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still losing slowly!!  i've been sick with a inner ear infection and cold so I think that has slowed things down.  I'm not getting much - not all of my water or much of anything but trying... hopefully i'm better soon i need the energy to get thru the holiday!!  i'm not even done shopping!!  just keep telling myself one day at a time....  Merry Christmas to all!!

I'm losing again yeah!!  I'm not sure if I'll make onderland for Christmas but I'll be close!!  I'm down to 213!!  That's 71lbs gone forever!!  I've lost equal to what my 10yrs son weighs!! 

Went in on the 29th and the doctor gave me some fill back!  Not that he had emptied me out completely but it was starting to feel that way!! lol   I was 220 (with clothes) on thursday and this morning (saturday) I was 215!!  But I've been on liquids so now it's back to eating but hopefully with this fill a lot less!!  Hopefully I will be just about to onderland by Christmas!!

Well I had to get my first unfill today!  I've a really bad virus (thanks for sharing kids!) and then tom came along and that was it - had two really really bad pbs and not been able to get all my water in.  So I got on here and read through some posts and that made me realize that I've been going towards the blasted halloween candy and soft foods and still having some problems getting those down - so I called the dr and got in same day - he said I was super tight and probably extremely swollen from the bad pbs so he took out a whole (1) cc taking me from 3.3cc to 2.3cc.  I felt immediate relief - what a difference!  He said to buy a bottle of gatorade and drink it since I've been having dizziness. Maybe once my tummy feels better I will start losing again cuz I've been stalled for a while - even though I've been so sick and not eating.  Thanks to this board I was able to recognize the signs of being to tight becuz otherwise I think I wouldn't have paid attention and been in denial just to keep restriction!  Then I could have to done real dmg to myself and I don't want to do that!! 

I do have some good news - it always seems to be painful posts for me doesn't it! LOL  I had my 35th b-day on 10/27 and my dh took me out shopping and totally spoiled me!!  He always gets upset with me becuz his b-day is the 3rd, and our youngest ds is the 11th, so by the time my b-day comes we're tight on $$$.  I usually do the same on holidays - spend on him and the kids and leave nothing left to spend on me (don't know why).  But this year he planned ahead and stashed some $$ I didn't know about so he took me out to a nice prime rib dinner (for the protein) and then to Macy's and bought me two perfumes!  Juicy & Diamonds - love them both, then over to kohl's for a nice black sweater and black jeans, then to Alberts Jewelers for a small gold bangle bracelet!  I told him that it was all to much but I have to admit I LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!  I have never been spoiled like that and it was wonderful - I could do get used to it!!  It was anniversary, mom's day, valentines/sweetest day,  b-day, & christmas all in one fabulous day!   I have come back to reality now & the fact that I have three wonderful kids and can not be spoiled like that all the time.  But everytime I look at my wrist or put on some of that perfume I can think of what a special man I have and how he spoiled me for my b-day!!!!! 

It must be a curse!  I am so accident prone!!!!  I was trying to help a friend move and her sidewalk had a little baby step (about 2inches higher than the rest) & I didn't know it was there!!!!!!!!!!!!!   *&^%!@#$%^&* down I went - carrying a 19inch tv!  Well the tv is a goner!!!  I messed up my right knee - not broken but they want to do a mri to make sure nothing else is going on.  My dd took pics of it & I'll post!  They thought I broke my rt arm but it turns out it's just a nasty bone bruise & some  muscle dmg - so i'm in a brace for 3wks!!  My left wrist is sprained & my left shoulder is bruised where the tv corner hit!!  so wtf?!?!  am i cursed or what!!  Dont' get me wrong i'm very thankful that it wasnt worse and that nothing is broken but i'm in a lot of pain and all i can take is tylenol becuz no nsaids - which the dr said i needed (of course)!!  He wanted to know why i couldn't take them and i said because i have the lapband - he had no idea what i was talking about!!  his nurse had to tell him - he is a bone specialist but come on..... is he living in a box?!?! 

Ok I'm off the pity pot now - thanks for letting me get that off my chest!!  My dh was upset that i got hurt AGAIN!  Like I wanted this!!  But I do have some good news - I was down to 219 this morning!!! yay!!  I hope I can keep losing until I'm released to exercise again!!!  Have a wonderful autumn!!!
 

Well I have peeked on the boards but I haven't taken the time to update my blog - sorry!!  I really enjoy reading everyone else's and promised myself I would keep mine up and have failed at that terribly!!  I will do better by at least doing a few lines once a week.

Anyhoo, it's been a really busy summer - flew by way too fast!!  I hate to see the summer go - I love the fall but I will miss the days lounging around the pool with the kids!!  I have had so much more energy - it's amazing!!  I can't believe I have lost 62lbs in 7mos!!  I know I will be needing some ps for sure!!  I've totally lost my "girls" and they need to be picked up and put back where they used to be or maybe even higher! : )

I would love to see onederland for christmas!!  What a wonderful present that would be to give myself!!  I still see the same girl in the mirror that started this journey except that her collar bones are starting to show - I forgot I had them!!  I know when I started I was tight in a size 24 - should have been in a 26 but couldn't bring myself to buy that size!!  Now I am pouring myself into a size 16!!  I used to cut the tag out of everything!!!!  Now I leave them in just so I can keep looking at it so I can keep proving to myself that even though I don't see it when I look in the mirror, I can see the tag, hold them up admire how small they look, then pull them up over my hips and button them WITHOUT laying down and sucking it in!!

I have to tell you all about when i went to buy the "sz 16" jeans!  I went with my dd to kohls to see if I could find a pair of pants on clearance there since I had a $10 gift card.  I couldn't believe it - I could not find anything in my size (was in an 18 but thought I'd buy 16 since I was almost there)!!  All the sizes were what I used to be!!  22-26 yet when I was those sizes there was never any kind of selection - only smaller sizes that I couldn't squeeze my big toe in!!!  I felt like it was a really nice nsv!!  So I was forced to look at the jeans - which I had kinda been avoiding - not sure why!  They were on sale for $30 and not in the "WOMENS" section - I love it!!!

I enrolled my 3 yr old ds (soon to be 4) in preschool at the local ymca two days a week for two hrs a day - great for him and me - becuz I work out while he's in class - and until then I admit I wasn;t working out - I've been very active but not doing any specific exercise.  It feels good!!  Who knew I would ever be able to say that!!  This band is the best thing I've done for myself!!  Sure I have days (like around that tmo) that I cuss the thing but I have never felt like I made the wrong choice!!

Well it's getting late - update again soon!!  Tracie

Hello, went in May 7th for my third fill.  I lost .2cc somehow - thought I was at 2.6 but when he gave me this fill I only had 2.4.  Anyhoo, he gave me another .5 to bring me up to 2.9cc. I'm down 30lbs but have been at a standstill so hopefully this will kickstart things again.  As of this morning I'm down another 2lbs so that's great!!  Still doing therapy on my ankle but it's feeling a little better with every session.  I can't wait to be out of this brace and be able to wear some cute sandals!  It's been frustrating when I want to dress up but then have to but on my stupid tennis shoes!!  But the support makes a big difference so I've been following the rules and wearing them everyday! no matter what!!  Hope everyone has a wonderful Mother's Day!!

Went to dr friday and she took the cast off - said swelling went down enough that she would not recast me - YEAH - could not wait to get home and take a real shower and shave my leg!!  Have to wear brace again 24/7 and do three weeks of therapy but I don't mind!!

I went to get my second fill on the 17th and got a small fill (.6) so now I'm at 2.6 and it kicked in today!!  Had my first true pb!!  It was terrible!  I've had the stuck feeling a couple of times before but this was the first time it actually came back up - I  hope it's the last!!  It was my fault - took to big of a bite and eating a little to quickly!! 

Dr told me when I went in for the fill that the problem I had with my gallbladder was called "biliary diskinesia" (sp?) basically it wasn't emptying properly and that caused the swelling and then with the wt loss it just escalated it.  Just so glad it's over!!  Oh yeah - I made it to the 30lb mark today!!  That's 30 gone forever!!  Hopefully now that I am allowed to start doing some exercise again it will keep going off smoothly!!

Had my first nsv (going to have to post it) - I was finally able to wear a pair of jeans without to much discomfort on my incision spots.  Now mind you these jeans were skin tight before surgery and actually to the point of being to uncomfortable to wear - you know the kind you would never ever put in the dryer!!  Well I put them on and at first they seemed to fit the same but within 15mins they were actually baggie!!  I could grab the material of my rear and had enough to hold in my hand!! yeah me!!  My dd said mom why are you wearing those jeans they are way to big for you!!  But kids her age like their jeans to fit kinda tight - and for myself knowing how I forced myself into them just three months ago - well lets just say I felt a little extra bounce in my step and I found myself wanting to look in the mirror because I was having such a hard time wrapping my mind around the fact that they were actually baggy!!  I'm sorry I know I'm rambling about it but I also know you all understand!!  Ok I'll stop and I'll post it!!  Will also try to update some pics soon.

Got my first fill on 3/27 (wt 259 yeah!!) - 2cc in my 10cc band - went great - no pain and only a little nauseousness.  All was going fine not a whole bunch of restriction but better than none!!

Ok so I have been getting nauseous off and on for a while but never thought it could be my gall bladder - praying that I wouldn't have to get an unfil!!  Then on April 1st (april fools to me) I started getting a severe stabbing pain on my right side but it wasn't high enough to be my band so I though I might have over done something and pulled a muscle.  Waited until the 2nd to call dr - after having rough nite with the pain - decided I better not wait any longer.  I called and talk with the nurse and she said it didn't sound like my band to her either that it sound like the gb so I better go to urgent care.  Well I had a follow up appt for my ankle so I thought I would go after that becuz I had been waiting for a while for this appt and am still having a lot of pain and swelling - well the dr casted me! All the way up to my knee!!  She said that I will get it off on the 27th and hopefully the swelling will be gone and I can start some therapy.

Anyhoo, then I go to the er and they take 2hrs to take me in - by this point I am in a lot of pain and extremely nauseous with a terrible headache!!  Well they give me morphine and it makes my headache ten times worse!! Then they put a man on my left who has severe vomiting issues!!  So needless to say even though they gave me something for my nauseousness -  it came back big time!!  I was so happy when they took me for my ultrasound - when I came back they had his issue under control.  Results came back - no gall stones - so they want to take x-rays to check for an obstruction or something.  So I'm waiting and they bring a woman in on my right and she is screaming at the top of her lungs "help me" - so was high on something and coming down hard - this did not help the headache!!  At this point I ended up in tears - I had been there for 5 hrs and they still didn't know what was wrong with me and I just kept feeling worse and worse!!  And I really wanted to yell at that woman to shut the F*** up!!  I started to feel violent on top of being emotional!!  Got the x-rays - they came back neg. too - so the er doc said he was going to call my lap band dr but that they would probably just send me home WTF!!  I'm getting worse and he wants to send me home after 7hrs of torture!?!?  Well my dr said to admit me - bless him!!  Kept me on iv only over night and ran 2 hr test next morning.  Showed my gb was not empting properly and set me up for surgery.  Not to happy about having surgery again so soon but so relieved to see and end to the pain!!    Dr. said I was already having gb issues but the wt loss escalted (sp?)it.   Well  he said  my gb was huge and it was good that  I went in when I did!  I'm still sore from surgery but feel 100% better!!   I go for my follow up on thurs the 12th.   I'm suppose to go for another fill on 17th but I don't know if I'll get one or not now.  Ok guess I've rambled on enough.  I've missed being on here - just haven't felt well enough  - got a lot of catching up to do!!

Haven't updated in a long time..... Surgery went great - got a size 10 band.  Had LOTS!! of port pain after surgery and gassed for weeks!!  Kids loved it, dh wanted to know when it was going to stop!! hehe  lol!!  Went in for one wk checkup - everything looked great so was moved from full liquids to pureeds - who knew pureed steak could be so delicious!!  Could tell swelling was going way down in stomach!  At 3 wk checkup - everything was good so I was moved to soft foods & given appt for first fill (3/27) yeah!!  One week to go - I have maintained wt I lost but I really could use that fill!!  Started at 284 (1/29) & down to 263 & holding!!  yeah

I posted earlier how I fell the week b/4 surgery and sprained my ankle well it is still causing me intense pain and I even sleep with the ankle brace on!  The dr told me that if I could put my wt on it 2 or 3 days after it happened that I didn't do any major dmg and it would just take a long time to heal.  Well I listened to him and now I'm regretting it!!  I am having a hard time getting my walking in - can't go as far as I'd like because it starts swelling and giving me lots of pain.  So dh said I should see someone else and have more x-rays now that it's been 5wks.  So I went in and this dr said I should not be having this much pain still and took the x-rays - turns out I ripped the ligament off the back of my foot and took chunks of bone with it!!  Also have lots of swelling and ligament dmg on the outside of foot - so since I can't take nsaids - she wants me to do 2 wks of therapy to get the swelling down and then go for more x-rays and she said she'll probably have to cast me!!  This sucks! but I'm not going to let it stop me!  I'll just keep taking my little walks around the block and hopefully I'll get a walking cast!! 

Have to tell you guys also - DRINK YOUR WATER!!  I was having a hard time getting it in the first couple of weeks because of sleeping a lot and not feeling like I had the room - well I ended up giving myself a really nasty urinary tract infection!!  Painful!!  I'm doing a lot better now and I'm numbering my water bottles to be sure I'm getting them in!  Well that's all for now  -  promise to post again soon so I don't have to fit so much in!