mary B.

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18 months and down 110 pounds i have gained some back but then i get back to basics to get back tomy goal weight. tought but not as bad as before the surgery. bothers me when people say  so what  whats  five pounds  they do not understand that five becomes ten then fifteen and so on very easily i need to stay on track!

It has been a year as of March 17th 2010, and i have lost 120 pounds,i feel great and look great according to others, just starting to see myself in a mirror, actually put one up in my house last weekend.. But I have been maintaining my weight loss for  awhile and  not east but i fluctuate between  127 and  134 so as long as i dont go any higher or lower i will be happy.

WELL I HAVE NOT LOST ANYMORE WEIGHT I  HAVE  BEEN THE SAME FOR OVER A MONTH NOW. BUT LOOKING THINNER ACCORDING TO  OTHERS I DONT SEE IT. I HOPE I DO  SOON SO I CAN ENJOY IT..LOL BUT ALSO  SO I CAN TELL IF I AM GETTING ANOREXIC LOOKING OR NOT.
I AM DOWN TO A SMALL IN TOPS AND SIZE 4 N JEANS. I STILL CANT PICTURE IT  WHEN I ICK THESE THINGS UP AND LOOK AT THEM  THET I ACTUALLY FIT INTO THEM  BUT THEY DO.
HOLIDAYS THIS YEAR GONNA BE TOUGH MY FIRST HOLIDAY SEASON AFTER SURGERY.

best journey of my life. I have lost 105 pounds  feel fantastic, look fantastic and feel so good about myself again.
I have such great friends that have  been so supportive through out this journey and I still til this day remember everything they have said to me so I dont fall off this wagon!
No issues have popped up like others have had, I do find that  M&M's  are my grazing fod, so no more of them in  my house. I make up for it  by working harder  at the  gym the next day if I do graze.
Down to a size  6 which scares me a little. want to make sure I do not become anorexic. I have a rabbit fur  jacket that when I was  13 I had to have in the worst way. I cleaned houses for everyone in the  nieghborhood for a month and a half to raise the 200 bucks i needed for it. To buy it  wear it a few times then it did not fit me and has sat in the back of the closet for 30 years. Needless to say cleaning out the closet the other day I tried the jacket on and it fit!!!! I cried. lol......
I will now proudly  wear that jacket many many times to make up for 30 years of sitting in the closet!

six months ago i had my rny at wareham with dr kruger and i have to tell you it is the best decision i have ever made in my life.
i  go to a gym 5 days a week now and have actually learned to eat correctly. I can not  see myself as thin as everyone says I am but in time it will come too.
i have lost about 90 pounds and i feel fantastic and do not want to ever get that big again. not only could i  not take the pain i was in again but just the fact that i looked like a slob.  I saw myself as thin  and now i cant get myself to see me as thin.. backwards huh? lol
i went for my check up  for 6 months and  calcium a little low  but  can remedy that everything else is good. no health issues as far as the surgery aspect. my  friends and co wokrers  are very supportive, family  members are just starting to get that way..i have friends going for the surgery so trying to be as much support as possible to them because you really need a support  system afterwards.
i have to get back to my meetings every month, i slacked on them for the summer always something going on during the summer.
but as i said before best decision i ever made in my life and would not change a thing!

Well it am at five months now and have been so  busy. I am down 85 pounds. thats the before surgery also..since  surgery  73.
I go to the gym  five days a week.. why i did not do this  before i  have no idea...i feel  great, not tired, full of  energy. I work two jobs again took a break for awhile so i could have  ME time. I have a great support system  and I go to my  group meeting  every month. I have found alot of people are shocked that i did this  alot of  also jealous  people. I have ignorant  assholes that  say  i cheated. no i have a life long condition i have to  keep up with  i dont consider that cheating it is  something i had to do to live a longer life  to be  pain free.
i dont mind taking pictures anymore. i used to run from a camera. i do have the problem of not seeing the loss  yet. I am told at work daily i look great i am withering away but i dont see it yet. hopefully my mind catches up soon...
i can tell because of the clothes i have to buy now  the sizes are  10/12...not the  old  22/24.   that way i do notice  but to look in a mirror... nadda!!

well thats my  update for now.. just so  busy  never had  so much  energy and friends  always  asking me to go places now  where  before they did not...so  gotta go....BYEEEEEEE

tOMORROW MARCH 17TH IS MY BIG DAY! i AM GOING FOR MY RNY..WITH DR KRUGER,
I HAVE HAD SO MANY PEOPLE WISH ME LUCK AND CALL TO MAKE SURE I AM OK..IT IS SO NICE TO KNOW SOMANY PEOPLE CARE!! tHE GIRLS AT WORK  WERE WONDERFUL AND WHEN I GO BACK TO WORK THEY SAID THEY WILL NOT LET ME DO ANYTHING TO HARM MYSELF..WHAT A GREAT BUNCH OF LADIES!!
I AM A LITTLE ANXIOUS BUT THATS  EXPECTED.  SO WILL  WRITE WHEN I GET HOME...
THANKS ALL!!

I GOT MY DATE TODAY  MARCH 17TH...HAVE ONE APPOINTMENT WITH NURSE TO GO TO   BUT THEN ALL SET FOR SURGERY ON THE  17TH...

I AM SO EXCITED AND JUMPING OUT OF MY SKIN....

YEE HAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well January came and went. I finihsed my classes they require of you at Tobey and then of course my insurance got changed so had to wait til March first before I  could do anything. So once March first  comes around I will be up and running again. But damn February was the longest month for a short month.
March first,  will be the day they put  in for approval and then  we will see. I dont fore see any problems. But I knew it was to good before  everything  was going to  smoothly for me. There had too be a snag somewhere.
needless to say i faltered and gained about 8 pounds back but I got a treadmill now and  walk with a friend of mine  four times a week. Watch everything I eat. so figure  before I go back to the  doc I will be back to what i was.
will let you  know  what happens!!

January 13th,2009

well  today i have another  appt with Kruger, such a nice man  always so  cheerful and  str8 to the point. Was happy that all my  tests and  stress test came back fine and clearance all set! As soon as I finish the classes he said I will be ready for Surgery. YEAHHHHH!!!!! just have to get the  insurance approval and I am there. They seem to think the end of february.. so thats  cool gives me a chance to get eveything in order that needs to be done.
I lost another 5 pounds.. was expecting a loss  but not that much figured  two  tops.. been  hitting the carbs for a bit.. but  back on track..I cant  seem to get the protien drinks  down no matter how much fruit i put in it...nasty, what works for me is the bullets but  everyone says  NO !! but I cannot do milk and the taste of powdered protien  ughhh!!
but anyways, very excited, a little worried about my friend that is  going through it at the same time...she lost 18  gained back  23...not good they say they may hold back her surgery if she does not lose weight..so we have a pack now  we  meet every day at the mall  (cold outside) and walk for an hour we have the pedometer to measure the distance  and gonna try to  do more every  day...
toodles for now!!!