Pixie Morgan
Emotional Overeating Takes More Than One Form
Jan 24, 2008
So, after self evaluating initially, I concluded that I am not an emotional overeater but rather a bulk eater who likes the taste of the food (esp. crap and junk food), eats too fast, those sorts of things. Then, I went on a weekend trip that involved several flight connections. The trip there went smoothly, the way back did not. First I was informed that my flight would be delayed but I would still get home that evening, just a few hours later by taking a couple of alternate flights...stress...I had PLANS. Fine. Then there was an announcement that my flight was going to be further delayed. I went back to the desk and asked if there was a later flight as I was worried that I was going to miss my connection (it was getting cut close as in less than half an hour to make my connecting flight). She didn't even look it up...she said no it will be fine...plenty of time, etc. stress again. Fine. Well...guess what? That's right...I missed my connecting flight. By Five Minutes. More stress. At this point, my stomach is hurting. Yes, when I get stressed out, I actually Dont eat. I waited for 2 1/2 hours on standby for a flight I didn't get to get on then had them refuse to help me at the gate...I had to go stand in line for another hour at customer service to be told there was no possible way to head home tonight and to go to a motel on my own dollar...thanks. I broke down and cried...in public. Went to the hotel, cried more, called family members, finally took an hour to eat a shrimp salad no dressing b/c otherwise i was going to bottom out by morning on my blood sugar since i had nothing to eat since breakfast. Morning comes, I go straight to the airport, get on planes, finally get home in the afternoon. eat a taco, bath, bed early. Finally I get to the point...once its all over, I am feeling relieved and grateful its all over and NOW I'm craving junk and comfort foods. I think I just figured out that I AM an emotional eater and that for me it manifests itself in the comforting afterwards. (Oh I'm traumatized, came through it but now I need comfort after THAT ordeal...eat some rice/bread/candy/chips/grilled cheese/pasta..you get the picture)
Lap Band Orientation
Jan 10, 2008
So I went to the lap band orientation at the hospital yesterday. I personally was a bit disappointed since I felt that there were a lot of topics and issues that come up post banding that didn't get mentioned. The biggest one that stuck out in my head was pb-ing or sliming...when this comes up for patients that are not out there researching and getting support, they are going to be confused and upset. There is no local web board for patients to support one another so I am glad I have OH. I will need daily support I am sure and their once a month meetings will not cut it for me. I have almost all my stuff done now...this hospital requires pap smear so that's the last appt. I will have before the surgeon's consult. I am on my way! Two big things...have to quit smoking completely and have to lose some weight. On the weight front, I changed all my eating habits and gained two pounds! I was told...it won't work if you don't exercise. I will not be able to have surgery if I don't lose weight and exercise is going to be part of my life anyway so I am moving the treadmill from it's dusty place in the garage and putting it in my bedroom where I will use it and not make it a clothes rack 
. 30 min of walking each day to start out gradually increasing the difficulty level to get a better workout. And NO MORE sneaking cigarettes once in a while. This surgery is far too important and my health is too important for me to be pulling this bs. So onward...
. 30 min of walking each day to start out gradually increasing the difficulty level to get a better workout. And NO MORE sneaking cigarettes once in a while. This surgery is far too important and my health is too important for me to be pulling this bs. So onward...1-5-08
Jan 05, 2008
I woke up on Wed. morning and just totally changed my mind about having RNY. I called the hospital and asked to be put in the lap band program instead. My main reason was fear of malnutrition and that RNY is not reversible. I am having weight loss surgery to avoid medical problems and don't want to trade one set for another years down the road if there are problems with RNY. If I have complications with lapband then there are options. Anyway that's where I am now. I go for orientation next week. I have only two things left to do before surgery and things should go fairly fast (fingers crossed).
1-1-08
Jan 01, 2008
Well, I am jumping back into the surgery program now that we have moved and are settled. I am a military wife previously stationed in Alaska. Just before our military move, I was turned down by my insurance and there wasn't enough time to appeal, have surgery, recover sufficiently, and move by July so I had to put my journey on hold for a little while. I have begun the process again and need to redo a lot of things again to be ready for surgery again. I have gone to the orientation, had another sleep study done and now need to finish the rest of the requirements before I get a meeting with the surgeon. I plan for this to be a great year coming up. So here we go! (again) 
