Lucky13
If I sound good, its because I AM good.
May 11, 2010
Hey Y'all! Just received a Happy (rebirth) Anniversary email from OH- talk about a blast from the past! Thought I'd give a quick update and will post some new pics shortly...
If I sound good, its because I AM good. No, I am BLESSED! :)
Had surgery in May 2004. Started at high 330's/Got as low as 200 (at 9 months pregnant, no less!)/Holding at 250. I maintained around 215-225 for years, but have slowly had a backslide to 250. Would love to get back under the 100 lb mark for loss from my original weight, but I'm ok where I'm at.
In June 2008, I had a belt lipectomy + abdominiplasty (?) surgery- hello, plastics! I didn't lose much weight from it on the scale (was thinking... ok wishing!... I'd drop 30-40 pounds from the removed skin! lol). It has totally changed and improved my shape and self-image... even with some additional weight gain. I recommend 200%!!
Personally/professionally... I'm unemployed (now for 9+ months), back in a Masters program, becoming an entrepreneur and married with a 4 yr old daughter (wow!) and two step kids- 12 and early 20's.
Life is good! SIX YEARS OUT! Woo hoo!
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If I sound good, its because I AM good. No, I am BLESSED! :)
Had surgery in May 2004. Started at high 330's/Got as low as 200 (at 9 months pregnant, no less!)/Holding at 250. I maintained around 215-225 for years, but have slowly had a backslide to 250. Would love to get back under the 100 lb mark for loss from my original weight, but I'm ok where I'm at.
In June 2008, I had a belt lipectomy + abdominiplasty (?) surgery- hello, plastics! I didn't lose much weight from it on the scale (was thinking... ok wishing!... I'd drop 30-40 pounds from the removed skin! lol). It has totally changed and improved my shape and self-image... even with some additional weight gain. I recommend 200%!!
Personally/professionally... I'm unemployed (now for 9+ months), back in a Masters program, becoming an entrepreneur and married with a 4 yr old daughter (wow!) and two step kids- 12 and early 20's.
Life is good! SIX YEARS OUT! Woo hoo!
Accomplishment
Jun 12, 2007
Today I dragged myself out of bed yet again at 4:40 AM to work out. Spent 25 minutes on the treadmill then did a 45-minute Kickbox Class. I am surprised and THRILLED that I had it in me to finish the entire class! I felt really strong in the class, throwing all kinds of hooks, punches and jabs. I just HATE looking at myself in the mirror, though, in a room full of thin women. I'm starting to really wonder if I'll ever be able to accept myself or be happy where I am. My therapist is having me work on all my negative self-talk, but it is HARD. I am much more inclined to point out my flaws to myself versus my accomplishments- STILL, after losing and maintaining over 100 pounds + having a baby. I really, REALLY want to start looking into plastics- for my lower body.
Anyways, I will keep plodding along and tell myself that I did a great job this morning at the gym.
Anyways, I will keep plodding along and tell myself that I did a great job this morning at the gym.
Really not enjoying my day...
Jun 12, 2007
OK, so my day has been pretty crappy from the start. Last night at a one-year out supoprt group I decided (really stupidly) to ask the others for feedback on what I look like. They all appear to be normal-sized people who may not have ever had a weight problem. Well, the same can't be said for me- even three years out. Here's where all you pre-op's can click over to someone else's profile who looks like Halle Berry and had the PERFECT gastric bypass experience. Unfortunately, you will not get that from me- at least not today. Basically, I was told in the nicest way possible, that I am a beautiful woman, charismatic, intelligent, have great hair, dressed impeccably, great fashion sense, sense of humor, gorgeous jewelry, BUT I am definitely seen as a heavy girl. So out of that whole rant on my positive virtues, what one description do you think I attached to and let ruin and RUN my whole day today? Yup, you got it---- HEAVY. 3 years out, over 100 pounds lost and maintained and I am still the heavy girl in the room. Can you say depressing?
So after dragging to the gym, I saw my therapist this morning, laughed, cried, whined, moaned, argued and basically acted a mess. That'll teach her to schedule me at 8:00 a.m.
So after dragging to the gym, I saw my therapist this morning, laughed, cried, whined, moaned, argued and basically acted a mess. That'll teach her to schedule me at 8:00 a.m.
Its all worth it!!!!!!!
Jun 05, 2007
The front desk person at the gym today said I looked like I was losing weight as I left this morning and MADE MY DAY!!!!
I told her the scale has not moved- it hasn't.
And she said what we ALL know: muscle weighs more than fat. But that was ok becuase then she said: "If I may, you can really tell from your backside." Had I not been so sore and covered in sweat from my kickboxing class, I would've jumped over the counter and kissed her! 
Gym membership: $19.99/month.
Someone telling me my butt looks smaller: Priceless!
I told her the scale has not moved- it hasn't.
And she said what we ALL know: muscle weighs more than fat. But that was ok becuase then she said: "If I may, you can really tell from your backside." Had I not been so sore and covered in sweat from my kickboxing class, I would've jumped over the counter and kissed her! Gym membership: $19.99/month.
Someone telling me my butt looks smaller: Priceless!
Protein Balls!
Jun 05, 2007
Ok, so I finally did it--- I made the damn protein balls everyone in the boards is always referring to. And they are actually GOOD.
They remind me of "no-bake" cookies in taste and texture and they have TONS of protein. They are sweet from the PB and Splenda, easy to make and something I will WANT when I'm having an urge to binge.
PROTEIN BALL RECIPE
1 cup PB (low or no sugar, if you wish)
1 cup rolled oatmeal (not instant)
1 cup protein powder (I used my vanilla whey)
5 packets Splenda
Put the PB in a bowl and microwave about 30 seconds until easy to stir. Add other ingredients, oats last. Line tupperware or other storage container with wax paper, drop in rounded spoonfuls on sheet and shape in balls. Put container of balls in fridge to chill/take shape. I was able to make 12 protein balls in a size that would probably be 2-3 bites. Protein in each--- I honestly don't remember, but I'm going to estimate at least 10 grams. Enjoy!
They remind me of "no-bake" cookies in taste and texture and they have TONS of protein. They are sweet from the PB and Splenda, easy to make and something I will WANT when I'm having an urge to binge.PROTEIN BALL RECIPE
1 cup PB (low or no sugar, if you wish)
1 cup rolled oatmeal (not instant)
1 cup protein powder (I used my vanilla whey)
5 packets Splenda
Put the PB in a bowl and microwave about 30 seconds until easy to stir. Add other ingredients, oats last. Line tupperware or other storage container with wax paper, drop in rounded spoonfuls on sheet and shape in balls. Put container of balls in fridge to chill/take shape. I was able to make 12 protein balls in a size that would probably be 2-3 bites. Protein in each--- I honestly don't remember, but I'm going to estimate at least 10 grams. Enjoy!
Struggling- AGAIN!
Jun 03, 2007
Well, its Sunday night and I am once again dealing with the overwhelming urge to "indulge" and by indulge, I do not mean light a candle and take a nice bath. I mean EAT... and eat alot of typically the wrong foods.
I had dinner already with my family- a little salad, even less over-cooked angel hair and some meat sauce. Ok, and two pieces of fresh italian bread with Bumble and Brown margarine.
I've been drinking and puttering around to stall myself, but this is my toughest time. The baby's asleep, everything's taken care of for tomorrow and I am WIRED. If I can find something to do to occupy my hands, sometimes I'm able to outlast the craving and urge to eat. Tonight I will be reading, but first entering a bunch of numbers into my cell phone- something I have been putting off. If I can make it through, I will be up at my usual 4:40 a.m. to jump in my workout clothes and hit the gym for an hour 1/2.
Thank God for this blog because just taking the 10 minutes it took to type this is ten less minutes of me eating or thinking about eating.
If I MUST eat, I will do what my therapist suggested and only eat at the table, with no TV, no books, no magazines. I need to be CONSCIOUS when I am eating.
OK, off to my book and cell phone... Pray for me! LOL
8:16 and counting the minutes...
I had dinner already with my family- a little salad, even less over-cooked angel hair and some meat sauce. Ok, and two pieces of fresh italian bread with Bumble and Brown margarine.
I've been drinking and puttering around to stall myself, but this is my toughest time. The baby's asleep, everything's taken care of for tomorrow and I am WIRED. If I can find something to do to occupy my hands, sometimes I'm able to outlast the craving and urge to eat. Tonight I will be reading, but first entering a bunch of numbers into my cell phone- something I have been putting off. If I can make it through, I will be up at my usual 4:40 a.m. to jump in my workout clothes and hit the gym for an hour 1/2.
Thank God for this blog because just taking the 10 minutes it took to type this is ten less minutes of me eating or thinking about eating.
If I MUST eat, I will do what my therapist suggested and only eat at the table, with no TV, no books, no magazines. I need to be CONSCIOUS when I am eating.
OK, off to my book and cell phone... Pray for me! LOL
8:16 and counting the minutes...
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