Hello Amos Family, warning LONG POST. I apologize for taking so long on letting you all know how things are going with me. Surgery went great!!! The Bariatric beds SUCK, who invented them?? That person should have to spend a month after surgery in it. Surgery was on December 12th and I was home on the 15th, I had open RNY. Pain wasn't bad at all. I was out shopping 3 days later. Had my first post op visit on the 20th. I hadn't lost a pound, needless to say I was in tears. The surgeon said I was retaining fluids and put me on a water pill. The day after Christmas my daughter came in and asked why my gown was wet, I said I'm sweating lol. Then I looked down and noticed that I was leaking from my incision. Talk about someone FREAKING OUT, I started crying and lost control. The nurse told me to mix peroxide & water and cover with gauze also come to the office the next morning. The surgeon reassured me that everything was ok and not to worry. The good news is I LOST 20 POUNDS YEAH!!!!!!! in 1 week exactly. The idea was going thru my mind that I was going to be the one person that wouldn't lose any weight after having the surgery. Oh yeah I forget to add that before surgery I was taking 3 insulin shots a day, but I haven't had to have one since the night of surgery. Thank God, my sugar level has been OK, still take the readings 4 times a day. My fingers are going to fall off lol. I was on 2 types of medicines for high blood pressure, they changed it totally and now I take 1 pill twice a day. This surgery is a God send. I just want to get over the depression and panic attacks that I have had for yrs. Since surgery it seems as if I'm more depressed and anxious than ever. I cry for no reason and go off just as easy. I feel like I'm losing my mind, has anyone else felt this way? If so please HELP ME, I don't know what to do. Everyone that comes into contact with me is on pins and needles, not knowing how I'm going to react. I feel like I have multiple personalities. Laughing, Crying and then Angry at any given time. This is not good, scaring my little girls which are 12 and 5 yrs old. Every hour I have to tell everyone in person and friends and family that I have talked to on the phone that I apologize for my behavior, just can't help it. Total basket case here. No appetite and when I do want something it doesn't taste the same. One bite of food and I'm full. This is going to be a very interesting adventure, but I'm looking forward to it. I have a friend that is planning a cruise to the Bahamas and a few other places to be taken on my one yr anniversary of WLS, can't wait. My friends this update has been long enough, feeling better now. I can't wait to hear from everyone. Thanks for all of your prayers. To everyone that is Pre Op, you're in my prayers and God is watching over you. All My Love