just venting....

Nov 16, 2009

So its midnight and I'm sitting here thinking- what in the world have I gotten myself into! I'm 3 weeks post op as of today and i've lost nearly 30 lbs so far i'm never hungry but i do feel weak and tired alot.

I am keeping my head up though and negative thoughts at bay by distracting myself with my son and going for walks and being around friends and spending time with hubby. I just feel like i'm not sure what to do with myself. I get hungry and i eat but everytime i eat i throw up because even after one bite i'm soooo full i just feel like my food is gagging me in the back of my throat. its not stuck i just feel immediately sickly full and i can't enjoy anything, even water!

my meal replacement shakes are horrid and i have to try to choke down my vitamins which is a task in itself. i just keep telling myself this will pass.

i've been doing purreed foods like i'm supposed to and i still throw up. is this normal??

My hubby keeps saying maybe i'm eating too much but how can one bite be too much? so i just go back to liquids and then try again when i feel better and the same thing happens. i'm so frustrated. is anyone else having this problem?

on the plus side: people are noticing my weight loss and making comments which is nice. i'm at 216!!! and i have about 70-80 more lbs to lose to get to my goal!

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