nuttiwebgal
Musings
Feb 13, 2008
THIS IS PERSONAL so dont be shocked if you still want to read
uggggg I hate what is going on with my body! not that being 500lbs was anything to look at! but OMGAWD! I got SKIN! and its not going anywhere.
The legs are starting to look better...they are getting SOOOOOOO much more excersize than before! this job is the best excersize I can get.
Im up and down using my arms and I have almost made it under 300
Im going to weigh tomorrow...I havent told Dean that I was close...it will be his Valentines gift! if I make it!
My arms are sooooo bad its awful I need to take a photo. its really bad.
and lets not talk about my tummy...ok I will. the hernia is larger now than it was...it really needs repaired. and if it could coinside with some tummy removal at the same time all the better! my back is killing me!
ok ok I shouldnt say that...not as bad as when I had a slipped disc and had surgery...I think the fat backside counter balanced me coz now Im stooping over and walking like my gran....probably because she had an "apron"
thats what she clled it! I call it grotesque....Im not depressed I did know that it was going to be like this...but to SEE it is harder to swallow.
and to know that all during the years I raised my kids I weighed around 320
and was so active and now I can hardley do half of what I could....but its getting easier.
do you know that I dont come home from work sometimes till 5pm
Im so busy now.....it feels so good!
not sure how or to who I should go and ask about having my arms done...its going to be sooner than I had anticipated....I am not going to be able to wear
smaller sizes due to the smaller armholes....wont that be fun for me.
I am also having boob issues....but Im trying different bras for their look and their support and of course Im cheap. but these foam bras Catriona has LOVED for a while now(I hated) well now I kinda like them!
they really do offer better support for my poor girls! which brings us to boob jobs...gonna have one??? 
well I have always had big boobs and never was bothered by it...so I pretty sure no breast reduction....can they fill them up?
like implants or something? so many things to start thinking about. while adjusting to a whole new way of living! SHIT! I went from sitting at my computer talking to all my online friends and Building dollhouses(I enjoyed this!) to PEOPLE lots of people who want to talk to me. I havent decided if I like it yet...I do know its funny as hell to watch the ways of people in their everyday lives!
myself included....since my surgery sometimes life takes on a sureal feel to it these days. almost under 300....300......maybe tomorrow!!!!!!
Now working
Jan 26, 2008
yup Im working now!
I cant hardly believe it!
so this is an update on my week.
the job!
OMGOSH! I cannot believe they hired someone off the street to do this job!
my friend who told me to apply told me that most of the jobs were sit at one station and make one part all day! He LIED! I mean there are jobs like that...just not many...and my job is the most important in the whole department....WTH!!
its my job to take the"kits" I get from the stockroom and count all of the parts to make sure all is there and send the flat to the next section...oh which happens to be ME to etch the ID# on the casings and then on to the rest of the dept. depending on which cable are worked on I may need to torque the casings or spiral wrap the cables and while all this is going on I have to keep up with the packaging of these cables before I take them to shipping. which is a long walk down the hall and up a pretty steep ramp but sometimes the shipping gal will come collect the stuff.so I am the beginning and end person with stuff to do in the middle..an "assembler 5" is my official title
now if the work itself wasnt challenging to learn and do I also have to learn paperwork
there are notebooks...close to 50 in the dept...each notebook is for the different customers and are broke down into sections of each individual cables made for the customer...each section is filled with proper procedures and has to be open at your workstation while doing anything with the cable
these notebooks are all over the dept. at any given time. I must write down everything on my timecard including our 15 mins of stretching in the morning.
so as you can imagine I am very busy and active! just like I need to be! I need to go weigh with all this activity I know I have lost!
now the first 3 days were great...I love the job! on the 3rd day I dumped on the same lunch item from home that I have eaten before but it wasnt very long bout 20-30 mins...I was watching her do the shrink wrap sleeves ....OOOHHH yes I do this also to all the cables...yanno the plastic sleeves around the head of industrial cables? they are shrank on with a HOT blow gun. that is a FUN job!
but on Thursday I woke up with my chest hurting and fever...cant call in on the first week so I spent the last 2 days in misery and today I am off to the ER for a UTI I have been fighting for the last week also.
Everyone is super friendly and very helpful....I dont know if Im cut out for 5 days a week work though....I have never done full time work before...only part time...so its all very overwhelming.
but Im going back on Monday and do it again.
of course I get off at 3:30 and havent been home before 6pm most of the week due to the kids moving...AGAIN! and other stuff to do!
if I wasnt feeling so sick I would feel so good! so many positive things going on in my world right now....and its all because of MINIATURES and wanting to build myself a DOLLHOUSE!
and its TRUE!
in 2003 my oldest was graduating from HS I weighed over 500 pounds and didnt leave my house unless forced to...one day in my virtual chatroom I was talking to one of my firends and I clicked on her URL and it was all about her dollhouse she built her self...what a concept!
I decided than and there I too would build myself and my daughter a dollhouse....so I went on E-bay and found my 1/2 scale Victorianna....of course I had no idea there were dif scales so imagine my suprise when the very small box arrived???
I was HOOKED! building dollhouses gave me such a rush of accomplishment I hadnt found in any of the things I had done online...which at the time was my only outlet and socialization! and than I found out about shows and classes and I could only dream of those things....but than one day my dreams became a reality with my Rik Peirce class and the Tom Bishop show! and I can only look forward now. and I amaze myself at all the changes I have made since that time in my life where I was stuck in my house.
this job will allow me to do some of those things I could only dream about before....
2 weeks paid vacation at one yr...and it can be taken in small increments. watch out mini world Nutti is going to be able to go to MORE shows!
and the next time yall plan a Greenleaf trip guess who will be the first to put her name down???
Life is good and the future is Bright!
and all because of Miniatures and WLS
nutti
I cant hardly believe it!
so this is an update on my week.
the job!
OMGOSH! I cannot believe they hired someone off the street to do this job!
my friend who told me to apply told me that most of the jobs were sit at one station and make one part all day! He LIED! I mean there are jobs like that...just not many...and my job is the most important in the whole department....WTH!!
its my job to take the"kits" I get from the stockroom and count all of the parts to make sure all is there and send the flat to the next section...oh which happens to be ME to etch the ID# on the casings and then on to the rest of the dept. depending on which cable are worked on I may need to torque the casings or spiral wrap the cables and while all this is going on I have to keep up with the packaging of these cables before I take them to shipping. which is a long walk down the hall and up a pretty steep ramp but sometimes the shipping gal will come collect the stuff.so I am the beginning and end person with stuff to do in the middle..an "assembler 5" is my official title
now if the work itself wasnt challenging to learn and do I also have to learn paperwork
there are notebooks...close to 50 in the dept...each notebook is for the different customers and are broke down into sections of each individual cables made for the customer...each section is filled with proper procedures and has to be open at your workstation while doing anything with the cable
these notebooks are all over the dept. at any given time. I must write down everything on my timecard including our 15 mins of stretching in the morning.
so as you can imagine I am very busy and active! just like I need to be! I need to go weigh with all this activity I know I have lost!
now the first 3 days were great...I love the job! on the 3rd day I dumped on the same lunch item from home that I have eaten before but it wasnt very long bout 20-30 mins...I was watching her do the shrink wrap sleeves ....OOOHHH yes I do this also to all the cables...yanno the plastic sleeves around the head of industrial cables? they are shrank on with a HOT blow gun. that is a FUN job!
but on Thursday I woke up with my chest hurting and fever...cant call in on the first week so I spent the last 2 days in misery and today I am off to the ER for a UTI I have been fighting for the last week also.
Everyone is super friendly and very helpful....I dont know if Im cut out for 5 days a week work though....I have never done full time work before...only part time...so its all very overwhelming.
but Im going back on Monday and do it again.
of course I get off at 3:30 and havent been home before 6pm most of the week due to the kids moving...AGAIN! and other stuff to do!
if I wasnt feeling so sick I would feel so good! so many positive things going on in my world right now....and its all because of MINIATURES and wanting to build myself a DOLLHOUSE!
and its TRUE!
in 2003 my oldest was graduating from HS I weighed over 500 pounds and didnt leave my house unless forced to...one day in my virtual chatroom I was talking to one of my firends and I clicked on her URL and it was all about her dollhouse she built her self...what a concept!
I decided than and there I too would build myself and my daughter a dollhouse....so I went on E-bay and found my 1/2 scale Victorianna....of course I had no idea there were dif scales so imagine my suprise when the very small box arrived???
I was HOOKED! building dollhouses gave me such a rush of accomplishment I hadnt found in any of the things I had done online...which at the time was my only outlet and socialization! and than I found out about shows and classes and I could only dream of those things....but than one day my dreams became a reality with my Rik Peirce class and the Tom Bishop show! and I can only look forward now. and I amaze myself at all the changes I have made since that time in my life where I was stuck in my house.
this job will allow me to do some of those things I could only dream about before....
2 weeks paid vacation at one yr...and it can be taken in small increments. watch out mini world Nutti is going to be able to go to MORE shows!
and the next time yall plan a Greenleaf trip guess who will be the first to put her name down???
Life is good and the future is Bright!
and all because of Miniatures and WLS
nutti
Interesting things
Jan 17, 2008
I wanted to be a better blogger than this but Im just not so good at it....
Ive been looking for a job and it has been a rollar coaster of emotions.
I havent been amny places because I still have issues. like not being able to stand long. or bend over much. so a couple of weeks ago I went to the Mo career center and a place called LaBarge where a friend of mine works and one other place... did that on monday that I cut my hair. so on thursday I have an appt at the Career center for a program I had hoped would get me some schooling. learn how to do something...anything...so I use the last of my gas,,,get up early...and I am a late nighter so getting up early is HARD!
I go over there and the lady ask me one question....and I knew I wouldnt qaulify for the program coz my wonderful hubs makes to much money...well fine glad to know it. soooooo I got a little pissy with the woman asked her why she didnt tell me the qualifications on the phone when she made the appointment with me. I would not have wasted our time and my gas at almost 3$ a gal. went outside and called hubby had a bawl about being useless...cant even work at McDonalds like my kid is doing.
he said all the right words and I hung up and called La Barge and hey!
they wanted to see me in 20 mins for an interview!
I have now had 2 interviews and the drug test from hell!
so Im waiting to hear when I start.
the job I wanted was a sit down all day job and the one Im doing has more getting up and down during the day. but Im going to try it...see how it goes. I cant seem to walk and work out at home maybe the job will help me get into shape.
soooo do you wanna hear about the drug test from hell????
well kids I have NEVER had a drug test....and it is required for the new job.
soo off I go. no biggie in and out...right???....WRONG!
I go in and wait. in the main lobby..sooooo hot in there and only 3 other peeps there. so they call me in and send me in to do the deed....well I couldnt do it...yanno..catch the pee...too much skin in the way. never dawned on me I couldnt/wouldnt be able to do this.....crap...so I have pee on my hands and have to open the doors with my elbows because you are NOT allowed to wash your hands at this time.
so not only do I have pee on my hands there is not enough pee in the cup(SIGH)
and I get the joy of explaining to 2 very uncaring persons why I do not have pee in the cup. soooo I am told..take this cup and fill it at the sink and CHUGG IT...this is after I have already explained I have had WLS
I said I have a full glass of SF koolaid in the van....no you cant leave the building and you have 3 hours to do this or its a refusal to test....well now that sure sounds serious. no test no job!
ok now folks...since WLS I cannnot drink water unless it is super cold
and that is if I have no other choice...it make me sick to drink water...nooo I dont know why. couldnt drink lemonade for several months either.
ok so I leave the lab back out into big..now full Lobby which is stiffling
I take my cup tot he sink where I am reminded the boil ban has been lifted and the water can be drank...fill my cup with luke warm water go sit down and start to panic...just a smidge...because I knew 3 things for sure
it was hot it was crowded and I couldnt drink the DAMN WATER!
oh 4 things...I could NOT leave.
sooo I go to the front desk and ask them if I could have someone bring me a bottle of water...yes I could so....I go out the doors to another lobby like the wait for a cab area...and sit out there. to call Dean to have him bring me bottle of water. and my purse I had left in the van coz I carry packets of koolaid. well he is at Ashley 's and her and the kids come with him to me.
Im still sittin in entrance area in full view of the reception peeps.
I mix my koolaid and start drinking....dean leaves for work...Im gonna take the kids to lunch if I can ever get finished...here comes a nurse...you not suppose to be out here....well I had been out there for awhile...so I came back in she spots the koolaid...whats that? koolaid I had my husband bring me bottle of water...shes like well the federal guidlines......I told her...listen I cant drink luke warm tap water if I had been told only water for a reason...I would not have mixed it...I would have drank some of the COLD bottle of water....shes like well I could have given you one....well now how nice to tell me this NOW after she has already made a scene in the very full STIFFLING lobby.so the longer I sit..trying to sip sip sip...fast fast fast....I started getting sick and yanno that little panic from earlier....well it just grew into a monster and I got up tp leave. Ashley is like dont leave...she saw the nurse...hey she is leaving...and I was.. it was just tooo much! I told that nurse I had been basicly housebound for 5 yrs and all of this was too much to handle and I had to go...she is like its a refusal...yup I know that...could you try to pee again...Im like I didnt drink very much...Im working on it...so she took me into the lab and I was able to pee in a "hat" and it was all better then.
but I was a nervous wreak! and never want to do that again.
crazy life! cleaned out my clothing and got rid of 2 garbage bags full of stuff.
I feel so much better every day.
ooooo new food I can eat is McDonalds grilled chicken snak wrap honey mustard....18 grams of protien and 280 calories. not bad....I cant eat all of the wrap...but I figure its the chicken I need to concentrate on.
my tostada is only 9 grams of protien. so since McDonalds is close to work Ill be doing that for lunch.
well thats all for now!
nutti
Ive been looking for a job and it has been a rollar coaster of emotions.
I havent been amny places because I still have issues. like not being able to stand long. or bend over much. so a couple of weeks ago I went to the Mo career center and a place called LaBarge where a friend of mine works and one other place... did that on monday that I cut my hair. so on thursday I have an appt at the Career center for a program I had hoped would get me some schooling. learn how to do something...anything...so I use the last of my gas,,,get up early...and I am a late nighter so getting up early is HARD!
I go over there and the lady ask me one question....and I knew I wouldnt qaulify for the program coz my wonderful hubs makes to much money...well fine glad to know it. soooooo I got a little pissy with the woman asked her why she didnt tell me the qualifications on the phone when she made the appointment with me. I would not have wasted our time and my gas at almost 3$ a gal. went outside and called hubby had a bawl about being useless...cant even work at McDonalds like my kid is doing.
he said all the right words and I hung up and called La Barge and hey!
they wanted to see me in 20 mins for an interview!
I have now had 2 interviews and the drug test from hell!
so Im waiting to hear when I start.
the job I wanted was a sit down all day job and the one Im doing has more getting up and down during the day. but Im going to try it...see how it goes. I cant seem to walk and work out at home maybe the job will help me get into shape.
soooo do you wanna hear about the drug test from hell????
well kids I have NEVER had a drug test....and it is required for the new job.
soo off I go. no biggie in and out...right???....WRONG!
I go in and wait. in the main lobby..sooooo hot in there and only 3 other peeps there. so they call me in and send me in to do the deed....well I couldnt do it...yanno..catch the pee...too much skin in the way. never dawned on me I couldnt/wouldnt be able to do this.....crap...so I have pee on my hands and have to open the doors with my elbows because you are NOT allowed to wash your hands at this time.
so not only do I have pee on my hands there is not enough pee in the cup(SIGH)
and I get the joy of explaining to 2 very uncaring persons why I do not have pee in the cup. soooo I am told..take this cup and fill it at the sink and CHUGG IT...this is after I have already explained I have had WLS
I said I have a full glass of SF koolaid in the van....no you cant leave the building and you have 3 hours to do this or its a refusal to test....well now that sure sounds serious. no test no job!
ok now folks...since WLS I cannnot drink water unless it is super cold
and that is if I have no other choice...it make me sick to drink water...nooo I dont know why. couldnt drink lemonade for several months either.
ok so I leave the lab back out into big..now full Lobby which is stiffling
I take my cup tot he sink where I am reminded the boil ban has been lifted and the water can be drank...fill my cup with luke warm water go sit down and start to panic...just a smidge...because I knew 3 things for sure
it was hot it was crowded and I couldnt drink the DAMN WATER!
oh 4 things...I could NOT leave.
sooo I go to the front desk and ask them if I could have someone bring me a bottle of water...yes I could so....I go out the doors to another lobby like the wait for a cab area...and sit out there. to call Dean to have him bring me bottle of water. and my purse I had left in the van coz I carry packets of koolaid. well he is at Ashley 's and her and the kids come with him to me.
Im still sittin in entrance area in full view of the reception peeps.
I mix my koolaid and start drinking....dean leaves for work...Im gonna take the kids to lunch if I can ever get finished...here comes a nurse...you not suppose to be out here....well I had been out there for awhile...so I came back in she spots the koolaid...whats that? koolaid I had my husband bring me bottle of water...shes like well the federal guidlines......I told her...listen I cant drink luke warm tap water if I had been told only water for a reason...I would not have mixed it...I would have drank some of the COLD bottle of water....shes like well I could have given you one....well now how nice to tell me this NOW after she has already made a scene in the very full STIFFLING lobby.so the longer I sit..trying to sip sip sip...fast fast fast....I started getting sick and yanno that little panic from earlier....well it just grew into a monster and I got up tp leave. Ashley is like dont leave...she saw the nurse...hey she is leaving...and I was.. it was just tooo much! I told that nurse I had been basicly housebound for 5 yrs and all of this was too much to handle and I had to go...she is like its a refusal...yup I know that...could you try to pee again...Im like I didnt drink very much...Im working on it...so she took me into the lab and I was able to pee in a "hat" and it was all better then.
but I was a nervous wreak! and never want to do that again.
crazy life! cleaned out my clothing and got rid of 2 garbage bags full of stuff.
I feel so much better every day.
ooooo new food I can eat is McDonalds grilled chicken snak wrap honey mustard....18 grams of protien and 280 calories. not bad....I cant eat all of the wrap...but I figure its the chicken I need to concentrate on.
my tostada is only 9 grams of protien. so since McDonalds is close to work Ill be doing that for lunch.
well thats all for now!
nutti
Happy New Year!
Jan 09, 2008
Happy New year!
Christmas was good...My mother didnt spend it with us as she went to spend it with her mom and brothers and sisters. which left me and mine to fend for ourselves....so we all wore Tie-Dye and those who could drank mixed drinks. something we wouldnt have done if mom had of been here...
New Years was spent at our friends house...first time we havent celbrated at home in about 18 yrs...but I didnt feel like cleaning up for a party before or after! so I let Catriona go to the Bridge from 9pm to 6am. and we took Pixie and went to our friends who have children her age. Dean got a lil tipsy but since I dont/wont/cant drink I happily was the DD. it was nice.
I tell you I ate ALOT of food over the holidays....alot for the new me with new pouch. but Im real sure I havent been getting enough calories in on a reg basis because I lost 19 pounds during the holidays...taking me to 319!
319!! almost under 200....so close to making the mini goal!
I feel so much better but also a little down....when I was this size before I could do alot more than I can now....very limiting when going to look for a job. my tummy weighs me down and makes me walk a little hunched over.
which causes my back to hurt....
I wonder with my degenerative back disorder if I can get ins to pay for the lower body lift and pannilectomy??
havent had back issues for a long time...sucks turds I tell you.
I think I didnt have them while I was so fat because it was distributed out more evenly than it is right now.
Oh well even with the back ache Im so happy to be able to be so busy.
dont have to wait to go to the store coz I can now go by myself.
no more riding the buggy anymore. I am now a walker again. just have to get into better shape.
Dean and I celebrated 23 yrs together Dec 21st. we did our usual....movie
shopping,dinner....this yr though we shopped for ourselves and ate at a WLS friendly restraunt...is there such a place??
yes. they dont know it but yes.
the Japanese Steak and Sushi bar and grill.
thier food is prepared on a hibatchi like grill and sooo yummy. I brought some leftovers home... not many because it takes awhile for them to cook food for the whole table so you can eat slow and enjoy it!
I didnt make any New Years resolutions becuase I didnt feel a need to but I did set a goal for myself....tone up this tired old body! and get a JOB!
Im ready to go back to work.
Have a great day!
nutti
Christmas was good...My mother didnt spend it with us as she went to spend it with her mom and brothers and sisters. which left me and mine to fend for ourselves....so we all wore Tie-Dye and those who could drank mixed drinks. something we wouldnt have done if mom had of been here...
New Years was spent at our friends house...first time we havent celbrated at home in about 18 yrs...but I didnt feel like cleaning up for a party before or after! so I let Catriona go to the Bridge from 9pm to 6am. and we took Pixie and went to our friends who have children her age. Dean got a lil tipsy but since I dont/wont/cant drink I happily was the DD. it was nice.
I tell you I ate ALOT of food over the holidays....alot for the new me with new pouch. but Im real sure I havent been getting enough calories in on a reg basis because I lost 19 pounds during the holidays...taking me to 319!
319!! almost under 200....so close to making the mini goal!
I feel so much better but also a little down....when I was this size before I could do alot more than I can now....very limiting when going to look for a job. my tummy weighs me down and makes me walk a little hunched over.
which causes my back to hurt....
I wonder with my degenerative back disorder if I can get ins to pay for the lower body lift and pannilectomy??
havent had back issues for a long time...sucks turds I tell you.
I think I didnt have them while I was so fat because it was distributed out more evenly than it is right now.
Oh well even with the back ache Im so happy to be able to be so busy.
dont have to wait to go to the store coz I can now go by myself.
no more riding the buggy anymore. I am now a walker again. just have to get into better shape.
Dean and I celebrated 23 yrs together Dec 21st. we did our usual....movie
shopping,dinner....this yr though we shopped for ourselves and ate at a WLS friendly restraunt...is there such a place??
yes. they dont know it but yes.
the Japanese Steak and Sushi bar and grill.
thier food is prepared on a hibatchi like grill and sooo yummy. I brought some leftovers home... not many because it takes awhile for them to cook food for the whole table so you can eat slow and enjoy it!
I didnt make any New Years resolutions becuase I didnt feel a need to but I did set a goal for myself....tone up this tired old body! and get a JOB!
Im ready to go back to work.
Have a great day!
nutti
Dumping and other downers!
Nov 24, 2007
My daughter got a phot of me while I was dumping...it was mild last ing less than an hour. at this point of WLS living I have had more than one occasion of dumping....there are 2 kinds of dumping....what I cal dumping is when a WLS pt has to much sugar or fat it makes your head feel sick...like when youve had too much to drink...your head is spinning?
I cope with this by going to sleep. I have too. no way around it....but this far out I am VERY careful about eating what I think will make me dump...I have to watch for fats in food more so than the sugar....let me clarify....I do not eat sugar or drink pop and I still drink watered down juice I dont want to dump....but I havent been as careful about the fat in some food items
so Im learning. the culprit the day of the photo....one med onion ring from Sonic. and a bite with ranch dip. I know....YA DUMMY! but in my definse...I ADORE sonic...and dont go there unless I am forced....the grandbaby loves their popcorn chicken.
the other kind of dumping...I like to call...the foamies....and thats when food is not chewed prperly or swallowed to fast and too much...it feels packed in the pouch...wont go up and wont go down...hurts like HELL and all you want to do is vomit. do I sound like Ive been there done that???
yup I have! 2 times in 3 days....first on Liver and onions.....hey now it wasnt fried! I baked it in the oven and it was wonderful....BUT
I snacked from the fridge...instead of making a plate and cutting it up.
tooo much tooo fast. 4 hours later I finally dry heaved and felt better! vowong NEVER to do that again.....than on Friday I did it AGAIN!
this time to much turkey not chewed well and a bite of my splenda Pumpkin pie...which is wonderful! but not when it sits in the pouch.about 5 hours of suffering before the dry heave and poof felt better....
the foamies happens all during this time...its when your mouth fills with saliva like right before you puke....but nothing and you cant swallow it because it HURTS.
I have to say I had food envy! I am still having it....all this wonderful food around me and I can have limited amounts. and some things I shouldnt have at all.
They didnt make me cook Dinner Thanksgiving...we went out but I still had a hard time with my food envy. but Im walking and cleaning and I decorated my Christmas tree for the first time in 4 yrs....been making the kids do it.
so with all these issues!
YES! I would do it again!
Im shrriinnking!
nutti
I cope with this by going to sleep. I have too. no way around it....but this far out I am VERY careful about eating what I think will make me dump...I have to watch for fats in food more so than the sugar....let me clarify....I do not eat sugar or drink pop and I still drink watered down juice I dont want to dump....but I havent been as careful about the fat in some food items
so Im learning. the culprit the day of the photo....one med onion ring from Sonic. and a bite with ranch dip. I know....YA DUMMY! but in my definse...I ADORE sonic...and dont go there unless I am forced....the grandbaby loves their popcorn chicken.
the other kind of dumping...I like to call...the foamies....and thats when food is not chewed prperly or swallowed to fast and too much...it feels packed in the pouch...wont go up and wont go down...hurts like HELL and all you want to do is vomit. do I sound like Ive been there done that???
yup I have! 2 times in 3 days....first on Liver and onions.....hey now it wasnt fried! I baked it in the oven and it was wonderful....BUT
I snacked from the fridge...instead of making a plate and cutting it up.
tooo much tooo fast. 4 hours later I finally dry heaved and felt better! vowong NEVER to do that again.....than on Friday I did it AGAIN!
this time to much turkey not chewed well and a bite of my splenda Pumpkin pie...which is wonderful! but not when it sits in the pouch.about 5 hours of suffering before the dry heave and poof felt better....
the foamies happens all during this time...its when your mouth fills with saliva like right before you puke....but nothing and you cant swallow it because it HURTS.
I have to say I had food envy! I am still having it....all this wonderful food around me and I can have limited amounts. and some things I shouldnt have at all.
They didnt make me cook Dinner Thanksgiving...we went out but I still had a hard time with my food envy. but Im walking and cleaning and I decorated my Christmas tree for the first time in 4 yrs....been making the kids do it.
so with all these issues!
YES! I would do it again!
Im shrriinnking!
nutti
Catching up!
Nov 06, 2007
Dont ya just hate it when people just leave you hanging?
another month of worldwind activity! I am soooo Glad that I can almost keep up with most of it! first me....since April I have lost 100lbs...I am THRILLED!
as well as pounds I am shrinking! loosing inches is so wild!
I am now as large as I was when I was pregnant with Catriona.....17yrs ago
I now weigh 360...well that was of 2 weeks ago...I am going to Little Rock for my official 3 month visit the 9th of Nov.I do hope he will be pleased with how Im doing....although I do know I could do more....walking and excersizing....
Im having some issues with this Hernia...it bothers me a great deal.
it is in my hysterectomy scar from last yr in they belly button. it keeps me from doing much bending....the getting down is not so bad but the standing hurts like heckarooooo!
this yr we had our best haunt EVER in our 9 yrs of doing it!
we had over 300 peeps go through it in the 2 nights we did it!
and next yr will be our last. Catriona graduates and we will have no more kidos at home which is why we started the whole thing! so Im done...I told him keep the stuff and set up one heck of a yard display and Ill pass out candy and he can scare the kids. but this other stuff is done now!
I think 10 yrs is quite a nice run. although I havent updated the blog I did put a current phot up....the Oct photo is of me in my WAL-MART pants.
havent shopped in wal-marts in bout 15 yrs or more. I can almost wear shirts from there but the girls have always been an issue....but I will be pleased when I can wear 3x t-shirts from the mens dept....than at least I will have tie-dye to wear. the shirt I did myself and it is a 5x
I had a nice Birthday...went to Liberty Mo and spent the weekend with 2 Aunts and my Gran. we really had a nice visit.
about WLS
I am still dumping...sometimes it feels like no reason for it but there it is.
what I wont dump on one day I will the next...I have to watch for the fat in food as well as the sugar....both make me dump....
knock on wood I am getting better at eating....I havent had foamies or food packed in my pouch...of course I dont eat much meat....it all seems to pack and not move and than I feel like crap.
so I eat alot of Beans...yup! Beans the magical fruit the more you eat the more you toot....sorry it was a flashback to my boys!
they dont bother me gas wise...which is good as I need the protien
ohhhhh and my new love...TOSTADA! but only from Gringos!
this is my food routine as of this time
start the day with a protien shake....take my pills....this can take 45 minutes
snack of Terriyaki beef steak nuggets....bout 3
lunch is usually a tostada if I can or a half a cup of refried beans with cheese
today I had a bite of Catriona's egg roll!....OOOOHHH I MISS chinese food!
snack is a protien bar
than I eat whatever of dinner I can eat.
and I eat 2 SFfudgecicles a day. LOVE THEM!
if I find myself wanting something crunchy I have these baked vegie crackers
nabisco....
over the course of the day I drink 2 40oz of sf fruit punch koolaid and just recently I have added sf country lemonade in the can to my list of can drink....it was off because it left an acid taste in my mouth after surgery...
and I noticed water is easier to drink now too....but I dont seem to crave it like I did.
I can usually find one or 2 things on the menu if and when we go out to eat but I still havent found anything at Sonic that can replace any of my favotites from there....so I just dont go.
every day I am amazed that I am getting smaller and I havent really been bothered by wanting food!
I am even thinking about getting a job!
Im ready...I hope.
well I think Im all caught up...I hope any who reads this knows...on this day and almost everyday I am not unhappy about surgery....I would do it agin!
I am getting my life back and I couldnt be happier!
nutti
another month of worldwind activity! I am soooo Glad that I can almost keep up with most of it! first me....since April I have lost 100lbs...I am THRILLED!
as well as pounds I am shrinking! loosing inches is so wild!
I am now as large as I was when I was pregnant with Catriona.....17yrs ago
I now weigh 360...well that was of 2 weeks ago...I am going to Little Rock for my official 3 month visit the 9th of Nov.I do hope he will be pleased with how Im doing....although I do know I could do more....walking and excersizing....
Im having some issues with this Hernia...it bothers me a great deal.
it is in my hysterectomy scar from last yr in they belly button. it keeps me from doing much bending....the getting down is not so bad but the standing hurts like heckarooooo!
this yr we had our best haunt EVER in our 9 yrs of doing it!
we had over 300 peeps go through it in the 2 nights we did it!
and next yr will be our last. Catriona graduates and we will have no more kidos at home which is why we started the whole thing! so Im done...I told him keep the stuff and set up one heck of a yard display and Ill pass out candy and he can scare the kids. but this other stuff is done now!
I think 10 yrs is quite a nice run. although I havent updated the blog I did put a current phot up....the Oct photo is of me in my WAL-MART pants.
havent shopped in wal-marts in bout 15 yrs or more. I can almost wear shirts from there but the girls have always been an issue....but I will be pleased when I can wear 3x t-shirts from the mens dept....than at least I will have tie-dye to wear. the shirt I did myself and it is a 5x
I had a nice Birthday...went to Liberty Mo and spent the weekend with 2 Aunts and my Gran. we really had a nice visit.
about WLS
I am still dumping...sometimes it feels like no reason for it but there it is.
what I wont dump on one day I will the next...I have to watch for the fat in food as well as the sugar....both make me dump....
knock on wood I am getting better at eating....I havent had foamies or food packed in my pouch...of course I dont eat much meat....it all seems to pack and not move and than I feel like crap.
so I eat alot of Beans...yup! Beans the magical fruit the more you eat the more you toot....sorry it was a flashback to my boys!
they dont bother me gas wise...which is good as I need the protien
ohhhhh and my new love...TOSTADA! but only from Gringos!
this is my food routine as of this time
start the day with a protien shake....take my pills....this can take 45 minutes
snack of Terriyaki beef steak nuggets....bout 3
lunch is usually a tostada if I can or a half a cup of refried beans with cheese
today I had a bite of Catriona's egg roll!....OOOOHHH I MISS chinese food!
snack is a protien bar
than I eat whatever of dinner I can eat.
and I eat 2 SFfudgecicles a day. LOVE THEM!
if I find myself wanting something crunchy I have these baked vegie crackers
nabisco....
over the course of the day I drink 2 40oz of sf fruit punch koolaid and just recently I have added sf country lemonade in the can to my list of can drink....it was off because it left an acid taste in my mouth after surgery...
and I noticed water is easier to drink now too....but I dont seem to crave it like I did.
I can usually find one or 2 things on the menu if and when we go out to eat but I still havent found anything at Sonic that can replace any of my favotites from there....so I just dont go.
every day I am amazed that I am getting smaller and I havent really been bothered by wanting food!
I am even thinking about getting a job!
Im ready...I hope.
well I think Im all caught up...I hope any who reads this knows...on this day and almost everyday I am not unhappy about surgery....I would do it agin!
I am getting my life back and I couldnt be happier!
nutti
feeling so much better
Aug 21, 2007
not just physically but mentally also.
last night I was fortunate to be able to attend the COF
circle of friends support group and it was so wonderful!
I met several people from OH Missouri. I learned so much and feel like I have more choices and able to manage my self and my bariatric diet.
..so what do you say or suppose to feel when someone says they are proud of you for your accomplishment of having surgery and loosing weight this way? it makes me feel very strange. to me it didnt have anything to do with courage but despiration that if I didnt have this done I could die...way sooner than I want to for sure! I dunno...more and more lately I think a couple of sessions with a shrink would help. maybe a book on the subject.
something.
well Im still eating to much/too quickly or something along those lines because I find myself getting sick...which I hate. but its getting better...last night after the meeting we went out to dinner...I had a cup of chili...over a 40 min time period....and no drinking of anything till we left the restraunt.
I did good. I got lots of Protien in too. now Ive got to make some more protien something to get it in. maybe today I will make some protien pudding
I bought Lemon....I couldnt find butterscotch sf so I choose lemon.
Im looking forward to loosing more and getting healthy....and being able to do some of the things I havent in a long while.
I still wont say Im sooo glad I had the surgery but Im less mad at myself now.
and everytime I get on the scales I feel a little better. so I wont say anything ether way until I reach a goal.
my jeans that I bought are about 2 inches from fitting. so by the time it gets chilly I will be wearing my jeans. just in time for Maple Leaf and Halloween.
so glad summer is almost over!
nutti
last night I was fortunate to be able to attend the COF
circle of friends support group and it was so wonderful!
I met several people from OH Missouri. I learned so much and feel like I have more choices and able to manage my self and my bariatric diet.
..so what do you say or suppose to feel when someone says they are proud of you for your accomplishment of having surgery and loosing weight this way? it makes me feel very strange. to me it didnt have anything to do with courage but despiration that if I didnt have this done I could die...way sooner than I want to for sure! I dunno...more and more lately I think a couple of sessions with a shrink would help. maybe a book on the subject.
something.
well Im still eating to much/too quickly or something along those lines because I find myself getting sick...which I hate. but its getting better...last night after the meeting we went out to dinner...I had a cup of chili...over a 40 min time period....and no drinking of anything till we left the restraunt.
I did good. I got lots of Protien in too. now Ive got to make some more protien something to get it in. maybe today I will make some protien pudding
I bought Lemon....I couldnt find butterscotch sf so I choose lemon.
Im looking forward to loosing more and getting healthy....and being able to do some of the things I havent in a long while.
I still wont say Im sooo glad I had the surgery but Im less mad at myself now.
and everytime I get on the scales I feel a little better. so I wont say anything ether way until I reach a goal.
my jeans that I bought are about 2 inches from fitting. so by the time it gets chilly I will be wearing my jeans. just in time for Maple Leaf and Halloween.
so glad summer is almost over!
nutti
One month later!
Aug 12, 2007
alot has happened in the last month.
like I have lost a total of 75 pounds since April when I decided I would do this. it has been a hard road and I have a long way to go! but at least now Im ready for it!
I ran a fever for several days and was quite ill. 2 days after the fever broke my gran had a series of strokes leaving her quite changed.
I went to see her...my friend drove me there at 11pm because I was afraid I wouldnt get to see her alive again. I was up 24 hours by the time we got up there and I was sick...we stayed 3 hours and drove home...she did not know I had been there. she passed away on Sunday June 29th 2 days after I had my drain removed! it was what I had prayed for...I knew I wouldnt be able to do all that was needed for her funneral if I was still doing the drain.
I have had some issues with the foamies....I drank my tomato soup to fast and I have had times when the food just sits there and wont go up or down.
I am learning when and how to eat. still haveing trouble with the timing of quit drinking before eating. and eating SLOW!
but it will come!
I found some Protien chocolate pudding with only 100 calories and 20 grams of protein. Im working hard to make sure I get my protien in. so I wont loose my hair.
I posted some new photos. one of my aunts gave me 2 of her outfits from Catherines that she bought and couldnt wear to keep and or exchange.
one outfit was kept and one exchanged for the black.
I should have bought the 4x but I didnt so I will have to get some more. later.
another 25 pounds and I will have lost 100 pounds since April. it is unbelievable to me at this time. I weigh 385 today!
I am thrilled! my buyers remorse will always be a part of me because I miss my food and its taste and texture...but Im hoping to find a new love...Like ME!
somewhere in this body is me and I hope she will emerge soon.
nutti
like I have lost a total of 75 pounds since April when I decided I would do this. it has been a hard road and I have a long way to go! but at least now Im ready for it!
I ran a fever for several days and was quite ill. 2 days after the fever broke my gran had a series of strokes leaving her quite changed.
I went to see her...my friend drove me there at 11pm because I was afraid I wouldnt get to see her alive again. I was up 24 hours by the time we got up there and I was sick...we stayed 3 hours and drove home...she did not know I had been there. she passed away on Sunday June 29th 2 days after I had my drain removed! it was what I had prayed for...I knew I wouldnt be able to do all that was needed for her funneral if I was still doing the drain.
I have had some issues with the foamies....I drank my tomato soup to fast and I have had times when the food just sits there and wont go up or down.
I am learning when and how to eat. still haveing trouble with the timing of quit drinking before eating. and eating SLOW!
but it will come!
I found some Protien chocolate pudding with only 100 calories and 20 grams of protein. Im working hard to make sure I get my protien in. so I wont loose my hair.
I posted some new photos. one of my aunts gave me 2 of her outfits from Catherines that she bought and couldnt wear to keep and or exchange.
one outfit was kept and one exchanged for the black.
I should have bought the 4x but I didnt so I will have to get some more. later.
another 25 pounds and I will have lost 100 pounds since April. it is unbelievable to me at this time. I weigh 385 today!
I am thrilled! my buyers remorse will always be a part of me because I miss my food and its taste and texture...but Im hoping to find a new love...Like ME!
somewhere in this body is me and I hope she will emerge soon.
nutti
Its done and Im home
Jul 09, 2007
Its done....thats how I feel. well its over with....no sense of excitement or accomplishment either. I feel battered and bruised and wondering why is it that I did this to my body? The surgery went as planned but I did not get my hernia fixed which is totally ok because this is all I need to recouperate from at this time. I was awake long before anyone noticed but would not /could not open my eyes due to the incredible PAIN! yes it hurts real bad....they gave me some better pain meds and I woke up again a few hours later and was able to open my eyes and communicate...more drugs NOW. I had the morphine drip pump and I was better able to control the pain...by thursday I was ready for those ice chips....my mouth was disgusting! of course they gave me the ice chips and told me to use the med cup to measure them into...but no mention of eating on cup per half hour so of course I did 3 real quick and got sick....after I slept that off I was very careful on the amount of ice chips I ate. than came the liquids. and the walking...walking does make the pain better. Friday morning I felt good! by 8am I had already been down the hall 2 times out of the 10 they wanted. then Dean and mom came in and told me about my grandmother...she had fallen in the nursing home and broke her hip...afterthe surgery she had a stroke and they didnt know if she was expected to live or not...WOW to say I had a melt down and was a mess would have been a nice way to put it. but by the end of the day things her way started to sound better and I also learned that I would be a grandmother again in Feb. so it was quite the whirlwind of emotions.I was released from the hospital on sat. hoping to go home on monday but when I called they let me know I couldnt go home till Friday...very disapointing!
specially since Dean couldnt stay and Catriona and I would have to miss out on the 4th of July celebrations. but in the end I was glad we stayed.
it gave me a week of recouporation before seeing the doctor.
I lost 29lbs since may 27th so that made me pretty happy.
it is not fun being fat...and it is not fun being made fun of or not being able to do stuff that everyone else takes forgranted but is this surgery the answer?
well before mine I would say a resounding YES
now...well its not for everyone. and Im not sure how anyone can make sure this is the way for them. I thought it was for me...now Im not so sure...only problem with this is Ive already had it done and now Ive got to deal with it.
maybe when my stitches and drain are out in 3 weeks and I can resume
swimming and I figure out the eating I will be more enthusiastic.
all I can say is make sure that you are totally committed to a new way of living when you do this!
nutti
specially since Dean couldnt stay and Catriona and I would have to miss out on the 4th of July celebrations. but in the end I was glad we stayed.
it gave me a week of recouporation before seeing the doctor.
I lost 29lbs since may 27th so that made me pretty happy.
it is not fun being fat...and it is not fun being made fun of or not being able to do stuff that everyone else takes forgranted but is this surgery the answer?
well before mine I would say a resounding YES
now...well its not for everyone. and Im not sure how anyone can make sure this is the way for them. I thought it was for me...now Im not so sure...only problem with this is Ive already had it done and now Ive got to deal with it.
maybe when my stitches and drain are out in 3 weeks and I can resume
swimming and I figure out the eating I will be more enthusiastic.
all I can say is make sure that you are totally committed to a new way of living when you do this!
nutti
ITs TIME
Jun 26, 2007
yup! the time has come for me to go.
I am excited and very freaked out. today was a clear liquid diet. it went well.
I am having my last popsicle right now...sf of course. my bags are packed
although Im not sure what I will be eating the 2 days I am stuck in the hotel after leaving the hospital...I guess we will worry about that then.
Im suppose to be there at 7:30am so we will leave in an hour or so.
the dog is at my sons and the cat is at my friends the kid is at another friends house. she still has the rest of the week for summer school.
mom went down a day early so she is already there waiting for us.
I know in my mind everything will be ok...but it is still scary. and I have to admit to a few tears when my big strapping 6ft3 280lp son wrapped me in his arms like he wasnt letting go. dern kid....not suppose to make momma cry. but Im good now.
I do not regret this choice no matter what may come.
if the worst does happen I know in my heart that this was the only choice I could have made in order to have a life....a real life not just an exsistance.
I enjoy the things that I do but Id like to do soo much more!
I will be back and have tales of victory!
TTFN!
nutti
I am excited and very freaked out. today was a clear liquid diet. it went well.
I am having my last popsicle right now...sf of course. my bags are packed
although Im not sure what I will be eating the 2 days I am stuck in the hotel after leaving the hospital...I guess we will worry about that then.
Im suppose to be there at 7:30am so we will leave in an hour or so.
the dog is at my sons and the cat is at my friends the kid is at another friends house. she still has the rest of the week for summer school.
mom went down a day early so she is already there waiting for us.
I know in my mind everything will be ok...but it is still scary. and I have to admit to a few tears when my big strapping 6ft3 280lp son wrapped me in his arms like he wasnt letting go. dern kid....not suppose to make momma cry. but Im good now.
I do not regret this choice no matter what may come.
if the worst does happen I know in my heart that this was the only choice I could have made in order to have a life....a real life not just an exsistance.
I enjoy the things that I do but Id like to do soo much more!
I will be back and have tales of victory!
TTFN!
nutti
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06/27/2007
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Apr 09, 2007
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