Lioc925
Two weeks post op
Dec 02, 2010
Doing pretty good too. I started back at the gym yesterday, and I feel so much better about that. 20 minutes yesterday, and 21 today on the treadmill. Nothing hard or strenuous, but I can tell its helping. I finally broke the 300lb mark, and am at 299.4 as of today. I can honestly say that its been 7+ years since I could say that. Considering my highest weight was 346 this summer - I can say I am doing pretty damn good.
I ate some real food tonight. I made twice baked potatoes with FF sour cream, FF milk, and I cant believe its not butter. I also made a wonderful pork loin roast with garlic. I had about 4 small bites of the pork loin, and about 2 bites of the potato. I kept wondering when I would feel full, and what it would feel like. After the second bite of the potato, all the sudden my stomach said HALT! I put my plate in the kitchen and was done! lol Its been over an hour, and I still feel a little full. I am now drinking my Crystal Lite since I didn't get in as much liquids as I have been doing. Today was crazy busy! I don't even know how I am going to get my shake down later???
Tomorrow is my 35Th birthday. *Gulp. OMG 35 years old. My husband bought me a brand new stereo for my truck, so happy. CD/Satellite/Ipod/USB and HD radio. I got it installed today since they were booked for tomorrow! I LOVE music when I drive, and actually I need it. It keeps me from running people down when I am singing to my music. lol
I have not had any pain meds (Tylenol) since Monday morning. I am sleeping good and have actually a lot of energy. Today I got tired around 2pm, but just took a break and my energy came back. I am getting in about 70G of protein in and I am trying to get at least the recommended 64oz of water a day. So far so good!
I am a stubborn mule, and just refuse to eat anything pureed. Cant and wont!! So, I am combining stage 1 and stage 3, but taking it very easy. I have not had one single issue with my pouch at all - which I am still torn about if that's a good thing or not?!
I tried on my old jeans a few days ago. The legs were baggy, but, the waist was very tight, which confuses me. The only thing I can think of is that maybe my stomach is swollen from the surgery? Those pants used to fit me when I was 320ish - they should be big on me?? I will try them again next week and see what happens.
On my way.................
Feeling much better - 8 days post op
Nov 26, 2010
I still have pain in my 'dent', but for the most part, I am doing soooo much better. I am getting about 50g or a little more of protein every day. Each shake gives me 25 (per 1 scoop) and my 10oz of 1% milk, it gives me about 28g at a time. I have two of these a day, one AM and one PM. During the day I just drink water. I am getting about 32oz or so with water.. I should get more in, but I think I am doing pretty okay for being so new to this. My pouch is doing great. I have been taking my vitamins in the morning and night, and one calcium (to make it 3) in the afternoon. Man those things are gross BTW. I have had SF Popsicles and Jello here and there which make it better. I am going to start really walking tomorrow. I have just been doing laps around the house, but will venture outside tomorrow! I am going with the family right now to do some grocery shopping and to get some things for my husbands work truck. I have lots of energy - we will see how long it lasts..lol
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5 days post op
Nov 23, 2010
And I am in alot of pain. I really think that laying down, and getting up by myself has really taken its toll on me. I seriously believe I have pulled a muscle. It burns and hurts constantly. I just want to lay down. I actually miss laying down on my side and just sleeping more than food right now. I think my stretch marks are bigger? I was looking in the mirror and can see where I think I was so bloated that it aggravated my stretch marks. I guess its good that I can tell I am smaller (losing the bloat and retention now) but I am upset at how big I got.
I have NO problems with liquids right now. I am not writing anything down like I should, but I am getting down at least 16 oz of protein shakes. Not too mention about another 20oz of water I am sipping through the day. I am peeing often and alot, so that's good.
I wish I could just snap my fingers and it be two weeks later. I wish I felt better, and I wish I could eat more, or actually eat.
Ive been walking around my house. It hurts like hell, and sometimes I wonder if I am making it worse? But I know I have to move, have to walk. I don't know if I am depressed just yet, but definitely want to be away from family. I am so sick of my dad calling and checking in on me. Thanksgiving is in two days, and I don't even know how I am going to get in the truck to go to my brothers? And that's only a mile down the road! And I already have an appt for a two week check up on the 30th, in Oakland. Its not even friggen two weeks! I am really pissed about that honestly. I am going to have to drive / sit in traffic there, and back. I cry even just wondering how I am going to be able to do it? Who knows maybe by this weekend, it wont seem so awful anymore? I sure hope so.
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I have NO problems with liquids right now. I am not writing anything down like I should, but I am getting down at least 16 oz of protein shakes. Not too mention about another 20oz of water I am sipping through the day. I am peeing often and alot, so that's good.
I wish I could just snap my fingers and it be two weeks later. I wish I felt better, and I wish I could eat more, or actually eat.
Ive been walking around my house. It hurts like hell, and sometimes I wonder if I am making it worse? But I know I have to move, have to walk. I don't know if I am depressed just yet, but definitely want to be away from family. I am so sick of my dad calling and checking in on me. Thanksgiving is in two days, and I don't even know how I am going to get in the truck to go to my brothers? And that's only a mile down the road! And I already have an appt for a two week check up on the 30th, in Oakland. Its not even friggen two weeks! I am really pissed about that honestly. I am going to have to drive / sit in traffic there, and back. I cry even just wondering how I am going to be able to do it? Who knows maybe by this weekend, it wont seem so awful anymore? I sure hope so.
I am home and I am tired
Nov 22, 2010
I went in on the 18th, and came home a day later then expected on the 21st. My kidneys had a real hard time waking up after the surgery and I just was not producing anywhere near the amount they wanted. So they pumped and pumped me full of fluids. Then when they finally pulled my catheter on the 20th, my O2 saturation would not go above 88%. Even on oxygen I would hit a high 96%. I spiked a fever Friday night, but they got that taken care of ASAP. I started to get a little warm again on Saturday night and woke up twice in a full sweat with soaked sheets. I was tired and so sore. My hair was in a large braided mat, and I stunk. I walked but felt like there was a belt around my lungs the entire time. Even sitting up and walking across my room made me hungry for air. I got home late yesterday afternoon. I was excited to be home and couldn't wait to get into my bed. I have a high up pillow top sleigh bed, and once I figured out how to get into it and layed down I almost passed out. The burning on the side of my stomach was too intense, and I could barley breathe. My husband helped me out and I just sat there crying. I don't have a lazy boy type chair, and my couch wasn't the most post surgical friendly couch around. I got a good look at my stomach in the mirror last night. I am so bloated with air and water, and bruised, it was hard to look at. Not to mention I have a huge dip in my left side where it looks like a meteor took out half my stomach. Litter ally, its caved in. Talked to a nurse today and she said something (cant remember what) is stitched to that muscle and that's why it looks like that, and burns the way it does. But I guess the stitches will dissolve. My incision marks are not stripped or even stapled, they are glued. And I guess all the nurses had to look at it because its not done too often at Alta Bates. Turns out, its a very expensive way to close a wound, but very effective? Don't know, don't care right now. I took my shower and feel so much better. Actually had some energy today but woke up sore from my afternoon nap. I know I will get over this, but, it just doesn't seem possible right now. I am not hungry at all, and tolerating everything I drink so far. Xray tech says I have a nice empty speed in my stomach and it drains very well. I am taking my vitamins and they seem to be helping some. I am mixing everything I can with protein and drinking that. I know I am not up to the 64oz they want of water right now, but a good 32+ at least. Its getting easier to drink more every few hours.
That's if for now.. Time to take a little walk, and then some pain medicine.
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That's if for now.. Time to take a little walk, and then some pain medicine.
My last post - on this side of the fence
Nov 17, 2010
I cant really leave home since I took the colon blow at about 2PM today. Though it isn't doing the complete damage I thought it would, I am still not 100% settled. Laundry is done, house is clean, garbage is out, new batteries in the remote, and meds / vitamins are ready for when I get home.
I completed all my pre-surgery labs yesterday. It was surreal. The ONLY problem I had is that when it came time to give a urine sample, I couldn't! Go figure, Ive spent weeks peeing like a race horse, and yesterday I get shy. It took almost 2 hours, and 3 bottles of water plus a very patient lab tech. before I could produce 'anything'. It wasn't much, but, it was enough to get what they needed. I lost a total of 18lbs. So, even after my accident, and stressing about losing weight - turns out I did. I guess my scale is way off..
I decided to eat, finally after 18 hours of not eating anything, I was hungry. I went to the cafeteria, got a small burger and some juice. I couldn't even finish the burger, or juice, and it wasn't even that good. WTH..lol Decided I was going to have a last meal, and that was going to be Riccos pizza from Brentwood. Huge, xtra cheese, with black olives, and a stuffed crust. I couldn't even eat 2 pieces. OMG - damn this liquid diet and a smaller stomach..lol And oddly enough, that didn't even taste as good as it used too.
Today I had breakfast at Lumpy's diner. I could only eat 1 egg, 1 sausage link, and about 4 bites of french toast. So much for going out with a bang...
O well... I guess its good to know I really wont be missing that much once this is done.
I am strangely calm. Everyone around me is flipping out, but not me. It feels like a dream, like its not real. But in a few short hours I will have had gastric bypass. In my future is the life I always wanted, but thought I would never have. I can become a medic. I can work with horses again, and not just other peoples, but MY OWN. And not from the ground either, but actually, from their backs (too) like I used too. Sometimes when I cant sleep, I close my eyes and saddle up a horse. I can feel every muscle of the shoulders, his chest, and hip. The warm breath, the mane and tail as I brush him out. I can feel the leather in my hands as I cinch the saddle, and make all my checks. I can hear the rattle of the bridle in my hands as I walk him to the arena. Once I am on in my head I can feel the gait as we stretch out walking around in circles, bending and stretching. I can feel my thighs, knees and body adjusting. I can rock the saddle between my legs checking to make sure its tight. I can feel him as I give him the cue and was jog - then canter. I go through the whole pattern in my head. I can feel it all, smell it all, and its so real to me. I always calm down and fall asleep shortly after. I miss that so much. I haven't "ridden" like I did when I was younger. I have gotten on, unbalanced, and in total fear of breaking the horses spine. It was never fun like it was. I miss that. I cant wait to have that back in my life.
I know what I will be doing tomorrow once I am on the table, before I am put under. I will be going for a ride...... :)
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I completed all my pre-surgery labs yesterday. It was surreal. The ONLY problem I had is that when it came time to give a urine sample, I couldn't! Go figure, Ive spent weeks peeing like a race horse, and yesterday I get shy. It took almost 2 hours, and 3 bottles of water plus a very patient lab tech. before I could produce 'anything'. It wasn't much, but, it was enough to get what they needed. I lost a total of 18lbs. So, even after my accident, and stressing about losing weight - turns out I did. I guess my scale is way off..
I decided to eat, finally after 18 hours of not eating anything, I was hungry. I went to the cafeteria, got a small burger and some juice. I couldn't even finish the burger, or juice, and it wasn't even that good. WTH..lol Decided I was going to have a last meal, and that was going to be Riccos pizza from Brentwood. Huge, xtra cheese, with black olives, and a stuffed crust. I couldn't even eat 2 pieces. OMG - damn this liquid diet and a smaller stomach..lol And oddly enough, that didn't even taste as good as it used too.
Today I had breakfast at Lumpy's diner. I could only eat 1 egg, 1 sausage link, and about 4 bites of french toast. So much for going out with a bang...
O well... I guess its good to know I really wont be missing that much once this is done.I am strangely calm. Everyone around me is flipping out, but not me. It feels like a dream, like its not real. But in a few short hours I will have had gastric bypass. In my future is the life I always wanted, but thought I would never have. I can become a medic. I can work with horses again, and not just other peoples, but MY OWN. And not from the ground either, but actually, from their backs (too) like I used too. Sometimes when I cant sleep, I close my eyes and saddle up a horse. I can feel every muscle of the shoulders, his chest, and hip. The warm breath, the mane and tail as I brush him out. I can feel the leather in my hands as I cinch the saddle, and make all my checks. I can hear the rattle of the bridle in my hands as I walk him to the arena. Once I am on in my head I can feel the gait as we stretch out walking around in circles, bending and stretching. I can feel my thighs, knees and body adjusting. I can rock the saddle between my legs checking to make sure its tight. I can feel him as I give him the cue and was jog - then canter. I go through the whole pattern in my head. I can feel it all, smell it all, and its so real to me. I always calm down and fall asleep shortly after. I miss that so much. I haven't "ridden" like I did when I was younger. I have gotten on, unbalanced, and in total fear of breaking the horses spine. It was never fun like it was. I miss that. I cant wait to have that back in my life.
I know what I will be doing tomorrow once I am on the table, before I am put under. I will be going for a ride...... :)
Confused
Nov 14, 2010
Maybe because it is coming so fast, or that I don't even know 100 % if it is going to happen - but I'm confused. I'm approved for sure. I got the approval letter from insurance Saturday, and the letter from my Dr. on Friday saying when my surgery is for. But I still have only lost 11 lbs, (well 9 now thanks to my period, but they should be gone by Tuesday). Even though she said it was okay (due to the car accident) I still cant help but wonder if she is going to change her mind on Tuesday? I don't want her too, but at the same time, I feel really rushed into this date. I keep asking people what they think, and we all agree that maybe she had a cancellation, or cant find anyone for the week before Thanksgiving who would want the surgery.. I had my heart set on Dec. 2nd. I had it all planned out for Thanksgiving, and how I am going to celebrate my birthday, Dec 3rd. So I don't know where my head is? If everything stays on track, and I am 100% cleared (I am the one saying I am not, nobody else is) then I will take the 18th with no problems. But, if for some weird reason, we have to reschedule, I would gladly take Dec. 2nd! I guess I wont know till after 2PM on the 16th.
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Appoved, and on the accelerated track
Nov 05, 2010
I got the call today about being approved! YAY... So excited. But, I got into a car accident 3 days ago, (not too bad, they have more damage then me, and its 100% their fault). But, I have a bad back from an old horse injury accident. This tweaked my back more then I thought it would. I told the nurse about it, and how I cant go to the gym anymore due to the pain. I have lost 5 lbs in the last week or so... I thought for sure I would have to postpone the surgery which I was supposed to have on the 2nd of December. But, she got it cleared with the doctor, I am okay in losing what I have (I don't have to lose the full 20 now) and in fact, they want me in for the 18th of November! Thats 2 freakin weeks! OMG. So, I took it. I am going in on the 16th for all my prelab work, my 2nd surgical appointment, and then I am cleared to go. I cant believe it, I still don't. I am more scared then I thought I would be. Scared of having it, of not having it! There are alot of positives and negatives about this date.
Good:
The kids are out of school the next week for Thanksgiving, so I don't have to worry about getting them to and from school. And they can help me around the house the first week out.
The doctor is being way generous with me.
I don't think I have to worry about school too much for me now. I take one day off, and the next week I get off anyway due to the holiday. I can be back to school the first week of December.
Bad:
My husband will have to take off of work 2 days to help me. Which means a smaller check on top of the ALREADY smaller check he gets the week of Thanksgiving when they have 3 days off.
I am not ready. Money is going to be tight, and I have to order all my vitamins prior to the surgery while trying to pay bills and save for next months bills and rent.
*sigh, I know it will all work out. And reading stories on here about all the struggles that some go through, or are going through, I should be more grateful, appreciative I know! I just am freaking out.
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Good:
The kids are out of school the next week for Thanksgiving, so I don't have to worry about getting them to and from school. And they can help me around the house the first week out.
The doctor is being way generous with me.
I don't think I have to worry about school too much for me now. I take one day off, and the next week I get off anyway due to the holiday. I can be back to school the first week of December.
Bad:
My husband will have to take off of work 2 days to help me. Which means a smaller check on top of the ALREADY smaller check he gets the week of Thanksgiving when they have 3 days off.
I am not ready. Money is going to be tight, and I have to order all my vitamins prior to the surgery while trying to pay bills and save for next months bills and rent.
*sigh, I know it will all work out. And reading stories on here about all the struggles that some go through, or are going through, I should be more grateful, appreciative I know! I just am freaking out.
Dr. cleared my packet, and I've been submitted for approval
Oct 29, 2010
I should know by the the 5Th if I am approved or not. The give you a pending date, then once your approved, you get it, meet with the surgeon and either keep it, or postpone if due to not losing (enough) of your surgery weight. I have to lose 20 more lbs, and I may have lost 7, give or take. I was doing good, but have been not moving, again, and the weight is staying put. At least its not going up..lol She wanted to give me the date of November 18Th, but, I was scared that was too quick. So I asked for something in December. I have the date, but, don't want to share it yet. I am so scared of jinxing that. I can definitely say its early December.. I should have at least the 20, (but I am hoping for more) pounds off. I am currently in school and my finals are for the 3rd week of December. I have already spoken to my teacher (who has had WLS) and asked if I can accelerate my class, and maybe take all my tests and final by the end of November? She told me it wasn't a problem and that we will work it out next week. I really really hope my next entry is saying how I am approved, and how I have lost more weight. 
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..That's it, all of my needed requirements are done
Oct 25, 2010
I just got home from my Endoscopy which was a total breeze. They called this morning, and said they are ahead of schedule to come in ASAP. So I was being wheeled out the doors at the time I was supposed to be having my procedure. There is some inflammation in the lining of my stomach, nothing serious. He took a biopsy and everything should be faxed to Oakland by Thursday or so. I will assume that early next week they will forward my packet for insurance approval. I asked my patient navigator approximately how long that takes, and she said about 5 business days to hear from insurance.
So, I hope that my next entry will be when my surgery date is. If I am approved, I see the surgeon on more time and she gives me the date then!
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So, I hope that my next entry will be when my surgery date is. If I am approved, I see the surgeon on more time and she gives me the date then!
Still truckin', nothing too new....
Oct 13, 2010
The good: I now have 5 of the 7 things required to be done prior to submitting my paperwork for insurance approval. Tomorrow I go in for my nutrition evaluation, and I have my endoscopy on the 25th (my wedding anniversary). My personal psychologist is totally for my surgery, and just needs to write her report and send it to Oakland to be put in my file. Also, we have gotten everything tied up with insurance. I have noticed that I am not craving fast food like I used too. I have had a few opportunities to get it, but decided to turn it down. Its odd how my brain says to go get it like I used too, almost a habit. But, I think it through and really decide I don't feel like it or want it. I have a really hard time at night of eating. I am also doing so much better about that - so I am making strides. I did slip and make some cookies today, it was hard not to eat as much as I can. I had some dough, and a few cookies. I keep thinking how awful that was, then again, I could have made it so much worse and ate much more.
What concerns me is that I have told a few people, and now I am worried I jinxed it! Too many were asking why I was going to Oakland so much, or why my normal routine has changed. I haven't told everyone, just about 4, 5 people. I cant help but wondering if I just sealed my fate? It was so embarrassing before, I told almost anyone who would listen to me. Then, I basically had to tell so many that it wasn't going to happen. I know pride is not important, and that it should be my last worry - I just don't want to go through that shame again. I just have to force myself to put on foot in front of the other and do what I need to to have the surgery.
I cant seem to get myself to go to the gym. I just need to. I was doing good until the kids stayed home from school for a 2 week fall break. Its been since Monday since they are back in school, I went to Oakland Monday morning, took my brother to breakfast Tuesday morning, and just stayed home and studied today. Tomorrow I go back to Oakland, then go to school after wards. Friday AM I am taking my truck in to get looked at - I think the transmission is going. I've been just walking cirlces around my house, trying to get some movement in. So that's about it, nothing too new. I am hoping that I will have insurance approval within a month, and possibly a date by the end of the year!
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What concerns me is that I have told a few people, and now I am worried I jinxed it! Too many were asking why I was going to Oakland so much, or why my normal routine has changed. I haven't told everyone, just about 4, 5 people. I cant help but wondering if I just sealed my fate? It was so embarrassing before, I told almost anyone who would listen to me. Then, I basically had to tell so many that it wasn't going to happen. I know pride is not important, and that it should be my last worry - I just don't want to go through that shame again. I just have to force myself to put on foot in front of the other and do what I need to to have the surgery.
I cant seem to get myself to go to the gym. I just need to. I was doing good until the kids stayed home from school for a 2 week fall break. Its been since Monday since they are back in school, I went to Oakland Monday morning, took my brother to breakfast Tuesday morning, and just stayed home and studied today. Tomorrow I go back to Oakland, then go to school after wards. Friday AM I am taking my truck in to get looked at - I think the transmission is going. I've been just walking cirlces around my house, trying to get some movement in. So that's about it, nothing too new. I am hoping that I will have insurance approval within a month, and possibly a date by the end of the year!
About Me
Oakley, CA
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29.5
BMI
Surgery
11/18/2010
Surgery Date
Sep 15, 2010
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