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OK I know everyone gets sick of listening to people say that they are stuck... But today I feel like I could curl up on my bed and cry like a two year old.  It has been almost two weeks and I am still at the same weight.  Well actually I seem to have gone up a 1lb.  I keep going over everything in my head, what did I eat.  Have I drank to much did I make my pouch to big somehow.

I know these are probably all stupid things to think about and actually are not good with the negative thinking.  But .....

I just feel like crying.

Sorry had to vent, and have no one else that I can cry to.

I can't believe I am still stuck at the same weight.... THIS SUCKS.

So its been 12 days since my surgery and I feel ok but want to feel good.  I started my puree (ok a little early) cause I just can't look at jello anymore and the broth is making me sick to think about.   The cream soup is going down very well, getting in my liquids ok as well.  I am still getting a bit of a pain in my stomach area when I drink water, I hope this is normal.  Can't wait to eat normal food even though it scares me. 

Weight is coming off pretty good as this stage as well.  I am getting tired easily but I think that could be the lack of real food.  I am going to try and go into work for a couple of hours tomorrow but when I sit at the dinner table my stomach bothers me.  Again I hope this is normal.  I sit there and then I need to stretch out on our lazy boy for a while so my stomach stops bothering me.

Staples were out last Friday which was very nice.  I did not realize how much they were bothering me until they were out.

On a good note, my husband is already starting with the compliments.  He says he can see the bone structure in my face, and he can feel my ribs.  God love the man, never said he could not feel them but made sure the told me he could.

Well I see Dr. Reed Jan 28th so I am hoping by this date I can tell him I am back to normal.  Not sure how long that takes but at least I don't feel bad.  Hope that makes sense.

Only 4 days to go...

Went to Guelph for my re op today.  Went very well took more blood and met with the anesthesiologist what a nice guy.  Down 13lbs from Dec 26th and being on the Optifast.  Found out I have small veins so I have to go back to Guelph on the 6rh of Jan to have a PIC line put in.  Then surgery on the 7th.

Off to Guelph today for my pre op... down 10lbs from Optifast.  I cheated yesterday and had a small piece of cheese... Not good.

Well started Dec 26th and its Dec 28th 8:00 pm.  3 days in 9 days to go.  Believe it or not but my husband says he can see that I have lost some weight already.  I got on the scale and I think I am down 6 lbs so far.  I have tried it with crushed ice and 1 tbsp of instant coffee.  Its actually pretty good this way.  Gave my family a nice spaghetti dinner while I sat with my drink.  Family has been wonderful saying I can do it which is making me feel like I can.  I think I am over my freak out of feeling like I will die during the surgery.  Also sure I will go through it again.

Thanks to everyone who is helping through this journey on this site.  I don't talk to my family about my fear as I don't want my fear to become theirs.

Asked my daughter to take some pictures of me so I can do before and after.  I will post them as soon as she takes them.  Plan is over the next week or so...

M

I got my date with Dr. Reed... JAN 7TH IN GUELPH

I get to see Dr. Reed Dec 14th.... yaaaaaaaa hopefully I will get a surgery date.

So I got the call today that my tests result are normal... I finally get to meet Dr. Reed Dec 14th and hopefully I will finally get a surgery date....

CAN'T WAIT FOR THE 14TH.... YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA