the hospital one right after the other.My son usally gets dehydrated evertime he is sick and is in hospital for a weekend or so and last year my daughter ended up in hospital because she had a seizer because of a virus they think I think it was rosy ola??I don't know how to spell it but oh well. I think I am nervous typing.I have to have my mother in law come to stay with them and she was just here for 2 weeks but she will be a big help and my husband will also be here for the first week to help her.My son who is 3 and a  half I started to talk to about my going to the hospital but I don't want to scare him.Well better go for today.