sashabear
I never really sat down and typed in my story when I first joined Obeistyhelp. I joined early on just more for information than to find and interact with other people. I also joined the site well before I was even accepted into my surgical program.
Well, here is my story, I am sorry in advance if this is a paraphrased story, my childhood memories are a bit spotty at best.
I did not start gaining wait until I was around 10/11yrs old. I don't remember those early years, so I cannot say what for sure was making me put on the pounds.
By the time I was in high school at the age of 15, I was 200lbs and using food to hide behind some bad times and to ease my emotional pains. I know everyone says that we fat people use food to hide their emotions and to just forget about the outside world, but in my case it was completly true. I had some hard times early on and I guess my subconsiouse was using food to help get me past them.
I completely ignored the fact that I was fat. I had blinders on for so many years that it wasn't until my late 20's that I really started to see what I was and how it was affecting my life. One day my stepmother came to me and mentioned the idea of having surgery. I listened to her, but was not realy paying much attention. I had heard about the surgery but had never really considered it an option at the time.
A few years later I finaly had some insite as to what my life could be like if I continued down the path of self distruciton. I was heading for severe arthritis in my hips and one knee. Several immedate family members have diabetes and I know for a fact that if I didn't loose this weight, I would have it to.
In 2003 at 327lbs, I asked my doctor about the surgery and he agreed that it would be a great oportunity for me to shed this excess weight. I had my dietian/psyche evaluation and heard nothing back from anyone. A year later, I was having my physical and I mentioned it to my doctor again. He asked if I was serious about having it and I said yes. He forwarded my evals to the surgery department and about 4 months later I was approved.
So, officially, I started my weight loss journey in mid 2004 with a starting weight of 317bls. I was losing weight and was only about 10lbs away from my goal weight when everyhing just kind of crumbled around me. I was having problems at work and was somewhat depressed during that time and I backed out of the program in 2005.
By early 2006, I had had enough of this weight, could not stand it anymore and I finally said to myself, this is enough!!!! You have to do something or you will end up getting heavier and heavier. I got back into the program and I stuck to it as best as I could. I finally made my goal weight of 291lbs in June 2007.
I has been a long and frustrating journey and I finally made it to the starting line of my new life. I was orginally scheduled to have surgery on 7.30.07, but I was diagnosed with having the h.pylori bacteria and had to have my surgery postponed until I completed the antibiotic therapy to bring down the infection. I was so disapointed. My surgery was rescheduled for 8.27.07.
So in a nut shell, that is my past life. I am so looking forward to starting my new life at a healther weight and healther mind and body.
