My first "WOW" moment

Sep 25, 2008

Okay so Im getting ready to go Bible Study and of course CANNOT find anything to wear...so I decided to try that blouse thats always been to tight for me.  You know, the button around the navel.   WELL to my surprised it button all the way down AND there was extra room around the belly!  NO WAY.  Then I dared to look in the mirror ...sideways...NO WAY....I can finally tell that I've lost 40lbs.  Yeah Yeah Yeah, everyone else has said "Wow your looking good" and/or "I can tell you lost weight".  But I could never see it.  I could FEEL it, but not see it.
Not til I looked in the mirrow sideways.....I was so excited I ran to my neighbors and showed her and started to tear up.   I REALLY am losing weight. I REALLY am looking better.  This whole ride is a trip.
I knew I was gonna lose weight, but I didn't want to admit to it.

Looking in the mirrow sideways was my first WOW moment.



Im going INSANE!!!

Sep 21, 2008

I am so depressed.  I hate that I cannot eat normally or even gulp.  I want to clean my messy house but don't have the energy to finish anything.  I went food shopping yesterday w/ the family and buy the time I got home, I had to take a NAP!!!  Im soooo frusterated. I didn't think it would be like this. Usually I don't mess around and get back into the swing of things quickly....but this surgery has me on my ass. 

I guess the good thing is, Im drinking and eating more. I took someone's advise and got the Crytal Light Fruit Punch and since I love Fruit Punch, I was thrilled when I drank it.  It actually is super yummy.  

Kids are in school at this moment and the house is dead  quiet.  Strange. 
So.....thats it.  Im just irrated...wish I could down a pizza w/ a side of Big Mac. 

Soft Foods

Sep 17, 2008

SO...its two weeks post opt....and the Dr. said I could finally be on soft foods. Did I tell you how good it feels to CHEW!
The Dr. told me everything I was feeling was normal.  Im still not taken enough protein and not drinking enough water.  Dr. Lowe told me he was not concern about the intake of protein (my body is using my stored up fat for its protein)  HA HA 
The Dr. told me to drink crystal light and some diet juices. Since water alone hurts when I drink cuz my "pouchita" is still healing.  Guess the juices kinda coat my insides.

The only bummer thing, is that I cannot drink coffee and hot tea's anymore. It KILLS my "pouchita".....all foods and drinks are all room temp....for now...lets hope.

Other then that, I lost another 1lb.   So Im 256.  HELLO
Im feeling better then last week, but this week comes with a new set of problems.   Dr. Lowe told me every week will get better. 

14 days post opt.



Feeling SOOO much better

Sep 12, 2008

So I went to see Dr. Lowe for my follow up, and he told me what I was feeling was normal.  He told me that he expects me to feel this way and in a week for two I should be feeling ALOT better.  
So the next day, I woke up and felt SOOO much better. I actually got out of my house and whent shopping!!  YEAH. 
Im still sore and still having trouble getting more then 10-15 grams of protein in me. But Im drinking more liq's and feeling much better about it.

Oh and I lost 25 MORE pounds!  Im officially 257.... DUDE!!!! 

My capri pants that I was wear are WAY to big for me. And the capris that are were tight....fit me lose!  I just cannot believe this. I have no regrets and just gotta get this little hump behind me. I mean come-on....Im only 9 days out!

 


6 days out...

Sep 09, 2008

Oh man.....I hate feeling like this. Im always feeling bloated, Im beginning to feel so run down and cannot met my daily requirements. Im only taken around 200-300 calories a day, can't drink more then 20 ounces and protein....well lets not go there.

Tomorrow is my Dr's appt. for my follow up....hopefully he'll direct me in a different direction.  Atleast the gas pains are gone and I can handle the soreness.  Its the constant full'ness feeling that I cannot handle.  I feel like I've had Thanksgiving dinner 2 times - and that feeling never goes away.  Im walking almost 3 times a day which seems to help but the moment I sit down....I feel bloated again. 


6 days out...

Im HOME!!!

Sep 04, 2008

I made it through....Im home and feeling totally awesome.  The surgery went perfectly.  Dr. Lowe sd he was proud of my liver, cuz it had shrinked down do much. He sd all he had to do was just flip it over to get to my stomach.  I was so proud of my liver. 

I wasn't to nervous til they split me and my husband and mom apart. They wheeled me into the surgery room and gave me some "jungle juice" .  I was joking with the staff about shaving my legs and before I knew it, I was in the recovery room.  OH THE PAIN.        It felt like the very beginnings of labor pains.  I didn't except that at all.  But they gave me some meds and I began to feel better.  The recovery nurse was a little bitchy.  She kept asking about my pain tolerance. I was like....just give me something asshole. 
So they wheeled me into my room and I slept for an hour or so, I started to get up and walk around my room.  I wanted the gas to get out. I was determine to start walking asap.   That night, I was given morphine and something for the nausa.  Then the next day, I got up and started walking to hallways.  I got up every hour and walked the hallsways twice.  

So the Dr. released me and Im home.  Last night I had to take my meds cuz my "pouch" was still hurting a little.  This morning, I went walking a little bit up and down my street.  Just to get this gas out of me. Thats the worse part is the gas. 

But I'll tell you what.....everything whent so smoothly that I feel even more confident that I made the right decision, and Im just so ready for the next step.  Getting active and eating real food soon.



Tomorrow is the DAY

Sep 02, 2008

Okay...how EXCITED am I!!!!    Im just jumping up and down with this HUGE smile on my face....ear to ear.  See....tomorrow is my day to have surgery. I've been waiting for this for such a long time.  Its like Christmas for me.  I have survived the 2 week liq. diet, and I can say honestly that I have not cheated ONCE!  Im so proud of myself.  I finally feel that I can do this...if I can survive this 2 week liq. diet...I can lose the weight and look how I want to feel.  Oh man I just feel so pumped.

Im a little nervous, but SO much more excited then anything else.  My friends and my family are sooooo supportive of me.  I don't know how I got this blessed.  I must of done something right. 

My mother flew in last night, so she will be here to take care of me. Its good to see her again.

And to my girl Vicki...and special HELLO.....thank you girl...THANK YOU for motivating me. All your love and support kept me from cheating.  I knew you where counting on me and I leaned on that.  You play such a vidal role in my life.....I love you girl. XOXOXO


Less then one week - 6 more days

Aug 27, 2008

So, I was up almost all night last night.  And I thought I was SOOO brave and having control of my nervous.  Guess not. 

Im feeling so much better, I thought there for awhile I was getting the flu, but whent to my priomary Dr. and he gave me something to take.

I've been good on my liq. diet so far. 9 days of nothing but liquids. Let me tell you, I am SOOO impressed on how far I've come.  Who knew I had it in me. Im proud of myself.  That doesn't very often.  Maybe I can actually do this. Althought without the support my of family and friends I would be nowhere.  14lbs lost so far. 

Oh did I mention, today was the first day of school for my kids. My daughters first day of BIG girl school.  I was a blubbering mess.

8 more days....

Aug 26, 2008

okay 8 more days to go.....only 8.  8 more days til the new me.  8 more days til a new chapter.  I've waited for this for such a long time, it seems surreal to me.   My family and friends have been so supportive. How blessed am I.  

Today Im feeling super pissy. The kids are inside all day, its raining. Getting the leftovers of FAYE.  So a long day of yelling, screaming, fighting, whining and of course dirty undies (potty training).

I made spaghetti for the family last night, and let me tell you, if my man was not around, I would of made a "ice cream" bowl size for myself and hid in the closet.  Its smelt sooo good.

8 more days....


10 more days...

Aug 24, 2008

Okay ONE more day til Im in the single digits for count down to my surgery.  Im soo excited and motivated.  Although this liq. diet is hard. Of course MUCH easier then day #2.  I wanted to injure everyone in my stiking zone.

I've started to cook for my family, which is super hard while Im blending my soup for dinner.  But I know this is worth it and everyday I feel more confident in my decision.



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Lake Wylie, SC
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25.0
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RNY
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09/03/2008
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Mar 30, 2008
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