staceyk
Hi just like everyone else I have always been bigger than everyone else.I don't remember when I weight less than 200 lbs but can't wait until I get there.Right now I weighted at the doctors office last week278 I weighted that when I had my son 3 years ago and he weight almost 9lbs himself.I weighted 257 when started this is oct.but I had to quit smoking.That was not easy but my doctor but me on a new drug called Chantix it worked so great I still thought about cigs but did care about getting any.I tried so many time to quit before.I guess I need this because it was quitting or no surgery.I feel like I have aready changed alot and I haven't even gotten surgery yet.I have been on protein drinks for 3 days now and have to drink them for breakfast,lunch and dinner until I get my surgery on January 15th.it is 13 days until my surgery and I am reallly scared but I did alot to get here.No turning back I deserve to be healthier and my children deserve it to.There are so many things I want to do that I can't do now and late lee my body has been talking to me and telling I need to do something.I am 35 years old and by the end of the day my body mostly my legs are killing me like I ran 50 miles or something.My sister and her family hike and bike and do alot of outdoor stuff and this summer I did as much as possible with them but next summer I want to do more with my kids and my sister and her kids.I hope I will be feeling better by the time we go to the shore this summer.I don't want to be the heaviest person in my family anymore and most of all I want the pain to go away.I could not live with this pain for the next 30-40 years.I am to young to feel like this.I can say it has been almost 4 months since I smoked and I feel great but when I get stressed which is alot with a 3 and half year old son and a 22 month old daughter I want one but it goes away fast and I get a sugar free mint .It is funny I can't eat but I have been cooking for my family with know problem and I have been making up some soups that I can eat after surgery and putting in ice cube trays I used to do this with baby food I made for my son.It looks alot like the same thing.I told my husband it was baby food with an adult twist.
