Phyllis M.

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Not much going on lately.   I thought that I'd update my blog since last time - back in June !!  I know - I'm bad.......but I work most of the time and don't remember to get some things done that I should.  Looking back on my surgery date and beyond......I'm going to regret not keeping better logs of whats been happening to me on what date !!    I'm 9 months out and well - I just can't believe that I am 3 months way from being out 1 year already !!

I don't get much time for ME - lunch periods during the week is full of running home to pick up daughter for work and getting her to work and then getting back to work in 1 hour.......  soooooo I have planned some trips and hopefully the budget can take the gas woes !! 

I have finally gone back to a full schedule of 3 jobs - working about 70 hours a week between the 3 jobs.  The next few weeks will be less than that because I actually have plans to go to OKC during the weekend of 8-8 thru 8-10-08 (just before my B-day) and I'm gonna go spend much needed time with family and church friends.  I can't wait.

Since scheduling that time for ME - I decided that on Labor Day weekend, since John is off work back to his Sundays / Mondays, I am going to go to Llano, TX to spend the holiday weekend with him.  I didn't realize how much I missed him until I actually decided that this is what I'm going to do -  now I'm anxious and really excited - all except for the drive back and forth for both the OKC and TX trips !!  3 hours............to OKC and then about 4 hours to Llano - depends on which map I guess you follow.   Who knows !!  I'll figure it out when I get there !!  lol

I'm looking forward to the WLS / July 26th BBQ at Stephanie's house in Rowlett.  Thats coming up really fast.   Daughter is off work that day - so I don't have to be anywhere at any certain time !!   WHEW !!  :)
The outing to the Rangers Game on 8-23-08 and contemplating a trip to 6-flags all day earlier in the day that day just to be with people that I love and can be ME with and they won't judge me for being still overweight, etc and whatever things come up on that day.   I'm worried about NOT being able to fit in the seats in some of the rides, having to be humiliated and then getting out of the line when I realize that I can't FIT IN THEM STILL !!  grrrrrrrrrrrr.............  That still hurts mentally and I will never forget that !

I have been on a 2 month stall and on the Monday Morning Weigh in on 7-14-08 - it finally broke.  I was down 5 lbs.  I'm getting in about 104 oz of fluids including Atkins Shakes for protein, etc........so I'm really excited about that and my energy level has seemed to recovered  from my April Sicknesses and has really blossomed once again.  WHOOO HOOOO !!
I weighed in this morning 7-18-08 and have lost another 2 lbs. - I'll take it !!

I actually am getting to the point where if I can't get my excercise or walking in - I feel really guilty and down and out about it.  I've been about 1 1/2 weeks without getting to the gym and/or any walking other than in the office............I JUST GOTTA DO IT FOR ME AND NO ONE ELSE !!  MAKE THE TIME OR ELSE !! 

That's all that is happening lately with me and whats coming up.....Thanks for checking in on me.    xoxoxox (((hugggsss)))) 

Today - I met a friend that I haven't seen in over 4-5 years.  It was great to see her.  We had lunch at Rudy's Mexican Restaurant here in Irving, TX.  
I had 2 chicken enchaladas.  I love their enchaladas - there doesn't seem to be a whole lot of stuff mixed in w/the chicken.   Sourcreme - was a little rich for me - but I didn't have any problem consuming 2 of them.   I was really full - more uncomfortable than I really wanted to be !!

I have to apologize for my comments today.  I'm just  hurting for all involved...taking all of the crappy comments, etc.............It reminds me of when I was in high school as a child and getting "ganged" up on by the whole entire school because I was "fat" !!!  hmmmmmmm

Kinda leaves me thinking about what Yvonne said at the RYD conference........
1) Think before you post.............
2)  Is it kind ?
3)  Will it hurt someone else.............

Well, I think that I'm becoming one of those scale ho's that we all talk about on the TMB (TX Message Boards)........I swore that I wasn't gonna do that...but now - I'm becoming obsessed with the up and down 2+ 3+ etc..you get the picture...

Well - I was excited when I got on the scale Saturday morning to find that I think that I busted through one of the tough (many more to come - I'm sure) plateaus and I lost 3 lbs.     Facing a family picnic later in the day -  I knew that I was gonna splurge a little just because it is a picnic..........but surprisingly - I didn't do too badly.   I stayed within somewhat with the exception of eating 3 SMALL cut brownies, but I just couldn't resist them.
I had a few potato chips later in the day and they just didn't even taste good.  I took my protein shakes and cheese and turkey - so that when I felt that I needed to pick around on something - I had something within my limits to choose from.            I did good.             The weather at Lake Eufaula was beautiful - the temps were just perfect.  Towards 7pm the wind was just stagnant and really got sticky then...........but can't complain.  GOD WAS GOOD TO US AS USUAL !! 

I baked brownies for at home last evening.    I took the bowl and spatula directly to the sink and submerged it in dishwater quickly so that I wouldn't be tempted to even lick my fingers...........NO BATTER FOR ME !!  IT WAS REALLY TEMPTING - BUT I feel that I came this far and I'm not gonna start by testing this and/or that any more than what I have.

I knew this weekend by me catnapping and not sleeping well at night - that I must be in another fat burning stage because I'm sleepy - just not sleeping through the night.  Took me about 45 min to go to sleep last night.   I am tired today and have nodded off several times.   OOPS !!  lol

Have a GREAT day !! 

HMMM  Been a while since I've blogged on this website.  I haven't exactly kept up with blogs on My Space either !!  Go Figure.  Who would have ever figured out that I for one wouldn't have time ( I ONLY work 3 jobs !!! )  Go Figure !!    

I have cut my hours down considerbly at job #2 and job #3.
I got sick in April for about 3 weeks with one infection after another which required antibiotics and then that caused an enormous yeast infection !!  NOT GOOD.   This was was the worst one that I've had in my life - and if I ever have another one....it will be too soon !!  lol

I am 7 months out from surgery as of yesterday.  My current weight on the scale reads:  220 - so that puts me at losing about 119 lbs since consultation time with my surgeon.   I've been fluctuating 2 lbs over the past 3 weeks give or take and so I'm really trying to hit the protein and water, or just plain fluids.  I'm doing better.   I've been writing down what I've been eating for the last 1 1/2 weeks - I've been getting in about 1100-1400 cal which seems like an aweful lot to me, but my nutritionalist wants be to be getting in 1100.   There is another girl that I know that is just about 2 weeks behind me and she is only getting in about 800-900 cal per day - so now I don't feel so bad.   My nutritionalist has NEVER had this WLS surgery - so I'm not sure that making sure you get in fruits, salads, milk is all that important, but I know that getting in enough protein, and vitamins and water/fluids is.....so that is what i've been concentrating on this past week.  HOpefully the scale will jump really down and DOWN - not UP !!   

I'm doing pretty good.  Had a rough April so trying to get back into the swing of things.   Went to a WLS conference (RYD Conference) here in Dallas from 5-2 thru 5-4 and it was just awesome.   So awesome that I think I went through a depressing time because when I'm with my WLS friends............none of us are "better" than the other one.  We all battle with eating problems.........love of food..............etc..........I don't feel inferior around them and then when the conference was over...........had to get back into reality !!    I was really depressed !!    I'm doing better now.  I realized that I wasn't the only one that was feeling kinda down and out afterwards !!      I just love my other / new family.   

We have a camping trip planned in June, breakfasts every other week, etc................so that we can all stay in touch.

If you are NOT part of a suport group, I urge you to get involved on this website:  www.obesityhelp.com.   GO into forums and click on Texas RNY.  We are awesome support group, team here and we'll help you and support you all you need.  STOP LURKING AND JOIN US !! 

Hey - I've made another weekend (2 now) without being in the hospital. I guess that is a plus huh?

I am afraid that since I've been eating a little more food that I am going to start gaining a little weight back.  I feel that I ate too much on Thanksgiving Day and well, the scale doesn't show that I've lost any since last Monday, but I guess that is okay too.  Dr. Matin wants me to lose at the max - 15 lbs by/on the next appt on 12-17-07.  Another words - NO more than 15 lbs in the next 4 weeks.....I was at 285 when I was in his office and he doesn't want me any less than 270 and states that I need to start eating more, so I have been...but I guess then I need to start walking more too to counteract some of that too !! 

I feel and I'm afraid that I'm becoming obsessed with losing weight and getting to feel better and looking better too and that may NOT be such a good thing in the long run, so I am going to call an EAP advisor that I have access to from work and maybe start on some counseling to deal with weight loss issues and the in/out of that task and learning how to cope with the body changes.

I return to work on 12-3-07 and I'm a little nervous and I don't know why.  I guess because there have been so many people doing my job for me that I'm afraid that they won't need me anymore and I'll feel rejected.  I am anxious on working with another co-worker "LU".  She is just a wonderful lady and so upbeat and just Loves God with all of her heart !!    

What a wonderful day to spend with family.  It was very enjoyable.  Everyone was pleasant, got along and just willing to do what we all needed to get along in a very small trailer with alot of people.........the food..........well, I didn't get to eat until my heart was content this year.........but I had to suffice with what I could and every bite was very enjoyable and it all agreed with me, so I think that I'm on the road to recovery and seems that I have been eating more things lately.  Hopefully I won't start to gain any of the weight that I've already lost.  Time to buy that scale so that I can watch it more closely.   I haven't hit my first plateau yet, and I'm still in my "honeymoon phase" so hopefully I'll still continue to lose despite the fact that I am starting to eat a few more things.   But I"m watching that fat and sugar content in anything that I eat.  NONE NONE NONE  NO TESTING THE WATERS EITHER !!   LOL    I"ve waited too long for this weight loss tool and I'm gonna use it to the fullest extent.   I feel that I was given a 2nd chance with my life and I want to take advantage of it. 

I believe that my all time high weight has been approx 350 lbs.  I know weigh 285 and my first goal is 250 which I'm almost there.......next goal is 200 and then final goal is 150.  If God blesses with more than that.............Thanks to him with all of my heart...but I think that I'll be happy at 150. 

Hey I've gone a weekend without being in the hospital !!   WHOOOHOOOO!! And I'm feeling pretty good this evening.  I actually had plain shrimp without anything on it and you know - I've been able to hold it down and it tasted pretty darn good too !!   WHOOOOHOOOOOO.  I think things are all uphill from now as I continue to heal.......

Hello everyone.  Nothing new "yet" this weekend to post.  It is almost 7:00pm and I'm at home and NOT in the hospital.    I believe that I am once again struggling with dehydration issues, but I am trying to resolve these myself here at home with no luck.  Severe charlie-like cramps in right side of stomach have been very painful all day today and especially sets them off when trying to take a deep breath.   I believe stomach cramps are a sign of dehyration.  I've been on the same bottle of water ALL day.  Still hurts when I swallow and I have been careful not to take too big of sips.   I am extremely thirsty and very dry mouthed so I am going to hit the sugar-free popcicles tonight to try to make up for some of the thirstyness.

I had another bout with diarrehea.  Yeah I know you all don't want these details, but remember this is a "diary" of "After Gastric Bypass surgery" for me.  I only had a Low Carb SlimFast shake for protein this morning and I guess it didn't like me.  Some days it does, some days it doesn't and I'm almost positive that this situation is NOT helping with the dehydration, NOT to mention the menesis is flowing also.  Go Figure  If it is not one thing - it is another.

About the only thing that I can really eat and hold down or in is - malt-o-meal sweetened with Splenda (thankgoodness for that) with a lot of skim milk in it to make it runny. 

I am conversing with my nutritionist, because I'm just really running out of things to "eat".  The doctor wants me to start eating solids, but I haven't run into anything that I can or should eat yet.   Anyone have any suggestions ?   lol

ANOTHER STAY IN HOSPITAL
Current mood: uncomfortable

 

Yeah - you read the heading correctly.  Went in Sat night and came home this evening.   Another dehydration problem, but was misdiagnosed with an infection by ER doctor that my surgeons don't think that I had because the numbers weren't there.   I've lost 7 more lbs since Wed, 11-7-07 at my last dr's appoint.  Dr Matin would like for me to try to go back to phase II and try to eat something more "solid" because he feels that I am losing too much weight too fast, but that has how I've always been when I first start new eating habits......Lose weight fast at first and then taper off later.

An upper GI series was completed today as a last effort to make sure nothing was leaking and that the pouch opening wasn't too small - all was okay or I was facing surgery 3.

I still hurt when I drink and I'm just uncomfortable, but maybe it is just my insides still trying to heal, after all - it has only been 4 weeks tomorrow since Gastric Bypass Surgery and 2 weeks on Wed since Hernia surgery - You all think that I could still be healing a little bit.       I think so !! 

I've come to the conclusion that I think this feeling that I'm having is the "new stomach" that I need to get use too.  My sips are NOT too big as one of the doctors first thought.   I'm anxious for the next monthly meeting on 11-19-07 because I do have questions...............hopefully it won't be cancelled since that is Thanksgiving week !! 

I managed to go to a movie today.  The chair was like sitting on the floor - YEOUCH !!   Of course, might I remind you that I had a 2nd surgery on 10-31-07....  The smell of the food/popcorn just really made me sick and I had to cover my nose and mouth with my shirt to keep me from getting just totally sick !        It was so cold in there you could have hung meat in there.  Both of my arms were inside of my shirt.  I bet I was a "site" for sore eyes  !