menizzyb
My story...Well let's see. I have been overweight since I was an adolescent. I started Nutri-System at age 15. Lost, gained...lost, gained...repeat until I was about 27 years old. Everytime I lost, my parents rewarded me, people were impressed, and I felt happy. Everytime I gained I was ashamed, and my parents looked down on me or felt sorry for me. I had friends snicker behind my back about it, ya know the whole nine yards. I came to have lots of self esteem issues related to my weight.
When I was in my late 20's I got married, had a baby and was bigger than ever, crossing the 300lb mark. I was done with diets, the yo-yo dieting is dangerous and they never worked long term. So, I was determined to 'fix' myself once and for all. I was dead set against surgical intervention at the time. I thought it was all psycological (and a lot of it is, but also genetic) and that I could make it happen on my own. So, I found a great therapist, a nutritionist, and eventually a personal trainer. I lost down to 268, exactly what I had weighed before my first daughter was conceived. I did this by being mindful of my eating and paying closer attention to stresors, triggers, etc. I worked out 3-4 times a week....It was HARD work, and yet, I never got below 268. There was something about that number. I couldn't go lower. It was a strage thing. And to boot I decided that I felt good enough to try for another baby. I basically sabotaged myself, but also lost a lot of support because we moved out of state too. I gained all that weight back. Then got pregnant with my second daughter weighing in around 300lbs. Went up to about 338lbs with her, but was down to 315 or so about a month after she was born. I finally then realized that I really was not soley to blame. I needed help. Many of my family members are overweight. So, I looked into WLS. First I thought the band b/c I wanted to do the safest thing. But I found a lot of people were having issues with it. Plus all that maintenace isn't for me. Then, I found out about the Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy and was sold b/c the thought of life long malapsorbtion really scared me. I was at 306lbs for my first consultation with Dr Boyce. I self paid, so I got a surgery date that was two months away and in those two months I gained 17lbs! So on surgery day I was 323lbs! I am now 289lbs. WOOHOO!
I hope things keep going well. I have that damn critical thinking going on, telling me that I am failing. How weird is that? I think it is just the part of me that wants the chocolate! lol...
