KJudson
I hate you...I love me.
Nov 12, 2008
So I finally weighed myself today...is been over a week 1/2. I've only lost 1 stupid little measly pound. WHAT THE HELL? I have worked out everyday except Wed. for this week and 1/2. So discouraging. 
I HATE YOU SCALE!
But I LOVE ME...I love that I can motivate myself and walk/jog infront of the TV for 4 miles. I love that my body is going thru all these changes, etc..bones sticking out...stomach more flatten, collar bone more detailed, and of course, the necklaces that are no longer chokers.
I LOVE ME...I LOVE ME.....I LOVE ME....
How come I never knew before this??? Why does it take a surgery to open up my eyes to see myself....maybe its was the cake frosting still on my lips.
I HATE YOU SCALE!
But I LOVE ME...I love that I can motivate myself and walk/jog infront of the TV for 4 miles. I love that my body is going thru all these changes, etc..bones sticking out...stomach more flatten, collar bone more detailed, and of course, the necklaces that are no longer chokers.
I LOVE ME...I LOVE ME.....I LOVE ME....
How come I never knew before this??? Why does it take a surgery to open up my eyes to see myself....maybe its was the cake frosting still on my lips.
Happy 2 month surgiversary to me!
Nov 02, 2008
Its been 2 months since my surgery. YUP, 2 months! Can you believe it? Heres what I've become:
A size 18 (a tight one with camel toes) he he
I have a chin
My face is long
My hair is longer
I have a collarbone
I have a pelvic bone
I have ribs
I have more pep in my step
Bending over is not torture
Walking and jogging in place for 4 miles is FUN
I eat less then my cats do
Im more enegerized
Im not so nerves about those resturant chairs
I can fit into a booth
Im down 55lbs
My new best friend is a laxative
AND my house is the most messiest its been in years!
HERE'S TO 2 HELL'VA MONTHS
A size 18 (a tight one with camel toes) he he
I have a chin
My face is long
My hair is longer
I have a collarbone
I have a pelvic bone
I have ribs
I have more pep in my step
Bending over is not torture
Walking and jogging in place for 4 miles is FUN
I eat less then my cats do
Im more enegerized
Im not so nerves about those resturant chairs
I can fit into a booth
Im down 55lbs
My new best friend is a laxative
AND my house is the most messiest its been in years!
HERE'S TO 2 HELL'VA MONTHS
Fine, I get it....
Nov 01, 2008
I was feeling pretty cocky of myself. Last night was Halloween, and I cheated and had a mini Mr. Goodbar last night, and 1/2 a mini bar of 1000 Grand bar...and nothing happen. OKAY, maybe Im one of those people who don't dump. YEAH. 
This morning, DH is working, no food in the house. So I took the kids to McDonalds and got myself a Sausage McMuffin with cheese NO EGG.
Well of course, only retarted dumb ass's work there, and they screwed up my order. Anyway, I threw the egg out, put 1/2 the hashbrown in my sandwich and took a "before surgery" bit. YUMMY......but that only lasted about a second or two. I could feel it.....that bite was creeping back up...taken revenge on me. Pouchita said NO WAY. Finally running to the bathroom...all hell broke loss. I'll spare the nasty details.
LESSONS LEARNED.....I'M NOT SPEICAL.....I DO DUMP....I DO THROW UP.....MY POUCHITA IS NOT MADE OF STEEL....
My pouchita hates me right now.
But Im sure once I put some nice hot smooth silky pumpkin spice coffee in there, she'll get over it.
So, guess what Im saying is "Fine.... I get it"
This morning, DH is working, no food in the house. So I took the kids to McDonalds and got myself a Sausage McMuffin with cheese NO EGG.
Well of course, only retarted dumb ass's work there, and they screwed up my order. Anyway, I threw the egg out, put 1/2 the hashbrown in my sandwich and took a "before surgery" bit. YUMMY......but that only lasted about a second or two. I could feel it.....that bite was creeping back up...taken revenge on me. Pouchita said NO WAY. Finally running to the bathroom...all hell broke loss. I'll spare the nasty details.
LESSONS LEARNED.....I'M NOT SPEICAL.....I DO DUMP....I DO THROW UP.....MY POUCHITA IS NOT MADE OF STEEL....
My pouchita hates me right now.
But Im sure once I put some nice hot smooth silky pumpkin spice coffee in there, she'll get over it. So, guess what Im saying is "Fine.... I get it"
55 pounds I'll never see again
Oct 25, 2008
I have lost 55 pounds. COME ON......thats 55 pounds people.
Im still in denial and don't know if I want to admit to it. Its just seems like a dream come true. Yeah I worked for it, exercised almost everyday...watch what I eat. But its just seems so unreal.
Can it be.....really truly be......NAH.
Im still in denial and don't know if I want to admit to it. Its just seems like a dream come true. Yeah I worked for it, exercised almost everyday...watch what I eat. But its just seems so unreal.
Can it be.....really truly be......NAH.
How AWESOME are my kids.....
Oct 24, 2008
Today its raining, gloomy and cold. All I wanted to do was close all my blinds and stay in my jammies.
I didn't exercise yesterday, so I knew I had to pop in that DVD. So I did...thinking..okay 10 minutes only..then I can go back to bed.
Once I put in the DVD the kids where all excited. All of a sudden I had a cheering section.
My babies where encouraging me, and telling me Im kicking higher then the women on the DVD. They started to exercise with me as well. It was so much fun. All that pumping and encouragement they gave me.....I was in the zone. All of a sudden 45 minutes later....my 3 miles of high intensity workout was over. I made it all that way thru, without looken at the clock to see when this torture was gonna end.
My babies are so awesome....how COOL is that to work out with your kids and having them cheer you on.
Man I feel so empowered today!!!
I didn't exercise yesterday, so I knew I had to pop in that DVD. So I did...thinking..okay 10 minutes only..then I can go back to bed.
Once I put in the DVD the kids where all excited. All of a sudden I had a cheering section.
My babies where encouraging me, and telling me Im kicking higher then the women on the DVD. They started to exercise with me as well. It was so much fun. All that pumping and encouragement they gave me.....I was in the zone. All of a sudden 45 minutes later....my 3 miles of high intensity workout was over. I made it all that way thru, without looken at the clock to see when this torture was gonna end. My babies are so awesome....how COOL is that to work out with your kids and having them cheer you on.
Man I feel so empowered today!!!
My first shopping WOW moment....
Oct 20, 2008
This weekend was the first offical start of the cold season over here. Going thru my pants, I come to find out....that don't fit me anymore. To BIG!!!!! I told my DH I was frusterated since I didn't have any clothes. So we hit up Goodwill...nothing. Then whent to Walmart (come on Im not gonna spend good $$$ on something Im only gonna wear for a month or so). SO I got a size 24, 22, and 20. When I grabbed that size 20, I knew I was just fooling myself. My size was a tight 26 when I started this jounrey.
So Im in the dressing room, size 24..a bit baggie. Size 22 they zip up and look good. BUT, I thought, why not, just try the 20. And GUESS WHAT...they FIT. NO FREAKING WAY.
My wedding dress was a size 22.
I cannot BELIEVE I fit into a size 20. There tight, but shit, they zip up and make my ass look good. HA HA
Im 7 weeks out and already lost 51lbs. My friend whom I thought was the better one.....the prettier and skinner one...is jealous and threaten by me. HA HA I LOVE THIS!!!!
So Im in the dressing room, size 24..a bit baggie. Size 22 they zip up and look good. BUT, I thought, why not, just try the 20. And GUESS WHAT...they FIT. NO FREAKING WAY.
My wedding dress was a size 22. I cannot BELIEVE I fit into a size 20. There tight, but shit, they zip up and make my ass look good. HA HA
Im 7 weeks out and already lost 51lbs. My friend whom I thought was the better one.....the prettier and skinner one...is jealous and threaten by me. HA HA I LOVE THIS!!!!
FATZ Cafe
Oct 10, 2008
Yesterday my Hubby's Aunt came out to visit us for the weekend. All the way out from home...Callie. So I was sooo exhausted from cleaning the house, there was NO way I had enough in me to cook dinner....so we decided to go to FATZ Cafe.
I was nervous cuz this was gonna be my first "outting" . I hoped that my good sense and education was gonna pay off.
SO Im looken at the menu....nothing in the appetizers...salads wasn't looked good...and I bypassed the chicken and beef. I headed towards the seafood sections. It was shrimp, (which Im allergic to) or salmon. So I choice the salmon.
And you have to know this about me folks......before my RNY I would of ordered a Pepsi, a salad / Blue Cheese, then the largest cheeseburger they had w/ fries and a side order of Ranch....then of course, take desert to go home. Salmon...umm NO....and especially special order...HA HA I would of laughed at you.
The waitress comes, and of course, Aunt Karen went first (yup...we share the same name) then I ordered for the kids....then for myself...."I'll take the Maple Plank Salmon with the glaze on the side.....skewed veggies with no sauce and forgo the rice"....WHOW...my FIRST special order. NO WAY....and guess what...,my plate was exactly that. Except they gave me the rice...oh well. While sitting next to me my DH chowing down on this fulled loaded baked potato and a sad looken steak. He's so clueless....he'll learn.
I just wanted to share that with you...my first special order.
Well, I know there will be lots more to come....but this was my first. 
A slow start to my SOLIDS!!!
Oct 08, 2008
YUP, Im finally on solids. Seems like a dream come true. Its already been 5 weeks, and my NUT. said I could starting eating solids...slowly.
Oh man am I super excited!!! Im offically 247..thats under 250 folks!
Okay another reason why Im SOOO excited. My stupid scale here at home says Im 255 and stayed that way for 2 weeks. Maybe its time to buy a new one.
I think cooking dinner will be much easier for me.....since Im cooking my food for my family. DH isn't too happy....but he sure needs to lose some of that belly. He thinks the BMI chart is incorrect in his case. Sure babe. Then he wants to celebrate with me and take me to Taco Bell....ha ha. Well atleast he tries to be supportive.
So last night I had 3 day old spagetti....and let me tell you...that was the best spagetti I have tasted. ALL those flavors...WHOW.
Tonight Im breaken out the fish.....DH won't like it....but WHAT is he gonna cook for himself....NOPE.
Im just so thankful that I have gotten to this point.....solids. What a treat.
35 days out.......
Oh man am I super excited!!! Im offically 247..thats under 250 folks!
Okay another reason why Im SOOO excited. My stupid scale here at home says Im 255 and stayed that way for 2 weeks. Maybe its time to buy a new one.
I think cooking dinner will be much easier for me.....since Im cooking my food for my family. DH isn't too happy....but he sure needs to lose some of that belly. He thinks the BMI chart is incorrect in his case. Sure babe. Then he wants to celebrate with me and take me to Taco Bell....ha ha. Well atleast he tries to be supportive.
So last night I had 3 day old spagetti....and let me tell you...that was the best spagetti I have tasted. ALL those flavors...WHOW.
Tonight Im breaken out the fish.....DH won't like it....but WHAT is he gonna cook for himself....NOPE.
Im just so thankful that I have gotten to this point.....solids. What a treat.
35 days out.......
I hate cooking for my family
Oct 05, 2008
I need 
...sleep. It has been more then 3 days now, where I cannot sleep. I fall asleep around 8pm'ish and wake up at 12am'ish and cannot get back to sleep for the rest of the night and morning. ARGGGG And ALL my life I've been sleeping more then 9+ hours a night. (I love to sleep).
I don't know what it is....and Im getting pissy. I have to sleep in another room cuz....... Lord help me if I wake my hubby whiles he's sleeping. (scary)
I've been taken Tylenol PM, but thats keeps me sleeping til midnight. I called the Dr. and of course, the nurse if suppose to call me back. But tonight, Im knocking myself with some heavy drugs.....NyQuil AND Tylenol PM. I cannot go thru another night like this.
OH and did I tell you I HATE cooking for the family. I get so irritated watching them eat all the nummy'ness I just made...and I can't eat any...just my stupid DIET soup. Tonight, they are getting leftovers...they can DEAL.
Atleast I got my SAMS fix in and spent too much money we don't have. That always makes me feel better.
...sleep. It has been more then 3 days now, where I cannot sleep. I fall asleep around 8pm'ish and wake up at 12am'ish and cannot get back to sleep for the rest of the night and morning. ARGGGG And ALL my life I've been sleeping more then 9+ hours a night. (I love to sleep).I don't know what it is....and Im getting pissy. I have to sleep in another room cuz....... Lord help me if I wake my hubby whiles he's sleeping. (scary)
I've been taken Tylenol PM, but thats keeps me sleeping til midnight. I called the Dr. and of course, the nurse if suppose to call me back. But tonight, Im knocking myself with some heavy drugs.....NyQuil AND Tylenol PM. I cannot go thru another night like this.
OH and did I tell you I HATE cooking for the family. I get so irritated watching them eat all the nummy'ness I just made...and I can't eat any...just my stupid DIET soup. Tonight, they are getting leftovers...they can DEAL.
Atleast I got my SAMS fix in and spent too much money we don't have. That always makes me feel better.
Its getting better
Sep 29, 2008
This past weekend I thought I was back tracking going down hill. My poor little pouch hurt so much. I didn't do anything different...guess its just one of those things.
But TODAY is a different day. I woke up feeling so excited (about what...who knows) dropped the kids off at school, fought with a couple of people for gas, got home put in a DVD and worked out for 45 minutes. DUDE...Karen...me...working out for 45 minutes. HA HA Come on.....I just have to laugh at myself. I made it though, and feeling SOOO inpowered. WATCH OUT.....Im feeling like a RHINO.
But TODAY is a different day. I woke up feeling so excited (about what...who knows) dropped the kids off at school, fought with a couple of people for gas, got home put in a DVD and worked out for 45 minutes. DUDE...Karen...me...working out for 45 minutes. HA HA Come on.....I just have to laugh at myself. I made it though, and feeling SOOO inpowered. WATCH OUT.....Im feeling like a RHINO.
About Me
Lake Wylie, SC
Location
25.0
BMI
Surgery
09/03/2008
Surgery Date
Mar 30, 2008
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