meking
4 More Days
Oct 26, 2006
I have been on Optifast for almost two weeks now. The nurse said to expect to lose some weight. I have lost no weight!! I am losing my mind though. Tomorrow will be my last day at work until after surgery. When I do go back to work, I will be starting a new job in a new city. A lot of things are going on and I seem to be under a lot of stress. The Optifast is tough. Everything seems so sweet. I want something with substance. The soups help a little, but not much. I can't wait until I no longer feel hungry.
First blog
Oct 20, 2006
I began this journey about 10 years ago, when I started researching WLS. My two youngest children were just babies and I worked full time. I wasn't ready until just this past May, when I finally got enough nerve to make an appointment for "more information" My doctor informed me that I was a very good candidate. I am a non smoker, female, 41 years old and perfectly healthy (except that I'm fat).I am on no medications for anything. I don't have high blood pressure and I'm not diabetic. I kept thinking that I should be thankful that I am healthy, but I felt guilty knowing that it could be a lot worse. In the past couple of years, my father has had many illnesses. Guess who's side of the family I take after! Dad's of course. Well, this past year has scared me enough to know that if I don't go through with this surgery, I will be in the same situatuion as my father. I don't want to live the last half of my life like I have the first half. I have missed out on a lot of things, because of my weight. I don't want to feel bad about myself anymore and I don't want to be ill all of the time. So, anyways, my surgery is 10/30/06. I still have only told my husband and my sister. Both are very supportive. I still feel guilty and ashamed for letting my weight get so out of hand, but now I am doing something about it, and I will leave all of the regrets behind. I am about to become a new person. Wish me luck!
