Kimberly W.
August 28, 2008 - Seminar and todays thoughts
Aug 28, 2008
Jay and I attended the Bridges Center seminar last night. I must say I was unimpressed with the presentation, however the people giving the presentation were fabulous. Unfortunately their projector was not working, they had to go over their power point slide via print out. Due to this the speaker tended to skip around a lot. However I was still able to learn a lot.
After the presentation I sat down with the Nurse Practitioner that works with Dr. Johnson, I was extremely impressed with her. She was very smart, very honest and very helpful. She told me I am defiantly a candidate for the Bypass and that she doesn't think it will be a problem getting an approval from my insurance.
I know I should not get my hopes up this high...but it truly is TOO LATE!!! In my head my knee problems are already gone, I can actually get out of bed without pain all over....in my head I am no longer tugging at my shirt to hide the fat (FYI I know this does not actually hide it, but its something I have always done), in m head I am hiking with my sister Katy, in my head I am chasing my nephew around the backyard...in my head I am truly me. So yes in my head my hopes are to high, but damn am I excited!!!!
I spoke with the Orthopedic office today, the doctor has agreed to write a letter on behalf, I also spoke with my OBGYN whom is also going to write a letter. I go see my GP on the 15th, I am certain she will write a letter as she did 5 years ago. Then The Bridges Center will send in for an approval.
I promised Jay that the day I get my approval letter is the day I will quit smoking for good.
I am filled with excitement about the surgery, but somehow I have hit an all time low of sadness related to my weight. A part of me is just so sad I am here AGAIN! I have had so many ups and downs with my weight in the past, I just don't want to suffer this way anymore. I broke the toilet seat in my guest bathroom this morning...I just sat there crying I was so embarrassed to tell Jay. He was wonderful, he said "Baby that thing was a cheap piece of crap" (then he laughed at his own pun) and said, "seriously though, I think I am the one that originally cracked it last week." We both know it wasn't him, but I love him for it!
I am concerned that my immediate family; sisters, brothers, my Mom....they will have a hard time adjusting to how much my life will change after surgery. I have been thinking all day how I need to sit down with them (once I get an approval) and make sure they can all accept it. I think it will be the hardest for my mom, she says she will support my decision but would prefer I not do the surgery. I hope that they will be see how happy this will make me, what a positive impact it will have on my life and most importantly my health.
I spoke with my little sister about the surgery, she said she supports it and will be here to help in anyway she can. I think for some reason, the small portions of food I will only be able to eat will be hard for her. She loves me so much and I don't think she has a clear understanding of what the surgery is, and what a healthy life I can lead if I follow the guidelines of a WLS patient. Like I said, she Ioves me so much, she has always put me on a high pedestal, anything that she perceives as harmful to me will be hard for her. I am going to make sure I spend a lot time this weekend letting her see this website and all the other ones that explain what a great thing this will be for my life.
Ok I am babbling!
After the presentation I sat down with the Nurse Practitioner that works with Dr. Johnson, I was extremely impressed with her. She was very smart, very honest and very helpful. She told me I am defiantly a candidate for the Bypass and that she doesn't think it will be a problem getting an approval from my insurance.
I know I should not get my hopes up this high...but it truly is TOO LATE!!! In my head my knee problems are already gone, I can actually get out of bed without pain all over....in my head I am no longer tugging at my shirt to hide the fat (FYI I know this does not actually hide it, but its something I have always done), in m head I am hiking with my sister Katy, in my head I am chasing my nephew around the backyard...in my head I am truly me. So yes in my head my hopes are to high, but damn am I excited!!!!
I spoke with the Orthopedic office today, the doctor has agreed to write a letter on behalf, I also spoke with my OBGYN whom is also going to write a letter. I go see my GP on the 15th, I am certain she will write a letter as she did 5 years ago. Then The Bridges Center will send in for an approval.
I promised Jay that the day I get my approval letter is the day I will quit smoking for good.
I am filled with excitement about the surgery, but somehow I have hit an all time low of sadness related to my weight. A part of me is just so sad I am here AGAIN! I have had so many ups and downs with my weight in the past, I just don't want to suffer this way anymore. I broke the toilet seat in my guest bathroom this morning...I just sat there crying I was so embarrassed to tell Jay. He was wonderful, he said "Baby that thing was a cheap piece of crap" (then he laughed at his own pun) and said, "seriously though, I think I am the one that originally cracked it last week." We both know it wasn't him, but I love him for it!
I am concerned that my immediate family; sisters, brothers, my Mom....they will have a hard time adjusting to how much my life will change after surgery. I have been thinking all day how I need to sit down with them (once I get an approval) and make sure they can all accept it. I think it will be the hardest for my mom, she says she will support my decision but would prefer I not do the surgery. I hope that they will be see how happy this will make me, what a positive impact it will have on my life and most importantly my health.
I spoke with my little sister about the surgery, she said she supports it and will be here to help in anyway she can. I think for some reason, the small portions of food I will only be able to eat will be hard for her. She loves me so much and I don't think she has a clear understanding of what the surgery is, and what a healthy life I can lead if I follow the guidelines of a WLS patient. Like I said, she Ioves me so much, she has always put me on a high pedestal, anything that she perceives as harmful to me will be hard for her. I am going to make sure I spend a lot time this weekend letting her see this website and all the other ones that explain what a great thing this will be for my life.
Ok I am babbling!
1st blog post - August 27, 2008
Aug 27, 2008
Jay (my boyfriend) and I are attending the seminar tonight, I am very excited, this will be my first in 5 years. Jay has never been to one, he was way against the surgery at first, but we have spent a lot of time over the last few weeks looking at web sites, this one included and educating him on the surgery. The truth is I think it was the profiles, blogs and forum posting on this site that finally got him to not only be supportive but really excited for me. I am so glad about that, he is my best friend, my whole world and I am going to need him through this.
I'm getting really nervous for next weekend his Mom is flying in from CA to spend the weekend with us. It will be the first time we meet, I hate that she is going to meet me for the first time while I am so fat.
that's all for now
I'm getting really nervous for next weekend his Mom is flying in from CA to spend the weekend with us. It will be the first time we meet, I hate that she is going to meet me for the first time while I am so fat.
that's all for now
