Pam, I'm so sorry to hear about your mom, my dad passed away 16yrs ago with lung cancer. I just wanted to share with you, a commercial I once saw that turned a light bulb on for me!! It was for an airline, and they were saying when in an emergency, the oxygen masks fall, be sure to put it on yourself first, then your child, because you will be no good to them if you pass out first!
I know one of the mistakes I've made in life, is always being a Mom, wife, sister, aunt, grandmother first! and tend to put all those jobs before taking care of me:-( and now that I've let myself go, I'm no good to anyone including myself.
I'm not trying to blame my weight on that, I'm just trying to say I should have been taking care of myself to. If your mom should last for a few more months or years, and I hope and pray she does. Will you be healthy enough to maybe help take care of her? Your important!! as far as your job, what have they done for you? Once your thinner and healthier, the world of jobs will be at your feet:-)) although it shouldn't be that way but it is! Pray for God's wisdom, I'll be praying for you to. "We can do all things in Christ who strengthens us" "He will give you the peace that surpasses all understanding" Whatever you decide, remember YOUR IMPORTANT!!