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I went in for a Cat Scan and ended up getting admitted to hospital on Tuesday Jan 6th.  Potassium was really low, found 2 hernias and slow heart beat.  Still feeling weak and nauseated.   Was given about 8 bags of potassium, like 10 ivy bags and oh yeah, a reallly bad bladder infection.  I'm like what else...  Anyway, slept pretty much till friday.  My face is pealing and that's about it.  I guess i'm the only one having complications.  :(

Went to Hospital Emergency last thursday.  Still Dont feel well.  Now I eat String Cheese.  Stomach, back hurts, and major heart burn.  Weigh 389

Well i've been throwing up once a day.  Surprisingly it doesn't hurt as much as i thought.  My stomach hurts.  I am taking my vitamins, PEPCID AC and the drink is not good so I can't drink it.  IT's gross.  I am tired.  I am supposed to start a new job this month so i hope I have the energy to do it. :)  ANYWAY, i cant wait to eat more.  I feel like I"m not eating enough.

Hello, well today was an ok day.  I weighed 414.4 pounds.  I do have heartburn.  My diabetes has dropped quite a bit.  I was 86 today in diabetes.  REALLY GREAT.   

I did barf today.  The main thing that hurts when that happens is just the stitches.  i ate a jello, pudding, some water, crystal lite and  a bite of cheese and that what messed me up.

Yesterday, i had   bannana baby food and that messed me up.  Felt like barfing real bad.

The day before, had applesauce and that make me barf once.   

the day before aswell....

Saw Dr Heap, he took out my staples.  I still have a few stiches.  i do feel heartburn.  Not SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO bad but not real good either.  THe removal of the drain is really gross but i'm surprised it doesn't hurt, it's just gross and uncomfortable, at least for me.  I worried for nothing.  I thought it could fall out but i now i know it could have never...

Weighed in at 418.   Not bad for less than a week and starting out at 440.

Have to go back on the 31st  for next stiches i think.  I'm still feeling remarkably well.

well i went to sleep for about 3 hours.  Got to Kennewick at 6:13am  Took me right in to put on the gown and start prepping me for surgery.  I was pleasantly surprised by my friend Obie and her daughter Jocelyn.  We said our good byes...

Next i was wheeled in to the operating room.   Tried several times to give me an epidural but it didnt work.

I remember an oxygen mask... and i was out for the count. 

i don't know what time i woke up but my face sure itched.  Luckily my husband noticed when he walked in or they would have tried to tie me down thinking i was going to yank the tubes out.  :D haha

Anyway, 1st day don't rememember much at all....

I'm not feeling so well.  I have had hug headaches, my jaws are locking and i'm nauseas.  I'm still tired and today I'm absent minded. 

So I have news, my surgery will be the 18th of July...EKG on the 7th, and pre op on the 15th...Ok, it's  almost here

Ok...so many mixed emotions!!!  I guess i'm getting more nervous now.  The anxiety and fear is overwhelming at times.  I am starting not to want to do this anymore.  I feel like either doing it as soon as possible to just get it done or not do it at all.  I was scheduled for the 24th but I was just informed that I could do it on July 18th.    I think i'll do it.  Get it overwith.  My main concern now is the money, will it be worth it?  Will I lose weight?  Will i regret it?  How much pain will I have?  How soon can i start working again?  I wish I could get paid disability to not have to worry about all the economical aspects of this.  Anyway, thats what's in my head right now.  I also find myself wanting to be by my self.  I don't feel like even talking to my family.  I'm just feeling moody I guess.  I dont know whats going on.  I can't even give advice, i don't have anything to offer anyone right now.  I feel kind of empty and self centered.  I dont know, i guess i don't like me right now and thats probably why I dont want to be with anyone.  

Anyway, that's all for now :( :)

Ok, so it's 12:03 am, techncally Monday...

This week has been stressful.  I have been workng really hard.   I'm tired.  My hubby is being cool however he is not convinced that this is the way to go.  :( 
 can tell I'm stressed only because my jaws keep locking.  I'm not sure.  I have found that i am eating more...more than ever, i think that it's like my good bye to food I guess.  Who knows?  Anyway, i'm still optimistic...  We'll see what happens :(