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Hi Guys !  I cut my hair.  

This is my 2nd time going au natural. i stopped perming my hair about 4 months ago. i intended to keep it braided up. After i took my braids out this weekend, i didnt really know what to do with my hair.

 I wanted a change, so i decided to cut it. My momma did a good job ! She cuts her own hair so i got her to gimmie a buzz . It felt great getting it cut off, it was like a release. It took me lil bit to get used to my new look but i like it. I will proberbly add some color and experiment with wigs and eventually grow my hair out, and maybe go back to perms when i get tired of having it short. 

Most of my friends are shocked, some think i shoulda just put a perm back in and others love the new cut and some dont really care. My cousins hate the cut. its concerning not beacuse they hate it but beacuse they have bought into this whole theory of beauty meaning you need long pretty stright hair.  

My cousins have natural hair, its very long beacuse they have grown it out since birth, but its not permed. Every time they see kids with log stright hair they love it. When i permed my hair couple years ago after being natural for a while, they loved it and wanted to play with it all the time. 

Anyway i say all this cause im concerned about their ideas of beauty. I am trying to teach them that beauty come in all diffrent shapes, sizes and textures.  I hope they learn but its hard when they hear the opposit from their mother, media and society. 

As black ppl i feel we need to learn to accept our natural selves. Im not saying every black person should walk around with a natural do. I am saying that we should love our selves, choose a style beacuse we like it and not beacuse it accepted in society.

I used to be like that too, but now i know better.  Natural, permed, locked whatever is beautiful. Its hair...it will grow back.

Hi OH. Just wanted to update you guys. 

I have recived my psych recomendation yeah!!!!  I am in the process of reqesting my medical records from my endocronologist (sp?) and finishing the remaining 5 months diet. 

I have had several ups and downs, but ive learned SOO MUCH from everyone here and also learned alot about my self.  I just want to thank all of you on this site. This network means so much to me. It has been a great source of inspiration, encouragement and growth. Thanks guys!

I look forward to the future growth.

Hi OH Fam,

I just got back from my 1month check up with my nutritionist. It went really well. I lost 2 lbs !!! I am so happy cause i thought i was going to gain a whole lot. 

I havnt really been eating right and fell off my work out routine beacuse i went on vacation and my class schedule changed. I am glad/ encouraged that i lost weight. This visit the NUT. was a bit more pleasant than my initial consultation with her. 1 down and 5 more to go!

This six months diet/wait is so hard. I cant wait till its over!!! But im doing what i gotta do to ensure that i get APPROVED .  Keep me in prayers. 

Hi OH.

Its been a while i wrote. I am doing good. I tried to relax as much as possible before i started summer classes again. I went to NYC, TX and Va. I enjoyed all the traveling and spending time with friends and family. 

I was shocked to hear that im @ 349lbs. I thought i was going to gain 20lbs. I am starting back at curves (didnt work out much during vacation). My 6 months diet is a strugle. I find that i am going over the 1500 cal that the NUT. set for me. I hate this period, but im managing. I just hope all goes well and i get my approval. 

I am also working on relaxing and cutting out stressfull people and things from my life. I am trying to live each day to the fullest and be accountable for each decision

Keep me in prayers

Hi OH,

I just finished my last final today. I am happy that its over, but im concerned on how i did. At this point im trying to stop thinking about it beacuse its now out of my hands. I can only control the present and the future, but not the past

I did pretty bad this week with eating and excercise. I had been really stressed and anxious with finals...especially this last one, so i did what i knew how to do (EAT/not excercise)...which didnt help...it actually made me feel worse. I had lost some weight and i was pretty happy but now i think i have gained it back.

My WLS process is slow, but moving. I had my psych eval and it went well...the psych told me he would recomend me. 

I have a meeting with dr wigger(sp?) the bariatric dr and the nutritionist on wednesday. I guess they will start my 6months diet when i meet with them.  I spoke to my pcp and he will write me a letter of medical neccesity.  so far everything with the surgery is going well...just REALLY REALLY slow.

I have learned several lessons. Although i am not feeling my best, i have awareness. i am going to dust my self off yet again and get back on the wagon of life because success is inevitable when failure is not an option and There is no chance, no fate, no destiny that can circumvent, hinder, or control a firm resolve of a determined soul.

 

 

 

 

Things are better. I have my psych eval tomorrow. My PCP sent over my medical records and i now have my Bariatric dr consult and nutrition consult on May 9th. 

I am still working out @ curves ! yeeeeaa...i am proud of my self for keeping up with it so far. I also use my leslie sansone DVD when i dont go to curves. 

I have finals and job interviews which stresses the mess outa me. I hate the wait after the interview and when i hear back from the employer.  I try to remind my self theres nothing else i can do and to commit it to god in prayers...but i still get very anxious about it. 

keep me in your prayers. 

Thanks for the support OH fam

I am soo frustrated!  I just called my surgeon's office to check whether they recived all the info they needed before i can schedule an apointment with the bariatric physician. They have everything except my psych results (wich i have an apointment for this friday) and ALL the information they requested from my PCP.

I am soo pissed at my PCP...how hard is it to copy medical records, and genarate a letter...which they should already have a template for!!!! and do a medical evaluation?

RRRRRRR :( I am also upset beacuse i dont need anything to further slow this already snail like process down! i already have to do that long ass 6months diet....and i dont need my PCP taking thier good ol time to add aditional time to my process.  I am ready to have this surgery and these ppl are wasting my time!

I feel little better venting....but i am still annoyed. 

Please pray for patience and that my process wont encounter further road bumps.

Thanks

Hi OH.

First of all i would like to send a prayer out to the friends and family of the victims of the V-Tech shooting ( including the shooter/his family). I pray that god gives healing and accepts their souls. I pray that god helps the families get through this difficult time. I also think that we should all make a consious effort to treat everyone we come across with the way we would like to be treated, or at least in a civil manner. Also we need to teach our children and loved ones to treat others at least in a civil manner.

I sent my patient questionair and 4 day food diary out today. I also made a psych apointment for Friday 27th. My next step is to get an apointment to meet with the bariatric Dr. for my initial evaluation. He will evaluate me and if i am deemed a candidate, he will place me on the 6 month diet ( insurance mandated ), and upon being deemed a candidate  i can also schedule an apointment to meet my surgeon of choice.

I have a long process, and i know the hardest part will be waiting the 6 months.  On a positive note, i am glad the ball is rolling. 

My testimony

As i have discussed before, i have a huge problem with procrstination...i am just now starting to get to the root of that issue and most of my other issues(anxiety, depression, bing eating, food adiction, lack of portion control etc..) I call them co-depressors. 

I try to do what is right each day, but i fall short alot. Despite that, god has just been great to me. one of my favorite gospel artists Yolanda Adam's song says it the best "since the last time i saw you, god has moved another raging mountain out of my way..."

Long story short, although sometimes i dont always see it or realise it, God has been great to me, continues to be great to me. My breif is done, and so is my oral argument  (i was pretty nervous).  My first year of law school is almost finished. When i look back to the first day of school and realise how far and how much i have learned...it is truly amazing! 

OH family please join me in thanking god his blessings. Also keep me in prayers beacuse i have finals coming up in a few weeks. 

Thanks for your support... i TRULY appreciate it. 

Hi O.H family. I went for my consultation on Friday. It was quick...they basically went over what the office offers, the different type of surgery options, i signed some papers, and received a packet with step by step instructions. 

So far I am on step four. I went for some blood work today. As soon as I complete my 4 day food journal, I can turn in my questionnaire/packet and schedule another appointment at the office. I found out that I have to do a 6 months physician assisted diet/nutrition :(  .  I was sort of bummed because that means I have a while, at least 6 months till I get a date. 

I am going to try and use this time to continue learning, building support and hopefully drop some pounds!  Speaking of dropping pounds I lost 8lbs! I was sooo happy....to celebrate I went out to eat. I didn’t even realize what I was doing until afterwards....celebrating weight loss with eating...bad idea!!!  

Good thing is now I feel guilty when I make bad food choices, which means im learning. Now if I can just avoid making the bad choices in the first place :)

I am participating the curves 6 weeks nutrition class. We had our first meeting Friday (Friday was a busy day!). It went well...they seem really supportive. They gave us protein shakes ...vanilla and chocolate. It was soooo HORRIBLE. It tasted like card board :(   . 

Since life after surgery is going to involve a lot of protein shake consumption, I am on a mission to find better ways to make the shakes. I went to GNC today; the girl who was working was very nice, she educated me on a lot of their products. I ended up spending WAY WAY more than i intended. I bought Stiva (a natural sugar substitute), more protein powder, and time release vitamin

I made my shake this evening with milk, ice, protein powder, stivia. It tasted better. I got an idea from a friend to experiment with extracts (vanilla, chocolate, almond, strawberry etc..located on the baking isle). I will let you guys know how it works out

Please OH family share your protein shake recipes! 

I will keep you guys posted...keep me in your prayers.

I went to my first support group meeting yesterday.  I  was rushing beacuse i had class until 5.30 and the meeting started @ 6.00pm. I got soooo lost, but i made it.  Im glad i didnt get frustrated and leave beacuse it was well worth it.

I caught the last few question and answers ...mostly stuff that i already knew from OH. I got to meet lots of post op that were there. They were very nice and answered my questions. I also got to meet several pre-ops...mostly ones waiting for their date to come. 

The best part was meeting the surgeons. The practice (Weight Loss Center Harrisburg) has 3 surgeons (DeMarco, Currie, and Davidson) and 1 nutritionist. Two of the surgeons and the nutritionist were there. They were nice. 

I really liked Dr. Currie. He was very attentive, welcoming and overall made me feel comfortable. The jury is still out on who im going to choose for my procedure. I plan on attending the support group meetings whenever my schedule permits so i can get to know the surgeons better,  meet more of my fellow pre-ops, and learn from the post ops.