the mental battle

Aug 28, 2011

 Life is strange.people are strange. obesity is strange. i don't understand my body. i don't understand why i would be given a struggle like being over weight. 

i do understand that i have been blessed.

blessed to struggle with something that i have been given a solution to.

my surgery has been LIFE CHANGING in so many ways. but some times i still look to food when i am upset or bored. its very strange because i have been working so hard and love my new body. but some times my mind is still the old "fat" julia. ya know?

and its hard because i don't ant to talk about it with people because they don't understand. and actually they might understand. but being obese my whole life and then losing 90 pounds when i struggle with that it feels so shameful. 

i am excited to keep walking this pathway to a new and exciting body and am praying that i can be healthy, mentally and physically!


J

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