Well, I have 4 more days before surgery. I don't have much time to do anything before I go, I am working tonite, and tomorrow night (12 hour shifts) I will sleep all day monday, and tues. i leave for denver, so I can be there wed. morning. I was soooo excited to do this, and now I find myself getting very nervous, wondering if I am doing the right thing. I have never been afraid of surgery before, so i dont know what is wrong with me. I know I NEED to do this, for my health, and my little boy. I was having second thoughts, then tonite I passed a glass window with my profile (full length) in it, and knew I could not turn back now. I dont want to spend the rest of my life this heavy. (or heavier). I have been really lax on what I have been eating for the last 2 months when I knew I was going to get this surgery, and have gained 10 pounds! You wouldn't think 10 pounds would make a difference (never did to me before, 5, 10 whatever, not enough to notice) but this time, I can really tell a big difference--the way my closthes fit, my belly seems to have a overhang that wasn't there 10 pounds ago. Well, I guess this is just like last minute wedding jitters--I mean something that is going to be so life changing. I am really amd at my dh, he is not emotionaly supportive at all, and today he asked me "when is your surgery again?" ARUGG! I tell him "wednsday" he says "Wed?? why didnt you tell me sooner?" um, I told you when I found out, how much sooner did you want to know? I told him he is of no support to me, he cant even remember when i am going in, and what if god forbid I should die? he say "Your not gonna die, this is not a big deal operation" um--since when? I told him, sorry to dissapoint you, but this is major surgery, even if it is laprascopic. He doesnt think so. Thank god I have my parents and sister for support. I have a feeling he will be going bye bye real soon. (as in I am not going to take his sh*% any more) He has a very slim chance of redeeming himself over the next couple of weeks! Well, I have rambled on long enough, I gotta get back to work. Thanks AMOS for the ear!