Samara, that talk is unacceptable you have so much to live for!!! Reading your posting took me back to a bad place in my life. I'm currently taking medication for depression due to the trauma i induced as a child. I was over weight during my childhood, I can remember my sisters teasing me because they were small and I was chubby, they would say when i walked the sidewalk would move. Or whatever painful thing they could think of. I would cry to myself when they were sleep. While dating in high school i met my oldest son's father, i wasn't small but i had lost to average size, as history tells the story I got pregnant!!!!! Well I was back to the name-calling and pain all over again. Well after 2 yrs of that I had enough. I left my family along; the X went straight to hell. I decided to change Beverly for Beverly. As time went on I met and married a man that loves me for me. I'm having this surgery for my health and no other reason. (Well I kinda lied I can't wait to wear some huchy moma stuff in front of them) hahaha Smile girl it's going to get better trust me. Now that I have my husband and my children to love he nothing else matters. Love Samara and watch how your life changes. You have a daughter that needs you, together you and her can conquer anything!!!! If you need support just read your profile. Or better yet there are several of us that living right here in Detroit willing to support our sister you. If you're interested we are having a support group meeting 8/24/02. We will help you remember you are not alone!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank god for your life, you are blessed to wake in the morning and sleep in the night. He will answer your prayers just ask him!!!!!!!!!!!!
God bless you and I pray for your success.