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I have made it, I may have cheated but I didn't die like I thought. I hope tomorrow is a lot easier.

I cheated, but it was a small cheat, I was cooking for my family and I stole some. I am having a really hard time, The Optifast isn't really bad, I am just sooooooooooooooo freaking hungery. I got my stuff from BaratricChoice.com. I love the site, they have a code to save 10% if you spend 99 or more, they sell Bariatric Advanage for the same price but I like the 10% off.

Flinstone Compelet
Iron
B12
Calcicum Cutrate
Protien


Am I missing anything? 

I know people say they need help after surgery with needing to be wipped, I still have my bottle from when I had my kids to help clean my self. I'll just add a little soap to it. I really don't have anyone to do it for me while I am home, my boy friend wont even change  the kids because it makes him dry heave.

My baby daddy (lol Boyfriend of 5 1/2 years) took me to my favorite place, Shady Mapple. Yummy, Jon and Kate (Plus 8) go there all the time. It's really good and they had everything I wanted.
I have to do the opifast for a week.

Tomorrow is my last day of foods. I don't know if I am scared or excited. I have to do a 6 day Optifast diet. Some say its bad, I don't know. I guess its going to have to do because I have no choice.

My son had a hard time breathing so we took him to the hospital and they kept him for 3 days, I had a sinus infection, still have it, and I stayed with him the whole time.  I couldn't leave him there alone, he is only 4.

I am in debt trying to get ready for my surgery and I feel like I haven't even started. I ordered my pills and stuff for after today. I still need to order a few things and get stuff here and there. I am not ready for this, I have 10 days and a sinus infection...

Yeah ok, I ordered a house coat and bra from Womanwithin.com and got them today, the house coat was a 2x, normally I would have got a 4x but I measured my self and matched it with their measurements and I am lucky because I can wrap it around my self again and again. I think it might be too big for the hospital.

I have two bras that I wear because my bras are too expensive and hard to find. Well I know I needed a new one because my bras where falling about at the seems, really. I know I was going out of my 48 HH and so I figure I would order the biggest sized 48 they had, an iii. Yup a tripple i. I had no idea they mad e anything that big.

Well I looked at it and was like Omg, that thing is huge, I just wasted all that money, well.... I tired it on and it fits my boobs perfectly, In fact Its the best fitting bra I've ever owned. haha. I mean it looks like It could belong to the 40 foot woman. It's that big.

It makes me sick when I look at my self. I think, why in the heck did I get so fat, it's yucky.

My Surgery date has changed from 05-05-2009 to 05-06-2009, its only a day and I'm happy about it.

I'm Approved by my insurance.  Preadmission testing was today, went well.

I can't believe I missed my damn preadmission testing!!!!! GRRRR!! This pisses me off. Thankfully I have my Support group on Monday and Jill made it so I can go in Monday and have everything done at once. I feel really freaking stupid for missing it. Shawn has been having some health issues and I was worried about getting him to feel better.
I am almost there. I am getting freaking scared! 

So last night was my second sleep study and I hated every second of it. I had wires all over taped and glued to me and when the sleep tech took them off, she just pulled them without using any goo remover stuff, like the last person  used so I was a little annoyed with that. I had that mask and thing around my head, it was shooting air up my nose too fast and when she asked me questions with it on, I could not talk because it sucked my mouth back shut, it was a  weird feeling, she even told me that it was really hard to talk with it on.