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Well I had my surgery on April 4, 2012 and I am home relaxing and recovering, so to say. I spent two days in the hospital after surgery and got out on Friday afternoon. The hardedst thing I have had to deal with since being home is that I haven't been able to play with my two small boys that much, but did take them to an Easter Egg hunt on Saturday. The second hardest thing is the fact I decided to have my surgery before Easter. My lovely wife has been cooking up a storm making all my faviorte foods, of which I will not be able to eat any. But it all smells wonderful.

We went out and bought a scale and I am down 20lbs since I started my journey on this trip.

Well it has been a little bit since I have written a post on here. Most of it I guess is because I feel that I am just talking to myself when I do post on here. But I recieved great news last week, my insurance company approved my surgery. I will be getting my sleve done on April 3, 2012. YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA Me

Well it has been a little bit since I have posted on here. I have a Dr and I am on my way. I am looking at getting a sleeve done instead of a bypass due to my career and fear of not having enough energy when I need it. All I need now is for the insurance company to give the blessing for my past diet experance. Stay tuned for updates.

Well I found out that my insurance will accept the fact that I was on NutriSystem for 6 months and I don;t have to do the 6 months of supervised weight loss. Yea for me. But now I am finding other issues that I am dealing with. I still have the issues with my 5 year old calling me fat. I can take that from any grown person at all, but it hurts coming from him. That is a major reason that I am really wanting to have this surgery done. I want to be there for my children and their children.

The second issue is from my wife. If you didn't read my first blog here is a refresher. My wife of 4 years had the surgery about 6 years ago, before we got together. She was married to another guy at the time. I met her at, as she says, her smallest point in her life. After her surgery, she became a little wild I guess is a nice way to put it. And she found me. She loves me for me, no matter how big I am. She fell in love with the big guy that I am. But she is worried that once I loose weight, get my energy and self confidence up I will be out on the prowl. I think that is mainly because that is what happened with her.

I love this woman with all my heart. I don't see myself doing that to her. I guess I am trying to figure out two things. One is that a common thing to happen with couples of half of the couple after the surgery? And two how can I get her to get that thought out of her head?

I am not sure about this whole blogging thing. I guess I should tell whoever is going to read this a little about myself. Hi I am Jay, I am a 36 year old married father of 3 wonderful, most of the time, boys ages 13, 5, and 3. I have been a volunteer firefighter for 20 years and have been a career firefighter for the past 3.5 years. My beautiful wife of 4 years had this surgery done almost 7 years ago.

I have been a big boy almost all of my life. It sucked growing up as the fat kid. I would love to just once see how it is to not be looked at as fat. One of the harshest things I have heard in my 36 years was told to me by my 5 year old son. We were talking about his bed and he was asking if I would lay in his bed with him. I told no I can't because I am too big for it. His reply was "is it because you are fat daddy". This made a tear come to my eyes, I know he didn't mean it to be hurtfull but I wonder where he heard that from. That was I think the breaking point for me.

I have tried over and over for about 15 years to loose weight. I have tried several different methods and the most I have been able to loose was about 20lbs. But then I gained it back. I hope that this life change will work for me and I will not be the fat guy anymore. I guess I will figure out other things to talk about later.