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My baby is 5 months old now.  She is so sweet.  She is smart too.  I love her so much.  I can't believe that I tried so many years to get pregnant and only 4 months post op I was pregnant.  But, I think God and Dr. Naziri.  I stalled at 235 pounds.  I never made it under 200, but this is my fault.  I can do it.  I just have to try.  I would love to hear from my old friends to see how they are doing.

So much is going on now!  I have lost 90 pounds since surgery and 130 since my heaviest.  I am doing well.  Today I am 7 weeks pregnant.  I am actually doing good.  No morning sickness at all.  I haven't actually talked to Dr. Naziri, but I see him next week.  I called and they told me some extra things I can do to take better care of myself.  I went to a party Saturday where there were people I hadn't seen in years.  They were amazed by the difference in me.  I am so proud of myself.  I am so excited now that I am almost normal size.  I don't feel like I am 3 times larger than everyone that I am around.  And now I am going to finally have my baby that I have so long wanted. 

I am 6 months out now, well actually more.  I am still very happy.  I am doing well.  Just still busy and not much time to update!

I am down 73 pounds in 19 weeks.  I still can't beleive it.  I mean, there are very few foods that I can't eat.  I am loving this.  I just eat very small portions.  We celebrated my brother's 17th birthday on Saturday.  I ate a very small amt of the pig...didn't like it, which I used to eat so much I would get sick.  I ate a small amt of mac & cheese, potato salad, and green beans.  I also had a little taste of cake and ice cream.  Yep!  Sure did, and I am not ashamed to say it.  I made sure that I worked out after I had my little splurge.  It is all about balance.  I have never been on a diet where I could eat a little of everything and still lose.  But, it is that now I know how to take that little bit and stop.  Before I would eat enough to make me sick.  I am so proud of my new habits.  I can't get used to the comments people make.  I have never been called pretty, yeah I have always heard "oh,  you have such a pretty face, you just need to lose some weight".  I hate that.  My grandmother is so proud of me.  That means so much to me.  She was diagnosed with cancer a few months ago and we thought that she only had a few months to live.....well, she is in remission!!!   She has always been loving, but really concerned about my weight.  She looks at me now like I am the prettiest thing she has ever seen.  She has always asked me "when are you going to give me a great-grandbaby?"  All of her other grandchildren have had their tubes tied.  Our youngest child in the family is 7.  Before surgery, I would have a menstral cycle maybe once or twice a year.  Now....I have had one for February, March, and April.  They lasted 7 days.  So....maybe I will be able to get pregnant when my body is ready.  My grandmothers sister just stared at me and told me that I don't even look like the same person.  My husband also looks at me very different.  He tells me that I am pretty.  I love dressing up and even wearing make-up now.  I look at food differently now.  Yesterday I had some stuff to do at lunch time, so I didn't bring lunch.  I stopped at KFC to get a wrap.  I got the combo w/the chips.  I felt so guilty eating the chips, I threw them away at the gas station.  Last week I went to a Head Start Conference in Winston-Salem.  I did well.  I got sick a few times eating breakfast.  We ate at a really greasy dinner.  I ate a very little bit of the food, b/c I needed something.  I was hungry.  At one of the banquets we had sandwich stuff.  I ate ham, cheese, and pickles.  OMG.....My stomach swelled up like a balloon.  Thank God I had my own room.  I had terrible gas.  hahaha  I even went down to the gym and worked out.  I didn't get tired from walking either.  I went a couple of years ago and missed one of the banquets, b/c I couldn't even walk I was so tired.  This time I didn't miss anything and learned how to do the Cupid Shuffle!  hahaha  I had so much fun.  I have finally lost that image I had in my head of the horrible, super, morbidly obese Stacy.  I know I am still very overweight, but I don't feel like a massive gross freak.  I do actually feel normal (fat, but normal).  Until next time......my 5 month mark!