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Hello Anyone,

Today is the 15th of July and it also happens to be the 3rd week in the month!  That means I will be attending the Support Group at Southdale Fairview Hospital tonight.  My doctor requires it and isn't it wonderful that the meeting is being held during the time I'm loosing weight and waiting for my 2nd dietitian appointment?

Another cool thing is that I got in to the sleep study tomorrow night as I'm waiting for the appointment  with the dietitian as well.  We'll see what the verdict is of all these appointments, but if everything goes well, I'm going to see the surgeon some time in the beginning of August and he will send the request for approval to the insurance.

Because I'm a little crazy, I've already called the insurance company (quite a few times), and they say it only takes 7 days for a decision.  The clinic says that if I get approved, I could have the surgery by the end of August!  I'll reserve my true excitement for an approval and continue down the road of the nerdy and detailed, but I guess I'm a little psyched that it's time for the two appointments this week.  PLus the fact that I've lost 4 of the 10 pounds in a week.  That's cool too.  :o)

Love & Belief,
LJ

There!  I've said it.  I'm addicted to this website.  I've never tried recreational drugs (too chicken), but if I had, I'm sure I would feel something like I do when I'm on this site.  Like a junkie needs a fix, I need this site.  I find myself feeling guilty for being on it AGAIN!  How can I stop myself from pouring over the stories and before and after images?!  I've even caught myself clicking on a different page and immediately clicking on My Oh again so I can see a fresh crop of images.  It's not right.  Even now I type with stinging, watery eyes that are crying for sleep!

Over-dramatic, you wonder?  Am I?  :o)

LJ

WTF?!  I hate it that when WE know what's best for us (WLS), others think it's their job to dissuade us from our path.  As if they're the ones who live with our breathless steps and aches and pains.  Are they the ones who have tried countless times to make things work only to see the pounds pile on year after year?  Is it for them to decide that we aren't worth the chance of living 10 - 15 years longer?  No, of course it isn't up to them.  When you think about it like that, it's unthinkable and silly to even worry about others considerations before our own.

I have felt odd saying that I'm honestly planning on having the surgery for the past few weeks that I've been considering it again.  In the past, I discounted the obvious benefits due to financial reasons as it wasn't covered on my plan.  At this point, I'm about 45 pounds heavier than I was when I first started looking into the surgery 5 years ago and the surgery is covered by my insurance.

For the past few weeks, I've been afraid to say that I'm fully committed to having the surgery if everything is approved.  Why?  Because someone might look at me or lecture me about how I haven't tried to loose weight or how having WLS is the "easy way out."  I've been saying that I'm still thinking it over so they won't think I'm being hasty.

WELL, NO MORE!  I finally decided that I shouldn't be ashamed and shy about saying I'm not just considering the surgery, but if everything clears with the docs and insurance, I definitely WILLL have the surgery!  I didn't ask for anyones approval over the years as I got fatter and fatter and I shouldn't need to ask for anyone's approval to get thin either.  Go away nay-sayers and ill-advisers.  I am the only one who can make a decision like this for me!

Okay, so I'm off my soap box for now.  I just wanted to state to the universe, whether anyone reads this post of not, that I am fully committed to WLS if my insurance approves it.

LJ

So, right now I'm waiting for approval from all parties involved.  My doctor suggested that I look into the surgery as what he thinks is the best option for me.  I'm roughly 245 -250 on any given day.  My BMI is 42.9 and I am diabetic.  My insurance is all set to approve me if I am medically approved and the psychological evaluation comes back approved.

I'm both anxious and hopeful.  I have really good friends who are all for the surgery if it can improve my health and my husband and kids are also on that side for the same reasons.  

There are a few people who don't understand what I'm going through and amazingly, my best friend of 26 years has expressed to me that she doesn't want me to do it either.  I was a little frustrated with her attitude that I just haven't tried hard enough to loose the weight.  There are a few sides to her feelings that I can see:  1.)  She knew me before I was overweight  2.)  She doesn't have kids and didn't have 3 pregnancies, 2 C-Sections, and 50 weeeks of combined bed rest  3.)  She has never weighted over 135 lbs in her life doesn't understand what goes into knowing you have that much weight to loose.  She is approximately 10 lbs overweight right now and is overwhelmed about "how much weight" she has to loose.

I am trying to make the best decision for me and not worry about the one's who don't understand.  I have to think about me, my quality of life, my specific conditions and how my weight relates to my family as well.

In about 4 days, I've got my medical evaluation and I've already been to my psych evaluation and I've spoken several times to my insurance people.  Things are looking up.  We'll see.

LeJoy